I was singing lullaby to someone and I realized that I'm a grown-up boy now. I felt Somethings missing. Some feelings of incomplete life and some memories started touching so hard that I was lost deep in my thoughts. I realized that the peron who used to sing lullaby to me Is no more with me. The person who used to sit by me and shared every sorrow with a cup of tea was missing. I missed her so badly that tears started rolling down to my cheeks and my heart beat was altered. I couldn't bear the pain of missing the loved one. She was the one who used to wipe my tears and supported me all the way. I remember when I was struggling in studies and was unable to bear the burden ; she used to make almond shake to enhance my mental ability. When I was a kid she used to sing me lullaby so I could fall asleep and enjoy peaceful dreams. Now where are those dreams, where is that peaceful sleep and most of all where is my partner. I want to evaporate my worries in air with a lullaby and a single cup of tea. I don't want to get addicted to fakeness where my feelings of sadness are hidden behind a fake smile and no one could sense them. My heart told me "those are gone days now, don't cry for those who can't come back ." I understand that sometimes you can't get shoulders to cry on. Sometimes, in absence, you recall moments spent with loved ones and remember your partner so hard that tears seems to be running like a stream. My pillow gets wet like it just rained over it. Some friends say "life is to move on. " but I just recall all those motherly lullaby by her then sweetness of her voice is felt by my soul and I fall asleep crying with pain of memories in my heart. Allah swt has made relationships and has put emotions in them so you can feel them even you are separated. I don't have my old partner to sing me lullaby and share a cup of tea with me but I do have her in my heart, in my memories and all these are connected to soul. My eyes end up crying but my heart is always crying in her memories. I won't forget you ever dear old partner of mine. May your soul rest in heaven. May fairies sing lullaby to you and may they share with you a cup of tea so you could feel the same as I do. My days are ending in relishing the memories of days and nights we passed smiling and crying. I hope when I meet you in heavens we will do the same. Beyond every good and bad there's a garden, I'll meet you there.