Chapter Seven : The Real Reason

Crown Princess Amalia Brings Hollywood Glamour to the Walshington palace

The royal crown couple have played host to particularly high-profile state dinners with equally buzz-worthy guest lists. And last night saw the first family welcome Canada's prime minister, Justin Trudeau, and wife Sophie, ushering in a fresh and spirited energy to the palace. Among the guests at last night's dinner were Saturday Night Live's Lorne Michaels and Canadian-born actors Michael J. Fox and Mike Myers.

Together, their polished ensembles demonstrated the power of a refined and elegant union between their two home countries. Miguel's midnight tuxedo perfectly complements Amalia's dove gray Ralph & Russo robe dress. Amalia is never one to miss making a major fashion statement-remember her asymmetrical Chanel couture moment?-but at last night's dinner, the 30-year-old's look was sophisticated yet fashion-forward in a fluid frock with hints of skin. Amping up the star wattage were chandelier earrings from Lorraine Schwartz with simple strappy sandals for a sleek, leg-lengthening finish.

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"Hello," said the journalist, standing up as we entered. He held his hand out to me and I shook it. "Your royal highness, my name is Tom Stewart. I will be conducting this interview."

"Tom," I said, grinning and shaking his hand. "This is my wife, Amalia."

"Nice to meet you," she said to him, smiling. He smiled back.

"It's an honour," he said to her, shaking her hand too. "So, shall we get this party started?" He asked.

I smirked slightly as I sat down on the sofa, knowing that this was going to be one hell of a shit party. Amalia sat down beside me, sitting up straight against the back of the chair. We watched as the cameras were all set up, and Amalia's hair and makeup came and sorted a few things out. Then, after being given the signal, the interview began.

"From the moment it was revealed that Princess Amalia had secretly been married to Crown Prince Miguel and expressed her desire to have a baby, many have fixated on her belly, straining to find signs of a baby bump. There have even been rumors that the princess is desperate to have a baby and jealous of her sister in law, Duchess of Cambridge for getting pregnant so easily. Amalia, what would you like to say about these rumors?" Tom said.

"Well Tom, like you said these are just rumors: I'm fine with not having kids (right now)." Amalia said.

"Do you wish people would quit asking you about it 24-7?" Tom asked.

"Yes, but I don't regret it, I was 25 when that started, and I admit, I didn't know a lot about my body. It was hard for me to understand what was happening because my mom had three kids and Catherine got pregnant quickly. People assume I'm desperate for a baby. And yes, I would love to have a baby. But I'm 30, and I've been married ten years. I love my life, but it doesn't feel incomplete right now." Amalia said.

"What do you think is the reason why you guys haven't had a child?" Tom asked.

"Amalia, suffered three miscarriage in the past four years so wasn't as if we weren't trying. We've gone to several specialists." I said.

"Please clarify the cause of her fertility issues?" Tom asked.

"It's more about my hormones being off, but my life isn't revolving around it." Amalia said.

"Have you done treatments?" Tom asked.

"I was taking hormone shots to stabilize them, and you have to take those shots consistently and they have to be done by a doctor. You can do them yourself, but I couldn't. And then after your cycle, you have to go to the doctor for ultrasounds and more testing. And if I'm traveling and miss a treatment, I have to start all over again. It's a commitment, and I don't mind doing it, but the timing was just off." Amalia said.

"Nobody would blame you if you felt a twinge of jealously toward Sister in law, Catherine for getting pregnant three times so easily with William." Tom said.

"Please. People want to assume that I'm devastated. I couldn't be happier, I actually got mad at Catherine because she was afraid to tell me at first. So I get why people think I'm hurt, because my own sister thought I would be." Amalia said.

"On one hand I feel so blessed to just be the two of us and being able to be with each other & nurture our relationship daily, get us time, be able to work on our dreams with total focus, & have every day be time for us as best friends to grow deeper in love & prepare for future babies. But on the other hand we have the desire to be parents especially after 10 years of marriage and so many losses that I'm not going to lie 10 years feels like a lot. It feels like a decade of waiting for Gods promise to come to fruition & it makes me, as a human, doubt that I was ever meant to be a mom here on earth. I know that's bad and a sad thought to think, but it's true and I never want to sugar coat things for you guys. As we approached 10 years of marriage I've been having darker days.. not because of the milestone of marriage, but the milestone of 5 years of infertility. It's exhausting especially when you have no answers, no clear path, and when some days I feel like no one understands what we are going through you feel like you have no support system." I said.

"The comments about us not having kids, the insensitivity, the unkindness that comes from people who don't understand... it is exhausting to be strong and brave all the time. So the anxiety, anger, depression, & loneliness has been more than it ever has been lately, but I know that it won't always be like this & that's what keeps us going. I thought I would come on here to say something profound today on our 10 year anniversary with no kids here on earth and to give you advice on how it is, but I think all I can do today is share my honest heart with you all. Because really if you sit back and look, this is one beautiful life. We all have trials, hurdles, anxieties, and stresses & by golly that's normal. All I can say is that I'm so thankful that I'm married to a man who tells me daily that "if it were just us two for the rest of our lives he would be the happiest man alive & if we get the gift of children he will also be the happiest man alive as longs as we see together." That statement brings me so much peace because it doesn't make me feel like a failure or not enough. I'm thankful that after 5 years we have started seeing a naturopathic doctor who I feel like we art starting to make progress with. I'm thankful that we have way more good days than bad days." Amalia said.

"Im thankful for "us" time that I will never take for granted. Im thankful for the bounty of blessings God has given us through our season of waiting. I'm thankful for family & I'm thankful for you guys... supporting, loving, & truly caring about us through this journey we are on. I mean that from the bottom of my heart. I don't know where I would be on this fertility journey without you guys sharing your stories, your hope, and your encouragement.. thank you! So here we are 10 years of marriages & no kids her on earth... I'm still filled with hope today & ready to see God's plan unfold. I hope that whatever you are going through that you don't feel alone, empty, sad, scared, or stuck... I hope you know this is just a season & that there is beauty among this mess. & I truly hope you see that beauty." I said.

She looked at me, her eyes going to mine, and we both smiled.

"Well, I think that is everything," Tom said. "Thank you both very much for your time and for the interview. I wish you all the best for the future, and good luck with your journey."

"Thank you," we both said in reply.

"And, again, good luck," he said, just before the camera turned off and everybody came out of their hiding spots. I turned to Amalia, as she sighed.

"Thank god that's over," she said, smiling at me. I smiled too, leaning forward to gently press my lips to hers in relief, as she moved her arms to the back of my neck.

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"Hey it's me, Erin Lim. Yesterday, we watched Crown Prince Miguel and Crown Princess Amalia of Herraden gave a heartfelt tear jerky interview on their 10th wedding and why they haven't started a family yet. Now we go on social media and see what royal watchers have to say all over the world." Erin Lim said.

"Alright, Edith on Twitter says, Thank you for sharing this. What a blessing to have a man who's there for you. I relate so much to you. We're on our 11th year of marriage, 3 miscarriages and dealing with PCOS and fertility issues. We haven't given up, but we decided to save and take a year to travel coming up soon. I got tired of waiting and this new dream fills me up. At times I love having just us two, but deep inside I can't wait to be a mother and come back from our trip to focus again on our fertility journey. Reading your post lets me see I'm not the only one in this situation like it feels sometimes. I just pray that God keep giving us couples going through this journey, the strength and patience that is so highly needed. And that in the meantime, He gives us a sense of purpose and dreams and directions that help us cope. Blessing for you two and thank you for being so open all the time about your journey." Erin read.

"Amen Edith." Erin says.

"Rhonda on Facebook says, Amalia, yall are so much in love and it's a blessing to see, happy 10 year anniversary to you both. I wish I could write you a note to help heal your heart because I personally know your loss and as a newly 50 year old I have accepted mine, as much as a think a woman can. I admire your strength and your spirit and your faith in God. We are all so small but have such a big part to play if we choose to. Your amazing and know whatever God has in store for the both of you, he is always there to take you there and through it. I wish you both all the happiest in the world, thanks for your inspiration and witness to us all. God Bless." Erin read.

"Yes, Rhonda, we could feel the love between those two." Erin said.

"Lynn on Instagram says, It warms my heart from the day I met you from your journey to your honesty in your interviews and recently in person... I am battling the same dark times my husband and I have had similar journey- military life, 5 years of marriage, and miscarriages later and sill no miracle of God yet.. We keep hoping and waiting but we have put our trust in the Lord and if it is meant to be he is the only one who can make it happen. Thanks for sharing your journey it really helps... your not alone...Faith, Trust and Baby Dust!" Erin reads.

"Yes, Lynn!" Erin said.

"I think we have found ourselves the most down to earth favorite royal couple. Amalia and Miguel, your words are inspiring to so many. You are so fortunate to have such a strong relationship. Not only are you able to lean hard on one another when the days get dark but you seem to also be guiding lights for each other on those days too, finding the bright side even though it's not what you pictured and your journey is only getting started. Happy anniversary and God bless you both. I'm Erin Lim with e news. To see more of this royal couple head to E.com to find out more." Erin says.