Warning: This chapter contains sensitive content.

Jungkook wakes up from his slumber as the golden rays of the sun creep from the window and fall onto his eyes, making him shut them tight as he shifts onto his spot.

He opens his eyes slowly, turning his head to look at the time. 6 in the morning. Damn! He woke up early today.

Just then, events of the previous night flow back to his mind. Oh god! He didn't realise before that it was his first time! He bites his lower lip at it and couldn't help but chuckle.

He turns his head towards Sewon, thinking of her to be asleep but to his surprise, she is fully awake, staring at him with those doe, loving eyes in delusion. As soon as she realises that Jungkook has been staring at her back, she feels her cheeks heat up as she turns around, hiding her face under the duvet.

Jungkook chuckles as he turns around and in a swift motion, grabs her bare waist and pulls her towards him, pressing his body against her.

Sewon turns red as she looks down, biting her lower lip and shutting her eyes tight. Jungkook lifts up her chin, using his index figure, making her look into his eyes directly as he stares at her lovingly.

"Enjoyed last night, baby...?" She nods shyly, looking at him like an innocent angel. Jungkook couldn't help but chuckle at her cuteness. Damn, is it the same girl who was horny as hell last night?

Sewon slowly guides her hand from his chest towards his neck, gently caressing it and pulling his face closer to hers. Jungkook goes feral by her actions as he sighs and gives in to her, moving his face closer to hers, inch by inch.

When their lips touch barely and are about to grind it deeper, their romantic moment is interrupted by the buzzing of Jungkook's phone. Both of them widen their eyes at the sudden buzzing of his phone, a hint of disappointment in both of their eyes.

Sewon pouts and sighs disappointedly, "Must be your bestfriend..."

Jungkook gives a smile, "I'll be quick"
He turns around and picks his phone from the nightstand to see the caller ID. Namjoon hyung? He's surprised to see him calling so early in the morning. He doesn't remember of any schedule nor was there any important meetings today.

Nevertheless, he picks it up, "Good morning leaderrr!!! How's the day going?" He says in his raspy voice, ruffling his hair.

"Jungkook...," his voice sounds strange, "Where are you?"

Jungkook is confused. Why is he asking me this? But still answers, "At Sewon's... Why?"

Namjoon huffs, "Come to Asan Medical Centre...ASAP!!"

Jungkook is worried now, ,"Medical Centre....? Why? Is everything alright hyung?" He just hopes everything is alright. But the next words that leave Namjoon's mouth, leave Jungkook trembling, his eyes widened as his mouth hangs open in terror.

"S-Suju...S-She... She's in a critical condition.... Doctors are unsure about her." Namjoon's voice almost breaking as he shares the information, "W-we are on our wa--"

Jungkook's phone drops from his hand, as he stares blankly on the wall. There's only one picture flashing in his mind: his phone buzzing with "Suju" on its screen.

With millions of thoughts running in his mind, he abruptly gets up, searching through his backpack and putting on any piece of fabric he gets: grey sweatpants and a black t-shirt.

Meanwhile, Sewon is left in utter confusion as she sees Jungkook panic and shake. He was all cheerful when we woke up, what happened so suddenly?

She calls his name a number of times, but no response. It was until he puts on his sneakers quickly, his laces almost undone, and is about to rush out of her apartment when Sewon grasps his wrist firmly. That makes him look back, his ears and nose getting redder as he stares at her with his doe eyes, carrying panic.

"Jungkook!!" She grabs his shoulders and shakes him, "I've been calling you from the past 15 minutes!! What's wrong with you!!!"

Jungkook's throat is dry. He has been feeling this heavy lump since the second he heard the devastating news. He stutters, "I-I... I've a... I-important Work... I've to g-go..." He releases himself from her grasp as he rushes on his way.

Jungkook is not in a condition to wait for the next bus that was supposed to arrive in the next 30 minutes. He just takes a taxi, though it charged double the amount. He is in such a condition that he even forgot to take the change of the extra amount he gave to the driver.

His legs feel weak and he wants to cry and scream because he doesn't know what he's feeling. Whether it's anger on himself, sad, guilt, tensed, worried, he doesn't know it. He just wants to fall down on his knees and cry, till Soojin comes to comfort him.

When he reaches in front of the emergency hall, he sees his hyungs- all in a terrible and vulnerable condition.

Taehyung's is the worst. He's not even in a condition to stand properly, as he leans onto Jimin who's continuously comforting him, while there are tears in his own eyes. Yoongi, crouching by the wall, his face red. Seokjin, standing still with a serious, blank face, while Hoseok paces here and there.

Namjoon notices Jungkook first and anxiously walks towards him, suddenly pulling him in his arms as he huffs, getting a hint of relief from his heavy emotions that he has been keeping in because how can he show them? He has to remain strong! He's the leader. If he breaks apart, who'll keep the others strong?

Jungkook croaks out, his voice breaking, "Hyung... Suju..."

"We don't know, Jungkook...we don't know...," Namjoon whispers defeatedly.

He lets go of Jungkook as he stands by Seokjin, discussing something, all that goes unheard by Jungkook, who's lost in his own thoughts. He's only thinking of the call, that call by Soojin.

She called me.... At 3. Why would she fvckin call me at 3 in the morning to have a chat!! It was obviously for help. She called me for help... She trusted me... And foolish me.... I didn't save her.

He covers his face with both his palms as he sobs and his body shudders at the realisation. He feels his world breaking apart.

I promised... I promised to protect her at any cost. She was mine to protect. She called but... I didn't save her.

Jungkook falls onto his knees as he sobs uncontrollably, his face all red as the tears stream down. Hoseok wraps his arms around Jungkook, coaxing and shushing him as his eyes gleam too.

"Kook ah... Don't cry... Our Suju will be okay... She's strong!" He pats his back.

Jungkook croaks out, unable to hold in his heavy emotions and his guilt, "S-Suju c-called m-me... A-asking f-for h-help...," he sobs. The members widen their eyes as they stare at him in terror. "B-but...I-I d-didn't p-pick it up!! I-I d-didn't s-save h-her!!!" His body shakes as he cries out.

Namjoon comes towards him and ruffles his hair, "It's okay Jungkook ah... You didn't mean it.. it's not your fault at all!" Namjoon tries to ease him up. He knows what he might be feeling right now, especially when the matter is about his dearest bestfriend, the person whom he cherished the most.

Suddenly, the boys feel a presence near them. "Uhm... Are you all Bangtan Sonyeondan...?" They all look up. A young lady, who looks around the age of Hoseok and Namjoon, probably around 21. Lean and tall, in a medical suit. She must be a doctor.

The lady gives a hesitant smile, introducing herself, "Oh... Myself Kim Yunhee, a junior doctor."

The boys hurriedly get up and rush towards her, their eyes carrying a lot of emotions, clearly expressing their concern for their little one. Namjoon speaks, "Greetings, doctor. Yes, we're Bangtan Sonyeondan"

"Doctor... Our Suju... What happened to her? She's alright, isn't she...?" Seokjin asks, in a tone of desperation and vulnerability as if he's a dad and his own child is in the emergency room.

Dr. Yunhee looks down, nibbling on her lower lip. She's trying to find a way how to share the upcoming devastating news to them. She needs a lot of courage for them.

There are two things in which doctors face the most difficulty and need a lot of courage to overcome that. The first being their patient's death and the second is to share that news to their close ones and see them break apart in a matter of seconds.

Yunhee takes a deep breath. I've to do it. How can I lie to them now? She gulps and looks directly into their eyes, "Miss Kim... She has met with a terrible accident the previous night, on their way back from the dockyard," Yunhee stops momentarily, her breath getting heavier to continue to the more devastating part.

"And...?" Namjoon asks. He's sweating hard by now, hearing the details of the event. He can feel his heart thumping hard against his chest, almost knocking his breath out. He's an atheist but today, he's praying to God to do nothing but only to save their little one.

Yunhee sighs, "Two bodies were recovered from the site... One being probably the driver, it was found in the car... And another one is of Miss Kim's, which was found a few metres away from the car...Miss Kim is alive... somehow..."

"Somehow?! What do you mean by that??" Seokjin snaps, glaring at her.

"She was found in a bad... Very very critical condition. She's in no condition to be back to the normal state," she closes her eyes shut, unable to see the brothers break apart. They almost stop breathing, as they clench their jaws, controlling their tears.

Yunhee continues, "We, doctors are unsure about her now... She has barely 2% chances of living... So, our team, led by Senior Dr. Lee Chaerok, is going to give a last try... We request y'all to come by the emergency hall... To see her...," Yunhee's own voice breaks.

"This is a sick joke, right?! Y'all are lying!!" Yoongi yells. "She... She's okay!!"

"We could've been able to save her...if we reached right at the moment," Yunhee glares at him, her eyes gleaming with tears as well, "The accident occurred at around 3 in the morning and we were informed at around 5! Two hours later!!"

These words are like a bullet for Jungkook, piercing through his heart, numbing himself. His eyes widen as his expressions remain blank and he just stands there, still. Guilt engulfs him and he feels himself shattering apart.

Yunhee turns her back to them as she dashes to the emergency hall until she's stopped by Taehyung calling her, "Doctornim..." Taehyung smiles amidst his tears, "You're doing this so that... We'll be more happy to talk to our baby, right?" Yunhee looks at him, her lips quivering as she's unable to hold herself long.

"My baby... She's all okay... I know she'll hug me when she'll see me!" He says with hope in his eyes. Yunhee just rushes to the emergency hall, without looking back. She can't look back. It's making her weak now.

The boys follow her immediately, though their bodies feel heavy now, so heavy that they all want to fall onto their knees and succumb to their grief.

A/N: The boys were so concerned to know about the condition of their little one that they all didn't pay attention to the strange and mysterious fact that the doctors recovered only two bodies. Of the driver and Soojin. But what about Haru? He was the one with whom Soojin went to Jeju. Where is Haru? Did he run away somewhere, abandoning Soojin? Or... Does it hint to something more mysterious?

Now, back to the present~

The boys reach to the huge, glass window of the emergency hall, their eyes desperate to steal a glance of their little one, their maknae, their baby, their Soojin.

And there she is- lying limp on the medical bed. From the right side, she seems like a sleeping beauty, as if she's just asleep peacefully. From the left side, they notice her whole face plastered, an oxygen mask providing her with life and a heart monitor by her side, showing how drastically her heartbeat rate is dropping.

This sight is too much for Taehyung to bear. He goes nuts, losing all the bare minimum control he had upon himself. He rushes, about to barge into the emergency hall until Jimin pulls him in his grasp, hugging him as tightly as he can.

Taehyung screams in pain, "L-LET ME GOOO!! M-MY S-S-SUJUU!!!!"

Jimin, who's uncontrollably crying as well seeing his bubbly bestfriend in such terrible condition, tries to comfort him, "No Tae no!!! Not now... Not now..."

"B-BUT... B-BUT M-MY...B-BABY...," his voice breaks and comes out hoarse as he keeps on sobbing in between. Jimin shushes him, patting his back and tousling his hair.

The doctors stare at the boys pityfully. It's one of the most painful sight for doctors. But can they do anything? It's not in their hands. Perhaps, fate will decide the outcomes.

Yunhee brings out the electrical, metal plates, connecting them to the circuit board and handing them to Dr. Lee. The senior doctor glances at his staff for one last time, nodding before continuing his work...

He presses the electric plates on Soojin's chest. Her body jolts up in a shock. This moment make all of them stop breathing, as if their own hearts have stopped beating. The boys bite on their lips harshly, not even blinking as they stare at her.

And....

The heart monitor goes silent... Showing a single green line.

This single moment is like a huge atomic blast in their lives, shattering them completely. The doctors huff as they hang their heads low, unable to see the boys' condition. There is a deafening silence, so similar to that of the heart monitor.

Jungkook feels his world turn apart. As if the ground has slipped away from his feet. He feels as if his own heart has stopped beating with the silence of the heart monitor. He's unable to see or hear anything that's happening around him, whether it's his hyungs breaking apart or them crying like hell. His eyes are focused on that heart monitor while the silence echoes in his ears. Tears stream down his cheeks uncontrollably but there is no kind of expression on his face; it's blank.

Kookie!! I'm back!!
I missed you so so much my Kookie!!
Are you happy to see me again?

Jungkook closes his eyes shut, tears streaming down more as her voice echoes in his mind. It's not true. No, it's not. It's a nightmare, the worst nightmare I'm having!! I know... Suju must be trying her best to wake me up and here I'm, imagining some senseless things.

Just then, Jungkook is brought out of his thoughts when he falls into the ground suddenly, with a hard blow on his face. Jungkook widens his eyes as he touches the corner of his mouth. It stings and he's bleeding from his nose and mouth.

Before he could comprehend what's happening, he's pulled by his collar, and is given some couple of hard punches right on his face again. He opens his eyes slightly to see who's the attacker and is baffled to see it's...

TAEHYUNG!

His face completely red, his eyes burning, clearly expressing pain and anger, as tears never stop spilling out of them. He delivers another couple of punches, screaming, "YOU B-BASTARD--" *punches* "YOU-- ALL CAUSE OF YOU--" *punches again* "M-MY B-BABY....SHE--"

"TAEEEEE!!!" Jimin yells and pulls him away from Jungkook, holding him tightly in his embrace.

"LET GOO JIMIN!!! I'LL KILL HIM TODAY--" He pushes Jimin aside, about to lash at Jungkook again before Namjoon pulls him from one side, "TAE! STOP!"

Jimin grasps his shoulders and shakes him, yelling, "COME BACK TO YOUR SENSES, TAE!!! PLEASE!! LOOK AT ME TAE!!"

Taehyung's expression, all of a sudden, turns blank as he stares at Jimin until suddenly... His body stiffens as his eyes roll back and he collapses onto Jimin. And this gives arise to another chaos.

"Yaah.... Tae... TAE!! Ah--" Jimin tries to hold his weight as he gasps in shock. Namjoon, Hoseok and Seokjin rush to him to hold Taehyung.

Namjoon pats his cheeks, "TAE! TAE... WAKE UP!!!" He shakes as he yells for the doctors, "EXCUSE MEE!! DOCTOR... DOCTOR PLEASE... HELP!!"

Some other doctors and nurses rush and take him to a medical room while Jimin, Hoseok and Namjoon follow them. Yoongi doesn't move. He's too succumbed to his own grief that he doesn't care about anyone right now.

Seokjin is left in a critical condition. He's confused whether he should go to Taehyung or stay by Yoongi and Jungkook. He knows very well that either of them will surely do something. So, he just stays by the corner, without actually following the other three. He knows the boys too well. Judging by their conditions, he knows what's going on in their minds.

And his assumption is right. Because as soon the others leave with Taehyung, Jungkook gets up abruptly and rushes upstairs, most probably to the terrace.

Seokjin widens his eyes in realisation, as he follows Jungkook hurriedly, calling his name, "JUNGKOOK WAIT!! NO JUNGKOOK, DON'T!!" He ignores his own grief for Jungkook. He can't let anything happen to him.

Without you, do I have any purpose to live?
Without you... Does life have any meaning?