Why is she doing this? What is she thinking? Every single time we make plans to hang out she makes sure other people are around but then she looks at me and I can see it all over her face that she just wants to be alone with me. When were alone, its hard to keep our hands off of each other but Haven insists that we can't be like that when our friends are around. It fucking sucks but I listen to her because I know it's her way, or no way at all and the thought of not being able to have Haven at all, makes me want to end it all.

Our friends smoked some weed a while ago, I wanted to smoke too but if my parents smell it on me later they will never let me have friends over again. Haven didn't smoke either which surprised me but I'm glad I wasn't the only one not getting high. Now, I'm even more grateful that she didn't smoke because I can see our friends burning out, their glossy eyes becoming heavy with the come down.

"You all look tired," Haven fakes a yawn but nobody else seems to catch it but me, "We should have nap time."

"Nap time sounds so chill right now." Our stoner friend Anthony settles down onto the spare mattress on the floor and everyone else follows suit.

Haven lays down with her back towards the others and her eyes find mine, demanding me to lay next to her. Her expression softens when I obey her silent demand, and we stare into each others eyes until the sounds around us fill with the easy breathing of our sleeping friends. Thank you marijuna.

I know better than to make the first move. It's been clearly laid out that we do not do more than flirt and tease when others are around but it doesn't take long until she breaks that rule. Her face leans close to mine, our lips nearly brushing and just as I go to close the gap, she pulls away with a wicked grin.

A desperate energy floods through me and I have to clench every single muscle in my body to stop myself from pulling her body into mine. Holy fuck. She leans back in and this time I am the one to pull away at the last second, I dart my eyes up to hers and watch as her pupils dilate, and then blow wide. I can instantly feel the heat radiating off her body and I smile at our new game.

After a few minutes of this teasing I am a ball of tension, every one of my nerves is on fire, and if she shifts even the slightest bit closer to me she is going to feel how into this I am right now. It's probably a good thing that we are not alone. Haven looks up at me from under her eyelashes, her pupils blown wide and her cheeks flushed, she looks like a fucking angel. I could stare at her like this forever.

Suddenly, she wraps her leg around my waist and presses her body into mine. My head spins at the contact but I'm even more surprised by her reaction. Her mouth falls into an O and I can tell she is holding back a gasp of surprise. I flash her a look, letting her know I've seen her reaction and her face flushes a deep red. She is totally turned on right now. I shift my leg ever so slightly, pushing it between hers and she has to bite her lip to stop the gasp from escaping her mouth. Her hips grind against my leg and I feel the heat radiating from between her legs. I'm nervous as fuck right now because I have no idea what I'm doing, but I'm going to keep going until she tells me to stop.

I sit up slightly to check that the others are definitely passed out and then reach under the blanket until my fingertips find her thigh. My hands must be shaking but she doesn't seem to notice as I trail my hand slowly up her thigh. Our eyes never look away from each other and I quickly read the pleading look in hers when my hands stop teasing. She wants more.

Fuck. I can't believe this is happening right now but there is no fucking way I am going to stop. I'll do anything she wants me to.

I bring my hand up between her legs, the contact from my leg is replaced by my hand and I rub slow circles over her pants. She loses it. Her eyes roll back as she bites her lip to silence a moan. A stinging pain shoots through my arm as she digs her fingers nails into my skin relentlessly. Her body leans into my hand and I understand the silent message. Harder. Faster. More.

Her eyes flash up to mine and the way she is looking at me sends a jolt straight down to the swelling bulge in my jeans. I didn't know I could make her feel this way. I didn't know it would make me feel so good to make her feel good. And she feels good, I can tell by the growing heat and moisture under my fingers, and thats just from me touching her through her pants.

A cough from beside us sends my heart panicking and I pull my hand away reflexively. I wait only a few seconds to be sure the others are asleep but I place my hand back on her thigh and trail my hand higher and higher until I reach the waistband of her pants. When she doesn't react to my fingers dipping below the waistline, I lower my hand into her pants and follow the heat down.

I watch her as I move my hand against her thin underwear. Fuck there might as well be nothing there at all for how damp they are. Her eyes slit nearly closed, and her breathing hitches and then shes mouthing something to me "Harder". I obey, I quicken my rubbing and watch as her eyes go wide and then close shut tightly as her thighs clamp around my hand.

"Nik." She whispers so quietly I barely hear, but her tone, her fucking tone sends chills down my spine. I stare down at her, my eyebrows raised in surprise.

"Did you just?" I whisper, not able to believe what just happened. She nods and offers me a shy smile before burying her face in my chest. My heart is racing in my chest. I can't even think straight, all I know is that I want to do that to Haven over and over again.