I don't know when it was when I had a face to face convo with anyone irl besides my close friends, but I sure as hell know I don't do so. I mean fuck I just want I make it to the damn sectional. My parents said they weren't gonna be home. Cool. I get it. You can't make it in time. But I can car pool. So I said that this is how I went. (Slightly exaggerated in the tone of calmness. And I was trying so hard to to cuss or say hell or damn.) "Okay. If you can't make it then I can car pool with someone or have someone pick me up." Now I didn't name anyone. "But We pick up Kassy. So she can't pick you up. And Liz can't either." They gave no logical explanation about why Liz couldn't pick me up and they had no proof I was even gonna go to Kassy. (Sorry baby ily) So I try again slightly pissed off. "I can get a ride from some one else like Nico or Maddie or Shanon or Molly or Megan or Katie or Jenna." I didn't name of people but my mom show know there are many people going to said sectional and many more than Liz and I. So I try again about to lose it. Now I get pissed off very easily when I'm on my period. My mood will change with the snap of a finger. And it did. I went from calm and collected to completely and utterly pissed off. "I know this is not mandatory but I want to go." I basically said. But didn't say. (Don't know exactly what I said but it was something like that.) "Dog (not using real name) I talked to the people running the program and they said you don't need to go. It's optional." I was so close to just snapping. I would have screamed if my voice hadn't given out sometime after MetLife. "I know it's not mandatory but I want to go. Maddie said having no ride isn't a excuse not to go. No ride and haveing home work isn't a excuse because there are ten fudging flutes and god knows how many clarinets in the band." I was almost to the point of breaking something. Now I didn't actually cuss but it was basically that. "But people aren't like me were they will say yes." She said calmly. I almost screamed there are probably 30 fucking people going there and you think not one of them can pick me up. But instead I say "Mom I could get Liz's mom to bring me on the way to field hockey or Molly to get me there cause she is a senior she should be able to drive at that age." And it goes on like that. Eventually my mom says "The world doesn't revolve around you. Just because you have a practice to get to doesn't mean we have to drop everything we are doing to get you there." I was about to fucking lose it. I was so close to hitting someone or breaking something. I said "I KNOW THAT! WHAT IN THE NAME OF HELL MAKES YOU THINK I THINK THE WORLD REVOLVES AROUND ME! IVE NEVER WANTED TO GO TO A PRACTICE MORE IN MY LIFE." Basically something amongst those line. I was walking away when she said to stop. I was debating weather or not to be a smart ass and say something and keep the fight going walk away and get in trouble or just reply. So I said "I know you don't think I can make it. I know you did a lot of things for me but what I'm saying is I can make it easy on you and get my own ride. If you don't want that then you're basically saying you want me to miss practice because I don't have a fricken ride to practice." I was to the point I was about to just kill. Like kill anyone. My dad was awesome and said he could try to get home as early as he could and get me there. I was nice and said sure. He asked me what time it was. I said I don't know. Them mom said "Ask Maddie." I mean don't you think o ready fucking tried that? "No. Maddie and Meg have to find out the time and have it fit around their schedual so hopefully they don't have to be up at 3am doing homework." I explained. Then the last straw was pulled when about a few seconds after they both asked what time it was my dad had to ask "So what time is it." I was pissed as fuck. So I said "I DONT KNOW!" And they got angry. I mean they litteraly asked that question about five towns and still didn't know the answer. Like what the actual hell! And not as I'm typing this a few moments ago my mom decided to make a smart ass remark that made me what to smack her. "I hope you can talk to me about a ride later." Or something like that. I wanted to kill someone. Like actually wasn't having any of it. I just didn't respond 'cause I knew I was gonna say something I would regret. I mean this is why I don't communicate with people who are not on the Internet. This is why I don't speak to people face to face. I don't like to do so, so I won't. But my mom wants me to be that child I was when I was four again and still expects me to socialize. I mean seeing how I fight with people when I socialize all the time or when I do, I'm not very scocial.