OH OH OH, OH, AMELIA SHEPHERD. AMELIA FRICKIN' SHEPHERD. MY BELOVED, MY DEAREST LOVE, MY FICTIONAL ICON IN ALL HER DIVINITY AND IRRESISTIBLE CHAOS! HOW DO I BEGIN TO DESCRIBE THE DEPTH OF MY UNDYING LOVE AND AFFECTION FOR THIS COMPLEX, FLAWED, YET INCREDIBLY CAPTIVATING AND BREATHLESS CHARACTER? I SHALL TRY, THOUGH BE WARNED, THIS VENT WILL BE A WILD RIDE OF EMOTIONS (edit: and a bit all over the place now that I look back on this) AND THOUGHTS THAT REFLECT THE WAY MY HEART BEATS FOR AMELIA SHEPHERD ALONE!!

First and foremost, let me start by saying that Amelia Shepherd is an absolute force of nature. Alright. No getting around that. She is the epitome of the saying "beautifully broken," with her tumultuous past and the demons she continually battles. Her struggles with addiction and the loss of her beloved brother aren't even where it ends! There's so much this girl has gone through that has undoubtedly left deep scars on her heart, yet she. keeps. moving. forward. with a fierceness embroiled within her and a fiery determination that is truly awe-inspiring.

From the very moment she graced the screen on Grey's alone (because my stupid butt still has yet to watch private practice ffs), I was instantly drawn to this woman. To this incredible force of nature encompassing raw vulnerability, fierce intelligence, and a, well what do you know, a witty sense of humor. Her complexities make her utterly relatable, as we all bear our own burdens and face adversity, but Amelia FUCKING SHEPHERD does so with such bravery and authenticity that it's impossible not to root for her.

Her journey to self-discovery and redemption is a rollercoaster ride of emotions in itself. I'm never not finding myself smiling super wide like a goofball every time she pops up in a scene. And I'm never not finding myself rooting for her in incredible way. Her heart-wrenching struggles to confront her past, embrace her mistakes, her demons, and to just find her place in the vastness of this big scary world leaves me breathless with admiration. And oh, the moments of triumph, when she emerges stronger and wiser, ready to face life head-on, make my heart swell with pride!

FUCKING SUPERHERO POSE!! No one will ever be able to convince me that Amelia Shepherd's superhero stance in the OR is not at all remotely better than Derek's silly little catchphrase. Nuh uh. Fuck that, this ain't about him.

Let's talk about her relationships! Her bond with her sisterS is a thing of beauty. AND IT'S NOT RVEN HER BIOLOGICAL SISTERS! IT IS MEREDITH GREY AND MAGGIE PIERCE WHO SHE DEVELOPS A CLOSENESS TOO AND AHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!! The way they support and challenge each other through the highs and lows of life is a testament to the power of sisterhood. And her romantic entanglements? FUCK! I find myself hating every single person they end up setting her up with because like, that's my baby girl and no one else's. Like c'mon producers. Fr. Okay but honestly, her pairing with Owen was by far the absolute worst thing to ever happen in the entire history of Grey's romance.

And let us not forget about the brilliant neurosurgeon my badass girl is. Her exceptional skills in the operating room are unparalleled, and watching her work her magic is nothing short of mesmerizing. AND HER TEACHING— it's just like next level. I absolutely love all of her teaching moments, especially with Steph and Deluca. But when she's operating, it's as if she's dancing with life and death, weaving through some sort of delicate balance of hope and despair with astonishing precision. AND SHE FUCKING GETS ITTT!!!

MY GIRL LIVED WITH A DAMN TUMOR PRESSING ON HER FRONTAL LOVE FOR TEN DAMN YEARS!!! A whole ass decade!! And she was a whole ass functioning surgeon with a success rate HIGHER than sherek depherd's shit. My girl was fighting for her fucking sobriety all these years WHEN SHE HAD A LITERAL TUMOR INSIDE HER! MY GOD— the things this woman overcomes. Her adversity is unmatched in the show FR and the things she puts me through ... OOOOOOHHHH

Possibly one of my other best things about Amelia Shepherd is that she's not without her own damn flaws. Her impulsive nature and tendency to dive headfirst into chaos (TUMOR!) sometimes lead her astray, but that only makes her journey all the more genuine. She is constantly learning, evolving, and picking up the pieces after  every storm, no matter the size, and she is always making her own mark!!

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I just— when I watch her on screen, my hands get the lil happy tingly feelings in them and like all my mental distress just kinda floats away because Amelia's here, and y'know, she's been through hell, I mean, like Pitbull, she's been there, done that. AND AHHHHH MY HEART JUST BEATS SO STRONGLY FOR THIS GIRL IT'S INSANEEEEEEEEEE—

In a world that often demands perfection and conformity, this woman fucking SERVES as a reminder that imperfections are in fact what make us human. She teaches us all that it's okay to be messy, to feel lost, and to make mistakes along the way. And like ahhhhhh, her resilience and determination never fail to inspire me to embrace my own vulnerabilities and find strength within them. Or to try to anyways.

So here I am, eighteen years old and not one successfully thing have I accomplished in my life, but I'm here, SHOUTING AT YOU ALL—shouting from the rooftops, on a random day at almost eight pm, declaring my undying love and devotion to Amelia Shepherd! She is a captivating whirlwind of emotions, and her journey is one that resonates deep within my soul. I celebrate her highs, I empathize with her lows, and I will stand by her side through every twist and turn life (and motherfucking sh*nda rh**es) throws her way. MY HEART PALPITATES FOR THIS INCREDIBLE SOUL, THIS AMAZING, EFFORTLESSLY AND ENDLESSLY BEAUTIFUL WOMAN!!

GREYS ANATOMY, THANK YOU for gifting us with this incredible character, and thank you, Amelia Shepherd, for being the ray of chaotic brilliance that lights up my life! Especially for being their for me now, as lately life has actually sucked way worse than ever before. You have forever imprinted yourself on my heart, and I shall cherish you always. LONG LIVE MY CHAOTIC QUEEN! 🌟💕I LOVE UUUU 🥰