I came so far and I am happy about it but...

Something is missing and I have no idea what it could be. Maybe help me?

I feel happy but...I think the only things that make me happy aren't irl right here right now. I feel so alone...

I know there's people there but...I don't know. I know I should be okay and happy but I feel so alone. I have almost no friends and again, sitting alone at lunch...My heart breaking at my loyalty trying to leave and I'm trying to keep it in. Trying to cage it. It likes running away. I miss my brother...I sent a letter but, I don't know...I want to see him...

I miss my old life, but if it never changed I wouldn't have you guys and if I never found Wattpad I would probably uh...Have nearly died, either starvation or immediate death so...I guess that's good. God it's too fucking early in the morning for this...I want Alina, Jess, Annabell, and all my other friends here with me...So I can hug them and I could feel safe. I would be happier...Maybe soon I can travel the world and meet them. I could be happy...And of course learn more German. With Duolingo! Anyone recognize that name eeey? Anyone. Heh...I know 2 people learning Russian...Who need to keep up...I git 2 thousand type XP. It's awesome. Oh and you're all perfect, even if you may betray me, I will try to forgive you, because that's my nature...Alina, y'know that. Heh, I have problems. Anyway, enough talking. I need to talk about my books...

I might...

Uh...

Discontinue my Crossmare books...
BUT that hasn't been confirmed...I don't know...I just...I remember other things

Like...

Invader Zim. I used to watch it when I was like 6. I never had nightmares from anything scary...Especially the weird halloween like episode. I remember the scary parts of Zim...

Yeah, I'm a weird child, I know

Anyway...

DISCORD

I might create a group for like, a party one. Buuut, I might need people who can call. Or at least be really active. Though that starts at about 9 if I get up that early. It really depends. I also have OSHA to do and some other important thing I won't name. I will probably draw people, maybe some new OC, hehe. Like < Subject X-16329 (The broken Soul) > So yeah. Or I'll draw people I'm literally obsessed with. Oh shit, the present...Uh, Creeey...People know Alina's oc BlueCrey right?? Well since I can draw imma try to make a human version...Soooo, yeah...That's gonna suck Q▪Q Cri. But it's a present right? Idk, I'm trying. Everything I touch breaks...I mean my phone is cracked and my kindle glitches. My phone doesn't publish some things. My knee still fucking hurts after falling on, like Tuesday. Fucking c'mon. I think I broke my pride...And then the boys at school are so mean and it makes me want to cry. I can't cry so I just hurt myself to distract the pain of metal breakdowns

This, uh, got of subject...

Anyway, imma tag people

Kill me

So anyway

TAGGING

__Purple_Fluffball__

BlueCrey

Cookix01

Ugh...My head hurts and I'm not tired

Aliiiiiiina, let's rp, pleeeeeaaaase. I need to sin da rp

And then I need to sleep some random time, lol

Here, have Zim fanart

That's not the worst of what I have...It's the only thing that won't get me in trouble with Wattpad QVQ

Anyway, bye bye. Omg, so many words. Still...Crossmare book my die...

For floofball, the goddess

Imma find smth for her

There

Nightmare

Something that's not sin X3

There ya go, Jess

Okay, now bye bye...Or I could get 666 for this. That's what I want

Boop, blop, sliop, sloopi, blegh, hehe

My dictionary

Okay, now bye bye

(666)