Our eyes still held the same contact like those of two lost love birds. None of us was ready to break the silence. He had really changed for the past few years. His blue eyes held their position as before and I just loved them. My one time cupcake eyes! I inspected his outstanding outfit and wished I could have been like him. I don't mean I never wore such outfits but your own money is sweeter than the money you are given. As I did this his past words brought themselves.

You will suffer, come across things and heart breaking secrets that will increase your pain and bring you a painful heart disease.

This words always vibrated in my head like a scary lullaby. The pain was now real and everlasting. A pain for a lifetime, my companion, my lover for life. A tear made itself from my right eye as I still held the gaze. Life!

"Tell me the pain is over Rehy", I spoke the words out still lost in my own world.

Rehy did not answer, he instead held his stare for one more minute. I didn't care whether I was in a doctor's office or a fortune teller's house. All I wanted was for the pain to cease.

" Stop it girl! Cant you see I'm doing my work!?" He growled.

All this seemed nothing to me. His growls were nothing compared to Clane's and there was no way I was going to stop. I stood and spoke in a solemn voice.

" You were the one who started it and you are going to end it today boy".

He narrowed his eyes and held his ears as if the information didn't sink in. I repeated the same words and he cuped his head in his hands still holding the gaze. His eyes aroused a certain feeling in me, a feeling that I had some years back.

" Your problem please?" He asked ignoring the topic.

"The pain!" I reminded.

" I asked how you were feeling not how your life is girl!" He this time exclaimed angryly.

" I said pain doctor Rehy or what you call yourself!" I exclaimed back and this time loud enough to let the people outside know what was going on.

He sighed, a sigher of defeat before speaking. This time his words came out in a monotone but my ears were too sharp to capture them.

" Sometimes you have to embrace pain slimmy. Make it understand that you can feel it's presence, be it's companion and smile at it at some point. Use it to find answers of your life. Pain cling on weak branches and eats them up until they dry".

I couldn't understand his words at all. I took a seat back and stared at the sealing trying to understand him better but all I could get from my mind was silence.

"Do you remember this short poem sweets", he continued as if reading my mind.

     If pain was a man,
    I would have been his
   companion,
   I would have caressed him with
   Passion,
   To make him feel heavens
   Within,
   I would have made him feel the
   Pleasure,
  And throw him like no treasure.

I nodded still staring at the empty sealing with my hand running through my hair. I remembered writing the poem but my marriage had occupied my head giving it no space to remember a single word.

I recalled reciting it for him not knowing there would come a day when it'll be of help to my poor self. I only did it for fun and a way of spending my leisure. My eyes slowly left the sealing as I wiped some tears with the back of my hand and landed on his.

  "Thanks for reminding me that but I would like you to tell me more of my future now", I said my eyes still in same position.

   " I would have loved to but the nature of my work can't allow. I suggest we set a special day and place for that", I gave him a nod knowing clearly Clane's rules.

I took in a long breath then out before telling him my signs of illness after we had settled the matter. He ran some tests on me and wrote the results on a certain paper. He handed it to me in an envelope which I had to read while at home.

   " Thanks doc", I thanked him trying to stand and leave but he stopped me.

   " It shall be well dear ok?"

    " Mmmh", I replied and left the office.

The stares of patients outside seated waiting for their turns made me loose my walking style. They looked at me with scud eyes Some eyes were filled with pain.  physical pain not like the pain  I always had.

  " While fucking, you don't have to scream aloud woman! That sounded disgusting!" One of the female patients interrupted my walking.

Wait, is she talking to me? Who was fucking and why did she have to say that?

  "This girl is mannerless! She is a ho for that fact! Which kind of a lady in her right state of mind would sleep with a doctor in his office?" Another male patient rotated.

   "But I..." I tried to speak but the first one cut me.

   "Shut up! We know girls of your kind. Pretending to be sick to get favours from doctors".

I was lost for words. I stood there , staring at them with my hands crossed on my chest. Remembering Clane, their words became nothing but a piece of cotton to my ears.

   " Hello madam?" A  voice interrupted, the drama stopped and I turn only to come face to face with a female doctor.

   " Hello", I replied and waited for her say.

  "You are mrs Wanjala right?" She questioned with a broad smile.

  " Yes," I answered faking a smile.

  " Your husband was here some days back for some test and had not come for his results, would you mind taking to him?" She continued.

  " No I won't", I replied and received the envelope.

Was Clane sick?