Kairin : Hi ya! I hope you enjoy this story. Warning : Angsty and lots of cursing. Plus some OOCness.
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Why can't it, be perfect?
This love's not, even real
Why don't I, cry for you?
Love was dead, from the start

"It's pointless..."

"Stop trying."

"You're never going to feel what I've been feeling all along."

"Don't cry. Let me cry instead."

"Foolish. I knew you loved Honoka than me, your own girlfriend."

All negative thoughts came into Suzuno's mind. She wanted to shout. She wanted to break down. She wanted to show how she really felt. But, she can't. She just can't. That's weakness she's showing then. And no, Suzuno doesn't EVER admit to her weakness. Especially depression.

"I knew you just hated me. I hate you. You played with my heart all this while."

"Your love for me was nothing but some shitty act."

Suzuno clenched her hands into a fist. "Stupid asshole," Suzuno muttered as she felt tears prickled at the corner of her eyes. Nagumo Haruya looked at her, bewildered. "W-wait! Suzu-chan," Nagumo tried to inch closer but Suzuno would inch backwards.

I don't want you
I don't need you
I'll forget you
It doesn't matter

"Just get away from me jerk!"

"I hate you! I hate you! I hate you!"

"Forget it! You are just nothing but a piece of trash in the past anyways!

"It doesn't matter! Go back to that bitchy girl Honoka!"

Suzuno yelled. Yes, the cool-headed, team captain of Diamond Dust, keeps her cool, just yelled. Nagumo looked at her with wide eyes. When Suzuno realized what she just said, she covered her mouth with her hands as tears began rolling down her cheeks.

I'll play along
Writing our song
We are perfect
I love you

It has been 2 years. 2 years since Suzuno and Nagumo's last break-up. Suzuno's back leaned against her bedroom's walls. All her music scores and notes and sheets were in a mess, scathered everywhere. Suzuno's eyes became puffy and red. Her eyes were now dull dark blue, staring at her room's ceiling blankly. She looked around.

"It's too much."

"This room..."

"This place..."

"Is where me and Nagumo used to hang out."

"We wrote music scores and worked on our homework."

"Those were good times."

Her heart just cringed at all those good times. How she missed those times. How she just wanted this break-up to be a nightmare. She buried her face into her hands and just started crying again.

"We used to play instruments together."

"We used to write music scores."

"We used to be perfect for each other."

"We used to love each other."

"But now..."

"It just disappeared in a flash."

No, this is all wrong
Why aren't you gone?
I know you're not that strong
Don't listen to me
We'll always be so perfectly
Happy

But damn, Nagumo still managed to make her smile,laugh and much more though she never showed it. Suzuno gritted her teeth in frustration and punched the school wall, hardcore. Her friends flinched a little. Nobody would dare consult Suzuno when she was angry.

"You stupid sick bastard! You should just disappear already!"

"I hate you! You're making me more depressed!"

"Stupid asshole! Get out of my fucked up life!"

"You are not THAT strong at all! I always had to sing you a lullaby when you had nightmares! I always had to help you with homework!"

"Stop listening to me! Stop taking advices from me! I am so done with you!"

"We'll be happy with our own seperate ways! So stop trying to win my heart when you already love that sickly bitchy Honoka!"

Suzuno kept punching the school's wall, making a dent appear on the wall. "Suzu-chan, stop it. Your hand's gonna bleed," Atsuishi stopped Suzuno's fist with one hand. Clara came forward to help Atsuishi. "Look, I know you're upset about that total jackass and I totally understand that you're in pain but you can't just bring damage to your own body," Atsuishi said to Suzuno as Clara took care of Suzuno's bleeding hand. "Plus, Hono-chan didn't mean to. Yesterday, she called me as tol- no, pleaded me to tell you she was really really sorry that Nagumo broke up with you," Netsuha went up to Suzuno as he talked. Suzuno glared coldly towards him and said, "Oh yeah? Are you sure it wasn't sarcasm?" Netsuha shivered slightly by her cold glare. "Well then?" Suzuno questioned Netsuha further. As Netsuha was about to answer, a voice answered for him," No it wasn't." Suzuno looked up to see Honoka and Nagumo, holding hands. Suzuno's heart stopped beating for awhile when she saw Nagumo's fiery golden eyes.

The lies you succumb to

Blissfully unaware

I don't know how you can't

See through my façade

"Hi ya Suzuno!" Nagumo greeted Suzuno cheerfully. Suzuno nodded, turning her attention to Honoka. "Well, congrats in being together," Suzuno said in an icy cold tone. Honoka nodded while Nagumo just gave Suzuno a big cheery smile and said, "Thanks Suzu-chan." Suzuno just turned away, not bothering to look at the stupid dense idiot he is.

"Why are you here!?"

"Get away from me!"

"Don't act like nothing happen!"

"Stupid bastard!"

"Hey Suzuno? You okay?" Nagumo asked Suzuno as he placed a hand on her shoulder. Suzuno flinched slightly. "I am fine, flame-brain, "Suzuno answered coldly as she harshly jerked Nagumo's hand away from her shoulder. "Harsh," Nagumo said as he rubbed his hand.

"Asshole!"

"Of course I'm not fuking okay!"

"The hell with him not even understanding I'm not okay!"

"What the hell!? Is there anything to get him to see through my façade!?"

I don't want you

I don't need you

I'll forget you

It doesn't matter

I'll play along, writing our song, we are perfect

I love you

"Get out of my life!"

"I hate you!"

"Get away from me!"

"Don't you dare flirt with me!"

"Shut up and get away from me!"

"Get away!"

"I will never forgive you!"

Suzuno kept punching her bedroom's wall. Anger kept fuelling her mind.

"I don't need you in my life!"

"I will forget you so stop trying to make me remember you!"

"I am trying to move on you stupid jackass!"

"Whether you are with her or other girls, it's not my problems. It doesn't matter if you care about me or not."

"Oh wait. Why should YOU care!?"

"I'm not even half worth your so-called precious time!"

Suzuno started sobbing. Hands to her face. Her music scores were scattered. In front of her was the song Suzuno was working on.

"We used to be perfect for each other."

"Did I do something wrong?"

The stinging pain in her heart didn't stop.

"Is there anyway to stop this pain?"

"What about suicidal?"

Suzuno shook her head. No way. Not suicide.

"But the pain is unbearable."

No this is all wrong

Why aren't you gone?

I know you're not that strong

Don't listen to me

We will always be

So perfectly happy

"G'morning Suzuno- Oi! What the hell are you doing!?"Atsuishi ran to Suzuno, who was cutting her arm with a sharp knife. Atsuishi quickly took the knife away. "CLARA! NETSUHA! AI! ANN!" Atsuishi yelled his friends' names. "What happened he- WHAT THE FU*K!?" Netsuha looked horrified. Who wouldn't be? Bleeding scars were decorated on both of Suzuno's arms. "She used the scissors and cut herself," Atsuishi replied, worry lacing in his tone. "Now that Nagumo has done it!" Reina yelled. Hiroto and Midorikawa quivered in fear. The dark aura surrounding Reina didn't disappear. "I'll come with you," Ann yelled as they walked away, finding for Nagumo. Within seconds, the two girls came back with a bruised Nagumo. Hiroto and Midorikawa quivered again. "Done~" They said sweetly. Suzuno sweatdropped. Seriously, her friends can be so scary at times. She laid her eyes on her knife which is stained with her blood.

"I am sorry."

"I am sorry for being a nuisance to you."

"But at least I get to see you smile."

"I hope you'll be happy with me gone."

Suzuno looked at the poster.

"A talent show huh?" Suzuno smiled softly. "Sweet."

(Time skip : The day of the talent show)

"And last but not least is Suzuno Fuusuke!" Suzuno walk up on stage. She wore a knee-length short-sleeved snowy white dress with pure white ballet palms. Her bangs were clipped on the right side, tucked behind her ear. The rest of her waist-length pure white hair was let out freely. Suzuno took the microphone and started to sing 'Eight Hundred' by Hatsune Miku.