Just now I was kicked from a server that had what I thought were my friends in it. Sadly I was kicked from said server because I could not see the normal human's way. I know that they probably won't see this, but I'm sorry for not understanding. If I join back I'll just make people angry. All I ever accomplish is making people angry. I'm an annoying retarded speck on the face of this earth. I'm just a nuisance for everyone. I can't see life like a normal person. I don't feel like a normal person. I just want to be liked. People probably won't see this and likely won't even acknowledge it and the the only comments might be saying things like "oh I don't hate you" when its likely that they don't even know me. I can't even be friends with people like a normal person. I'm never my own thing. I always ride people's coattails and fail to attempt to support them. I have lost so many friends from just saying "Heh" all the damn time. I only say heh because I can't trust myself to say anything else. I'm always scared that I'm going to lose my friends whenever I say or do anything, but now I realise that I'm even more annoying when I say heh. I only ever said heh in the first place because its different. I wanted to be different but now i don't even want that anymore. If different means unacceptable than I just want to be normal. I wouldn't care if I wasn't a fucking grey silhouette. I just want to be accepted.