BRUUUHHHH THE LAST CHAPTER I WROTE WAS ME FRESHMAN YEAR PFFFTTT. I'm deadass a senior now and I'm graduating early in December I'm fucking dead. Also that relationship I was in freshman/sophomore year ended up TRAGIC. He litchurlly cheated on me multiple times and he made fun of things that I told him that were very very very secret and ended up telling one of those secrets in his shitty lil peep wannabe song and posted it and his friends including him made fun of me 🤪. Yeeeaaahhhh, he's the reason why I went to the psych ward the 2nd time. Oh yeah, I went to the psych ward quite a bit during the end of sophomore year. 3 times inpatient and 3 times outpatient yikes. I might actually be going back once I get home from my trip oof. But hey, it actually wasn't bad. It helped to a point. I still don't wanna go back but I really do need help. Alsoooo I have a girlfriend now and I am IN LOVE with her. I've only been in love one other time and it was with that fuckhead who actually abused me ugh. But she genuinely loves me. Our relationship is a little rocky, but it's not bad. We actually met at the psych ward the first time I went pfffttt. She might be going back with me when I go to inpatient. Relationship gooooaaaallllllsssss (I'm just kidding please don't romanticize this I actually hope y'all find a good healthy relationship). But yeah a lot has happened in my life. Idk if I'll update again, probably in another year or two bahaha. I'll try and update again. Also I changed my look a lot, so I'll put a few pictures of what I looked like over the past couple of years. Hope y'all doing okay, much love to y'all ❤️