Everybody always says that I'm the funniest person they know and that I offer always good advice for people. But if only they knew the truth about what goes on inside my head.

To be honest, my younger years weren't actually that bad. Primary school was amazing, had an amazing education and some good friends who I have sadly lost touch with since. Nothing wrong with that, it's just the way life works. I was even able to win an event on sports day by somehow winning the 100m, in front of my whole family. But there was one big problem. As I was growing up I was learning new things and facing new challenges. And one of them was learning the fact that my parents were and still are deaf.

Since then, I've been told to try and learn sign language to communicate with them but I have found that lip reading is so much easier, as I have always struggled to get to grips with sign language. I know the basics but it's very much a learning process for me, and was even harder in my younger days. Another challenge came and went when my mum battled breast cancer and beat it a few years ago, but I won't go into detail about that for personal reasons.

Secondary school then came around and for the first 2 years, it seemed like I was really gonna do well. Then came the pressure of exams. I hated them so much but at the same time, I knew they had to be done. So i just knuckled down and got on with it. At the same time, I felt like the pressure had got to me a bit and I started to get picked on and bullied a little. Not just for being clever, but also because of the way I looked. I'll admit, my hair wasn't great, but at the time, I liked it. But after the bullying started getting to me, I took the decision to change it to what it is now, pretty much.

From there, it gradually stopped and I got my life back on track a little so I could then focus on what friends I had as well as my GCSE exams. I had some of the funniest teachers I have ever known, like my English teacher, my French teacher and my geography teacher. Thanks to their support and encouragement, I managed to get 10 A*-C grades at the end of the year, even with not much revision. Then after the A-levels went a bit pear shaped, I decided to take the next step, which for many of my friends, was university. For me it was employment.

For a while, I had a look at what was available until my mum got me my first job, working with her at Marks and Spencer, which I really enjoyed. Even though I was only a Christmas temp, I impressed them enough to go back for Easter, which was brilliant. But for every high comes a low.

After I left, I slowly began to feel more and more depressed, like I hadn't achieved anything yet. Even now, I'm prepared to admit that I'm a bit depressed, especially with everything that's going on in the world. It began taking over my life to the point where I just didn't want to go out and even self-harming. Suicide had crossed my thoughts once or twice, but I thought better of it. I didn't tell many people, not even my parents because they might not understand, with them being deaf and all.

And since then, there have been short spells where I've felt lonely and depressed. I haven't even had a proper girlfriend for a couple of years now, because I have never really been that lucky when it comes to love. I've got my eye on someone right now, but I don't want to rush things.

So you're probably wondering how are things now?

Well, they've been better, but overall I am quite happy. My only slight concern is my family's wellbeing. My grandmother can barely walk and forgets things quite a bit. My grandad can just about cope, but I MEAN just about. My dad is approaching retirement age, and my mum is suffering quite a bit with arthritis, and has to use a walking stick. As for me, my number one goal for me for the rest of the year is to try and get myself into shape, and get the body I want because I'll admit, I eat quite a bit and don't exercise enough because of my depression. But I plan to go to the gym as much as I can when it opens again, and become a healthier, better person.

Thanks to you amazing people who have taken their time to read this. It wasn't exactly easy for me to write about, but I feel like you guys should get to know the real me. If you want to ask me any other questions about me and my life, don't hesitate to ask, cos I will always reply.

Also, I was gonna post this on my message board, but here will do... Thank you so much for helping me reach 300 followers! I've never felt so accepted into a community, and some of you guys are awesome! You know who you are! Thanks to everyone I've collabed with, everyone I've spoken to, and everyone who's read my books, even if it's just one chapter. As for my future plans, I will reveal to you all that Becky's book will be updated shortly, as will Liv's, and after that, I will be introducing a Mandy Rose book, with a completely brand new OC!

As before, if you have any requests or questions, just leave a comment or DM me and I'll give it some thought.

One last time, thank you to you all.

Stuey