Following up to the last part... More thoughts...

I wish I was someone's first choice for once.

I wish I wasn't the second to everyone.

I wish I had it in me to say so.

I wish I didn't have to feel this way.

I wish I had decided to act instead of being nice and giving him room after his girlfriend broke up with him.

I wish that I hadn't been so stupid to lose him to someone who will use him.

I wish that I wasn't the replacement.

I wish that I wasn't the fallback.

I just wish I was the first choice for once in my mother fucking life.

I just want to be loved for once.

I just want someone to hold.

I just want someone to hold me.

I just want someone to love me.

I don't want to be used again.

I don't want to be played again.

I don't want to lose myself in those beautiful dark blue eyes or that downy soft hair or that cheesy laugh or that toothy smile or that boy in general.

I know he liked me.

I just wish we had made it more clear.

I just wish that I was his first choice.

I just wish I was anyone's first choice.

I just wish someone would say that they love me and mean it.

I just wish this didn't so attention whore-y.

I just wish that someone would quell these thoughts.

I just want to be loved by someone that actually good for me for once.

I don't want my friends to break my dreams and ruin my crushes.

I don't want to be second to someone anymore.

I'm tired of being the fallback, the second, the backup plan when shit goes to hell for a relationship.

I just wish I could tell this to the people that need to hear it.