I could feel my sweat trickle all over my body. I stopped for a moment and then realized that I was chasing for the impossible. I sighed in defeat and sat on the concrete floor. Glares were thrown at me, yet it didn't make me flinch.

I've left the building with so much remorse.

That could have been my ticket to my dream. I said to myself.

My mother would be very upset with the news I'm about to tell her. She has always been rooting for me, pushing me to the limits for me to believe in myself, to work with the impossible and hope for the best.

I didn't make it on time to the entrance exam of a law university because I arrived late.

Not because of a traffic jam all the way to the university but because of me.

I realized something when I was on my way there.

I ask myself, 'Am I really happy of what I am about to do? Do I want to be a lawyer at all?' and my answer for both questions? Were both unsure.

I am just happy of what am I bound to do because of my mother's willingness to pursue me to the field of law. But, personally? I am not. With that in thought, that answered my second question, I don't want to be a lawyer at all.

My mother was speechless when I told her what just happened. For a moment we were both silent not until she hugged me.

"You should have told me that you didn't want to be one, my dear. I would never push you in doing such things that isn't in your heart. I'd be much in more pain if I would force you to something you don't want at all." Her words casted my remorse away. For a moment I knew, I just found myself crying at my mother's shoulder.

"Thank you, Mom." 

We left each other's hold when my father slammed the door that denotes his arrival and it scared me so much. 

"You are going to law school, Clare! That is final! I've already called the university and I've sort the things out, so get up and take up the exam!" his words were like a knife, piercing through my heart.

Even if I protest against him, I knew nothing would change his mind. 

"But, I have a condition. I'll promise to ace the exam if you agree to my condition, dad." I blurted out of the burning will inside me. 

After telling him my condition, he agreed. I jumped out of happiness and so as my mother because clearly, we weren't expecting that my father would agree. I just knew that if a thing really matters, it is worth the risk.

Years later...

I've finished law school and I have somehow enjoyed my journey there.

4 years later after taking up Law, I finished my pre medicinal course as a nurse.

Yes, being in the field of medicine is where I longed to be. This is my dream and now I am living it. I have gone through many challenges, sleepless nights and buckets of tears were shed. But all along, all was really worth it. 

I did face life it was my reality, it was a quite a tough battle but I was able to get through because of what's at stake.

And it was my dream.

Through all of what I've been to, I did realize something.

In order to achieve your dreams, you must live your life, only to that you could find the real meaning of success, so...

You don't really have to choose life over dreams, after all.