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Birds chirping, slow winds and rain drops dripping from the roof. Monsoon was about to say goodbye and Autumn would be welcomed by the end of September.

No wonder why most of the people dislike Autumn. It is my favourite season after all . Not because it is considered so unwelcomed, but because it has a deep life message.

Just like the leaves.

When they fall off from the tree, all brown and crunchy. They are dead. They will not return.

But! The new leaves that grow in place of them. They take place of their fellow leaves and are the start of a new life.

What this tells us is that everything is temporary...everything will bid a goodbye to all of us. Even we will be gone one day.

I was pulled out of my thoughts when someone threw a hard thing on my forehead.

I looked up and saw a fuming Miss Rin. "How many times I have to tell THAT . PAY . ATTENTION!" she yelled while tapping the chalk aggressively on the blackboard.

For a time put aside my thoughts and actually tried to concentrate what Miss Rin was saying.

"Start taking notes. I'm going to display the slides and by the end of this class, I want your Literature notes on the front desk," Miss Rin ordered.

Student started taking out their supplies, while I sat there with obviously nothing.

Sigh.Time to borrow things again.

Mustering up some courage, I tapped the shoulder lightly of the student sitting in front of me.

"What?" he said making me flinch a little. "I..I need a pen or a pencil. You have any?" I asked. "Sorry I don't give my things to someone worthless," he spat and turned away.

"Do you-" "How many times I have to tell you Kim!? Don't . Talk . To . Me!" he spat, making me shut up instantly.

I then hesitantly walked towards the front desk. Miss Rin took off her glasses and glared at me.

"What do you want miss?" she questioned, totally unbothered. "Can you give me some paper and a pen?" I asked.

"And where are your OWN things? Oh I forgot! You don't bring a single thing on your own since the first day," Miss Rin sneered.

"Please give me now. I..I'll try to bring my own from tomorrow onwards," I pledged.

"No means NO Miss Kim. If you think we somehow pity on you, kindly wash away this misunderstanding from your mind once and for all!"

I took a long breath and returned back to my seat. Scribbling of pens and turning of sheets could be heard.

A few students had already handed their notes and now were talking to their friends.

I felt something soft hit my shoulder. I looked down and it was a paper ball. I picked it up and opened it.

"WHORE!"

I threw it angrily in the dustbin, but I knew it was not over. Paper balls after paper balls were thrown at me.

"Hey dumbo listen!" one of the boy said. I looked up and perceived who it was.

"What do you want Taehyung?" I nervously asked. "Tsk tsk tsk...where are your manners?" Taehyung grimmed.

I stayed silent, not wanting to get in trouble. "Are you perhaps dumb?" he snickered.

Silent.

"Looks like you are not going to answer me like this, let me inform Jungkook about that."

My body tensed up at hearing his name. The class went hushed.

"E..excuse me, I'll be back. I think I forgot my planner in the staff office," Miss Rin made an excuse and hurried out of the class.

"I SAID ANSWER ME EUNHAE!" This time in his deep yet loud voice. "Y..yes, I am listening to y..you," I stuttered.

"Good girl. Now come in front of the class and do some lines for me will you?" Taehyung asked, making me immediately look up.

I stood up and went in front of the class, taking out a chalk from the box.

"What I have to write?" I questioned him. "Who said you are going to do them on the board?" he raised his eyebrow.

"I don't have any paper." "Why so inncocent my Eunhae? Do you think I'd give you something so childish? Grow up," Taehyung said in a taunting manner.

I was extremely puzzled. I have to do lines, but where?

"Are you still confused?" I looked up and saw Taehyung smirking. "Open the last drawer," he commanded. I did as I was told to.

"Its empty," I told him. "Look closely sweetheart." I opened the drawer once again and saw something.

A silver blade.

I held it between my thumb and index finger. "Now do the lines," Taehyung said and sat on the desk with his hands resting on his chin.

And then it clicked in my mind...he wants me to do lines, not on any page or board but on myself.

I rolled up my left sleeve and put the blade near my forearm.

"Why are you hesitating Eunhae?" the voice inside me spoke. "You have done this before. A few more cuts will cost nothing."

And then letting the voice take control of me, I slashed the blade over my arm. It felt...good. The blood dripped over and I continued making deep cuts.

I made cuts after cuts as Taehyung was laughing manically. It was satisfying to him and a reliever for myself too.

I dropped the blade with my now quivering hands and fell on my knees. I was weak.

Taehyung walked towards me and crouched down to my level.

"You should be proud of yourself Eunhae," he whispered. "Don't think you are a victim sweetheart, you are ours and we never treat OURS as a victim," Taehyung flicked my forehead and left.

The bell ringed, signaling that it was time for home. I got up and made my way towards the restroom.

I observed myself in the mirror and splashed some water on my face and then on my cuts.

"You don't deserve it Eunhae." "You are nothing but an inferior." "You must die...KILL yourself Eunhae!" "Nobody loves you, neither your parents nor anyone else!"

"AHHHH!" I screamed, pulling my hair tightly. "STOP IT!"

"Nobody loves you!"

I was on the verge of crying and then I broke down...I couldn't handle it anymore.

My sobs echoed in the restroom and the tears left thick tear marks on my cheeks.

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Closing the door of the quarter, I plopped myself on my mattress and stared at the ceiling full of cobwebs.

Is life being unfair to me, or is this all an obstacle which I will overcome someday?

Am I not worthy enough or there is something more useful waiting for me?

But I will wait, because everyone has come in this world for a reason and I will indeed find out my reason one day.

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Sorry for a short chapter.

I am not in my home-city right now, so I don't get that much time, but somehow I still managed to write a chapter.

Schools are going to start and I'm kind of sad, happy and....mixed emotions.

Anyways, I hope u like the chapter.

See you soon

DiNg DoNg🔔

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