Instead of heading straight to that asshole Axel, I decided to head back to my room instead.

Yeah I wanted to kick his ass so bad, I wanted him to feel how I feel inside- but I just couldn't. Maybe I will tomorrow, but right now all I wanted to do was lay on my bed and fall asleep. Didn't matter if it wasn't nightfall yet, I didn't fucking give a damn anymore.

If Kaia wanted to be with Ax now, the least she could do was tell me straight up. I can't believe she was easily swept off her feet like that. I will always adore her though, that's for fucking sure.

I pull up outside the dorms and walk up slowly to my room. My face showed no emotion whatsoever. I looked at my cell, it had 3 missed calls from James and 2 new texts from Axel. I didn't give a fuck, no one mattered anymore.

I got into my room and lay on the bed. I didn't know how to feel. I had never felt like this about anyone before. Yeah, I've played around with girls before and they've done the same to me- but why the fuck does it hurt more coming from Kaia? What makes the pain from what she did with Axel hurt more than what any other girl has done to me. Fuck my life. Fuck everything!

I close my eyes and drift off to sleep. The sun was setting now, I was supposed to take shots of today's sunset, but due to some fuck up news, I'm not gonna.
Probably gonna fail my fucking assignment. Why do I even care?

Just as my mind was at ease and I could feel myself getting sleepy, there was a knock at the door.
I opened my eyes and cursed under my breath. Why can't they just leave me alone?

I drag myself over to the door and open it. Elena barges in and plants herself on my couch. She opens up her bag and takes out a pack of beers.

"Drink up" she says, handing me one.

I take it from her and crack it open. Good thing she bought cans, I don't fucking know where my bottle opener is.

"Damn I had a hectic day" Elena says, stretching her legs out on the couch.

"Same" I muttered as I took a seat on the floor, leaning on my bed.

"I heard about. ..well, everything" Elena said, sympathetically.

"Let me guess, James?" I said, unbothered.

"Yeah, and I'm not gonna lecture you about nothing. I came here to chill" Elena says, smiling at me.

"Good! Because I'm in no mood to talk" I said and Elena nodded.

I like how she gets me, she doesn't push me to talk when I don't want to. Unlike James and that cunt, Axel.

Elena and I sat in comfortable silence drinking our beer. After an hour had past, there was no more booze and Elena was falling off to sleep on the couch. I woke her up gently and she told me she was heading off. Guess she had a hard day at the garage.

After I walked her to her bike, I made my way back upstairs and locked the door before laying in bed, trying to fall asleep.

I thought about Axel and how fucked up it is to steal my girl. I don't wanna face him, I don't know what I might do to him if he says one nasty comment. I might do something that I'll regret.

Just as I'm done with my thoughts for the day and was ready to go to sleep, there was a knock on the door. Oh for heavens sake who the hell could it be now?!

I can't find the strength to walk fast enough to the door so I take my time getting out of bed.

I open the door to find the devil himself, my brother.

I scan him and notice that he's in his sleep clothes at 9:30pm knocking on my door. What happened to him?

"Can I come in?" He asks, before looking around to see if anyone might spot him.

I don't say anything, I just hold the door open wider for him to step inside.

"Is that a pillow?" I ask as he lies down on the couch.

"Yep" He answers, stretching out his long legs.

I roll my eyes and shut the door, wondering why this ass is even here.

I jump back in bed and try to fall asleep much faster before he starts talking to me. I might strangle him if he says something about Kaia.

"Goodnight" I say, grabbing a pillow and putting it over my head.

"Ay, going to sleep so soon?" Axel said in disbelief.

"Yeah" I muttered. "Just finished some beers with Elena".

"Oh! Elena! How is she by the way?" Axel asks casually.

"She's fine, just exhausted from work" I replied impatiently. I really wish he would just shut up and sleep.

"And how are you?" He asks.

I remove the pillow from my head before answering his question.

"Are you serious? We just saw each other today and you're asking me that? What the fuck, man?" I spat.

Axel paused for about a minute before he spoke again. For a second I thought he was going off to sleep, but no.

"What I meant to say is, how have you been since you visited James?" He asked smartly.

I contemplated on whether I should tell him the truth, that I'm absolutely shattered- or play it cool like I did with every other failed relationship.

"Well?!" Axel asks impatiently and it's taking everything in me to stay put in my bed and not knock his perfect teeth out. Fucker.

"Well, what? I don't wanna talk about it" I said, uninterested.

"Fine then bro, goodnight" Axel said, turning on his side.

After our short conversation, everything was quiet. I guess Axel was trying to sleep. I, on the other hand was struggling to sleep now. Something wasn't letting me, maybe it was the fact that the brother that stole my girl is fucking lying on my couch and I'm not doing anything about it. What happened to us? We used to be so close. Before all the lies and the stealing each other's chicks. We had a good relationship with each other, he was my rock and I was his. He was the only one I loved dearly, more than mum and dad.

Look at us now, we can't even hold a decent conversation without insulting or cursing each other.

I couldn't hold it in any longer. I had to ask him the question I had been dreading to ask. But in order to move on from Kaia, I have to know.

"Ax! You still up?" I asked, silently hoping he wouldn't answer so I could rethink what the fuck I'm doing.

"Yup" Axel replied, tossing and turning.

Once he found a good spot and stopped moving, I spoke again.

"Tell me something" I said to him.

"Like what, brother?" Axel replied, clearly unaware of where this talk is going.

"Tell me something about you and Kaia" I said. Those words were like poison to my tongue.

Axel sat up on the couch and turned on the flashlight on his phone, facing it on me.

"What do you mean, me and Kaia?" He asked me.

I fucking hate talking about this with him, especially when there's a chance that he may have slept with Kaia. But if I want my answers, bad or not- I have to face his answers. Fuck.

"Well, I was wondering if you could kindly explain to me what the fuck happened between you two?" I spat. I'm sorry but I can't keep calm, my heart is beating wildly in my chest.

"Alright, if you must know- we went to a park to cool off, well, her. ..not me. Then around midnight I convinced her to get some rest. She didn't want to go to her room incase you'd show up there, so she asked if she could go wherever I was going" Axel explained.

"And then what?" I said, anxiously.

"Well fuck me Ashton! I couldn't take her to the cheap hotel I use to hook up with chicks, now could I?" Axel said, frustrated.

"So you went to James' place instead?" I said calmly, at least I knew this bit of information.

"Yeah and he let Kaia sleep over in the spare room" Ax said.

"That's not exactly what I want to know. Tell me about you" I said, trying to figure out what I'm going to do after this if it's something bad.

"I was going to leave, head back home but she insisted I stayed. She didn't want me to leave her" Axel said and I felt my chest tighten at his words. So this is what it really feels like.

For the next few minutes I didn't ask anything else. It was hard to process all this, especially the part where Kaia wanted him to stay.

So it's not my brother's fault, it was Kaia's- she wanted him to stay.

"Ash, don't get mad. Nothing happened alright. I wouldn't touch your girl, you know that right?" Axel said, trying to convince me that nothing happened.

"Yeah, it's all good" I managed to say. I felt like my tongue was numb. Maybe that was the sign that I should stop asking questions.

I stood up and walked to the study table to grab my jacket and keys. I slipped on my vans and walked to the door.

Axel looked at me with confusion in his eyes.

"I told you nothing happened! She wanted me to stay. She was hurt, okay? And I felt bad to leave her in that kinda state!" Axel shouted as I slammed the door.

I don't know where I'm going but I'm definitely not fucking sleeping in the same room as that fucker. He can have her now. She doesn't mean a thing.