My girlfriends... the rest of them. They're gone for now. Tears are dripping down my face as I write this. I miss the both of them SO MUCH. I want my loves back. Aka's phone charger broke and Masu is at her Mom's 12 out of every 14 days. Basically she can't talk almost always and Aka can't ever talk basically. My entire life has been taken away from me. Thankfully someone whom I love also can be there for me and I'm so thankful to her for that. She can't talk too much but anything is enough. I just feel awful right now. There's nothing I can do to stop this. I'm completely helpless about it and I feel so fucking weak. I just want my girlfriends back! Is that so much to bloody ask for?! ...I'm so upset. They were my life. I live for them and I just miss them so much. I can't wait until I can hear from one of them again. I'm on vacation right now and trying to keep my sobs down so my parents don't hear me. I just hate this. I hate my life right now. I don't know where I'd be if I didn't have that person I mentioned earlier. More light will be shed on her when needed. Sometimes I just call Aka even though it won't pick up but just before her charger died she set her voicemail up so it's her voice. I miss her beautiful voice so much. I just need to hear it sometimes. I miss Masu's equally if not more because she's been gone longer. Her cute little laugh, how clingy she is, how fucking adorable she is. I just miss it so much! I miss her so much! My pillow is fucking soaked now. Calling Aka in the middle of this is what did it. This made me realize so much. Like just how much technology controls in our relationship. It controls everything and without it, I wouldn't be with them. So, I'm so glad that I know them. No matter how much this is killing me I'm still so glad that I know them. I will never not be thankful to them for finding my love. They (and the other person, again I'll get into her later) have all my love. I will not give them up so easily.

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