There is so much that love has to offer that all it leaves for you is pain and sorrow right? Wrong ! said Jordan every time i tried to convince him about the same."You just have to wait for the perfect guy who is willing to look beyond your imperfections blablabla....." sick of these lines honestly.   

  The next day in school when i realised that i left my specs cleaner (the usual spray one you find commonly in different stores ) at home and only the guy with hazel eyes had brought one to school made me feel nervous whether i should borrow it or not. Oh wait , did i mention that i wear specs now? Yup! My eyes apparently are uncooperative and i only wear them to school if i needed to, whenever i get these blurry visions of the blackboard . I looked like a seventy year old grandma with it to be frank . But ok , who cares about physical appearance anyways right?.I didnt want to initiate a conversation with this"hazel eyed" guy ok calling him "guy with hazel eyes" is getting pretty annoying now lets just call him by his real name , Logan.Katty asked him for his specs cleaner on my behalf , i couldnt even be bothered to say thankyou honestly even though this might make me sound like a bad person.

  He looked at me with his weird smile and said "arent you gonna say something?" it was then when i replied "oh thanks" to get out of his sight . I really didnt know what was going on between this couple , couple as in Logan and his girlfriend . She used to be extremely nice to me and just two weeks back she dropped me home because i didnt have a ride back. Whats with the change in attitude? i asked Jordan if everything was okay , since she was a good friend and im not willing to loose her especially if its because of that heartless Logan. Jordan told me to calm down , he said that she was just going through a "phase" at that time and she would be fine overtime. I completely understood , ive been there and im still there . Nope , im not healed yet and i dont know how long will it take for me to go back to the carefree happy go lucky Vic like my former self. 

 We had a summer break , before graduating to the ninth grade . Students were divided into two streams according to their choice and interest. The business stream and the science stream. Since i was good in biology , i wanted to become a specialist kind of doctor . Not sure what but, my choice was either a neurosurgeon or veteranian or something related to that since i love animals. I had no guts to touch blood or whatsoever so i think the future me would hate the present me for this fear. Katty also enrolled herself in the science stream , so glad that i had someone atleast. Others were all new , it was like a mixture of students. Logan enrolled himself in the science stream as he wanted to become some kind of technician or doctor or something like that, katty told me this .

  Dont have the misconception that i would bother myself by asking him anything related to his life. So as i was saying ,summer break started and my mom told me to get a photocopy of my textbooks from someone instead of purchasing from the school directly as it costed a lot of money. I neglected her words for the first two weeks of my vacation as i wanted some "me time" . But after two weeks ,katty messaged me and told me that she was not prepared for school and that she wanted to change her physical appearence to impress Logan and etc. I promised to help her make her diet plan. She asked me the reason why my fats werent visible yet i am capable of eating triple her food portion. I honestly had no answer to this ,i guess you can say its god‟s gift? I wanted to be fat though , like no jokes. I wanted to atleast gain 80 kgs and i actually tried to   eat 7 times a day but i ended up loosing weight anyways without realization.

  It has been two weeks and two days since my summer vacation first begun and my mom has been nagging me to arrange and borrow books from one of my friends to photocopy . I couldnt borrow from katty as she was out of town and stressed out , i couldnt borrow from Jordan as he would be joining the business stream (and anyways he would be photocopying from someone else too) , couldnt borrow from my bestfriend or Logan‟s "girlfriend" im not sure if that term is still implicable as no one knew about their relationship status. Out of the blue , when i woke upthe next day my mom told me that one ofher colleague‟s son was in my grade.Colleague as in they had the same business but both belonged to different organizations. I told my mom that i wouldnt be able to recall if i didnt know the son‟s name who is presumed to be my classmate. She said , his name is Logan. I  was like what the hell is happening , my life is full of plot twists or what? She told me well , not told me but she forced me to message Logan to borrow his books so she could save money.  

  By force and out of obligation , i messaged him very formally like as if he was some elderly man and i never had this habbit of being polite to anyone until now . "hi ,sorry to disturb you early in the morning,Logan." thats how i initiated the conversation. He replied me within twenty minutes and he was like "hi , tell me?" . I asked him out of shame because you know he would always be the last person i would ask a favour from.I got to the point immediately and asked him for his books.Without being sarcastic or anything(surprisingly) he told me to pick the books up from his house whenever i wanted to. I didnt want to personally go there and meet him so , i told my mom to pick it up while she was on her way back home. I got the books and opened the bag that contained it to check if everything was complete. Later that evening, i thanked him and promised to return it back to him within two or three days .

 Weirdly he said , "dont worry take your time even if you dont return it its fine" .Huft , how i wish formality didnt exist. I didnt talk to him after this , Christian wasstill running through my mind like ecstacy honestly. Mornings , evenings and nights is till do get affected like how i was when Logan told me for the first time. Is something wrong with me or this love thing acts like this to everyone? Too unexperienced to comment on this question yet. The next afternoon Logan messaged me , "hi" he said. I really thought he wanted his books back so when i asked him "yes Logan?" you know i said this instead of hi , to get to the point.Suddenly he told me , "im bored , wanna chat?" umm.... not really interested i guess but since im using his "facilities" a.k.a his  books , chatting wont harm would it?Initially we started of chatting about school work , school life , friends in school . No personal topics as yet so i was comfortable. 

  That same night (they say that night time is the best time to open up to someone?)he told me about his issues with his girlfriend (my popular friend) but he didnt mention her name to me he probably thought that i was a fool and i didnt know they were dating . Well , to keep him happy i actually did act stupid for once as i wanted him to spill the beans by himself .He didnt. This guy is honestly as stubborn as i am so, i dont know if you can say that we can connect well? I still hate him though but he actually isnt as bad as how i presumed him to be. I finally got sick of him telling me that he just broke up with a girl from singapore and the issues related to this despite the fact that this so called"singaporean girl" is approachable everyday in school. I was blunt so i told him "Logan you do realise that i know who she is right?". And when i told him her name he was shocked , he was like damn even the new comers know now.Like honestly , it is my third year in this school from which angle do i look like anew comer?

  It was from this point that he was comfortable to tell me everything , and hedid . He tried to break my shell as i was still that quiet girl , i told you i lost my charm and i wasnt happy go lucky like how i was before. He asked me about Christian and although i didnt want to talk about it , i thought of asking some kind of advice because like maybe he would understand whats going on in Christian‟s mind , guy to guy kind of thing. I struggled while telling him , it was not because i wasnt comfortable but i didnt want to see myself being all sad and cranky for the entire night. He told me that Christian isnt the right guy for me and he had his own motives to talk to me . For example , he  said "why would Christian talk to you outof the blue when he found out that you and Jaynie are somehow relatives , why didnt he talk to you before this?" I had no answer to this and he said well obviously ,"because you are the only way he could meet her as his parents arent fond of Jaynie". I started to realize bit by bit like maybe whatever Logan was saying could be true right? I mean, it made sense. 

  He told me that Jaynie and Christian are bad influence for me and that im still innocent somehow. I remember even my mom used to advice me like "even if you are a good apple lets say a ripe one but if you hang out with rotten ones people wouldnt look beyond this they would consider you to be rotten as well" . The same goes with your company she used to tell me this in reference to Jaynie and Christian. Logan started talking to me on a daily basis and like i said before he isnt as bad as i thought he was. He entertained me and tried to make me forget about Christian. I dont know why he was being super nice to me and Jordan‟s words on the phone , i could never recall at this time.

 Surprisingly , me and Logan became super close as friends i mean i never thought of him as anything else. It was summer vacation and we were invited to a wedding ceremony and i told Logan that i‟ll be going to a wedding ceremony the night after and he was like "oh my god , same here!" . He was also invited and most of my school mates were invited , he said .He didnt want his ex to be there though but she might just appear , her bestfriend is surely coming but Logan shared a special bond with his ex‟s bestfriend and treated her like his sister . He told me that i shouldnt be afraid of feeling left out as he would be my good company . I wasnt very comfortable as i didnt know her .Well , she used to study in my former school but only for a year and i couldnt remember her very well.  

  The next day was the wedding ceremony day. Remember that i told you , im a type of girl who dislikes makeup and all that? I still hate it till date. My mom dragged me to the saloon as she said that my hair looked like a messed up broom . The hairdresser pulled my hair and like swept hot air through it with his stupid curling and straightening machine. I looked ok , i mean it wasnt as bad as YET. I came back home and saw logan‟s text , he told me that he was confused about what to wear to the wedding party that night . He asked me to help him pick a shirt for himself , soi was like okay. I chose a dark blue shirt for him as it looked pretty decent to me from the picture that he sent . I didnt realise that i was wearing blue as well nor did i want him to think that i did it on purpose so i told him to wear something else as i was wearing blue. (Not exaggerating i actually do think that far) he told me to take a picture of my outfit my mom chose for me and i did. He was like ,   "we‟re gonna wear the same shade of blue wouldnt it look nice" i was like" ya , umsure?..."

 An hour before we were about to leave for the ceremony , my mom forced me to use some kind of black liquid on my eye thats called an eye liner apparently. I didnt have this much of knowledge about makeup but i knew about powder and lipstick and thats it. The two most hate-able items on the planet. Like god invented your face why would you add extra white stuff on it?Now that i have this black line on my eyelid , i thought i looked like a witch. I searched on how to remove this liner thing , it didnt work. I needed some kind of makeup remover that i obviously didnt have and i didnt know that washing it off with water would either work or worsen the situation . Logan messaged me right at the time i needed help and asked me whether ive left home or not. In this short span of time he got to know what kind of a girl i am , i told him about the ridiculous liner thing and he told me to just leave it the way it is . Rubbing it will end up making me look more like a witch with smudged black eyes. I obeyed him without arguing (surprisingly) as we were getting late to leave as well. 

  My phone had no credit at that time it only worked with wifi (one of the problems with cheap people , who would rather spend on buying icecream rather than filling their phone‟s credit) so... i didnt know if i would be able to see Logan as the hall was pretty huge and crowded. I was walking with my mom and there was this kid beside me that spilled juice on my feet . There was nothing i could do except wipe it off before anyone else would notice it. I was still standing and the moment i wanted to bend down to clean the stain , i felt as if someone snapped me from behind and when i turned around i saw Logan with his dark blue shirt i chose for him . He looked at me with a smile and told me to come with him . I was like no way , this is public what if i see christian here and what if my mom sees this? .

  I told him that i wanted to look for Christian as many people were invited and he could be anywhere in the hall. He told me not to worry and he promised to help me if i joined him. He took me near the stage where there would be dance performances by the bride and groom‟s family, it was situated near the bar. His ex‟s bestfriend was also there and she wasnt shrewd at all infact, she gave me company. 

 Jordan was with us too perhaps the only reason why i was actually comfortable in a crowd of three was because of Jordan‟s presence. Each of them had a glass in their hand filled with different bubbly drinks.Logan asked me "vic what would you like to have , tequila or some kind of liquor?" i was shook . I told him that i dont drink and water would be just fine , not cold as i had a sore throat . He got me something bubbly and started laughing "drink this ,u‟ll love it" i was like "um no... where‟s my glass of water?". He continued , "dont you trust me vic?" i agreed to take a sip as i pitied him for going all the way to the bar for me and it was just SODA. All this time i thought it was some liqour ...it was just cold plain soda and i was allowed to drink this. He laughed and everyone laughed too. We all , we as in me , Logan and his so called sister and Jordan walked near the stage just as the performances were about to begin.

  The dances were pretty good and Logan ,being a critic like always was judging each one of the pretty girls dancing up there onstage . He was like "i‟ll give her a 7/10"and i was like "ok ...". The clock struck 12 and it became like a cinderella scene as it was late already , coincidentally Logan was also called by his dad and he had to leave soon as well . I reached home at around 1 am since the distance was quite far from the venue to my house . Logan messaged  me at 1.30 am and asked me if i was awake. 

  I was as usual awake and cooking some kind of masterchef dish for myself as i didnt eat anything much in the wedding. I made an egg roll for myself and i did it all alone , everyone was asleep by that time.Mom never used to allow me to be in the kitchen as i am generally careless as a person i had a bad habbit of leaving the stove on even when after using it. So logan had to remind me around three times to check if i had turned off the stove switch properly. Later that same night , after finishing my meal me and Logan were chatting , but out of the blue he told me"you looked stunning in the party , just by the way" i didnt know how to respond to this and was literally blank . I never expected a guy like him to compliment me. I didnt wanna seem rude , so i told him that he looked nice too . I wasnt smiling or anything just like how other girls would if any random guy , especially if a guy like Logan would compliment them .

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