The members all stared at Yoongi expectantly. The rapper hesitated.

"What is it, hyung?" Jimin asked. He looked between Yoongi and Jungkook and could tell something was wrong.

Jungkook gave his hyung a small nudge. "Tell them," he whispered.

"I...I..." Yoongi started and took a deep breath. He figured it would probably be best he just let it out instead of dragging this on. He felt his heart pounding in his chest and his palms became sweaty.

He sucked in a deep breath before finally blurting out in one breath. "I was selling drugs and that's why Taehyung and Hobi got hurt and Jungkook caught me and I made him lie to everyone about it and he got a concussion because the people I worked with kidnapped and hurt him and I lied about him jogging I'm so sorry."

Jungkook smiled. He hadn't expected his hyung to admit that much, but he greatly appreciated it. The rest of the members stared at Yoongi with their mouths wide open in silence.

Finally Jin spoke up. "Is that some kind of joke?" He chuckled nervously.

Yoongi had tears running down his face. "No," he whispered while staring at the floor.

"What...what are you saying?" Namjoon asked confused. "What do you mean you were selling drugs? And what would that have to do with Taehyung and Hobi?" He turned to Jungkook, "Is he being serious? You were kidnapped?"

Jungkook nodded. He too felt shame wash over him for keeping this secret from the rest of them. He knew it wasn't his own fault, but he felt shitty about it anyway. He also wasn't sure what Yoongi meant about Taehyung and Hobi. Yoongi was silent while being overtaken with guilt and anxiety.

Jimin stood up angrily. "If this is some kind of prank then knock it off right now! Their injuries aren't something to make a mockery of, hyung!"

"I'm not!" Yoongi yelled in frustration. "I am telling the truth! I got scared when the company needed the money. I met with the wrong people and ended up selling, and Jungkook caught me. They didn't like that Kookie found out and punished him. And the car accident...it wasn't...wasn't...an accident. I'm sorry." He started sobbing and made his way over to the couch and dropped his body onto it. He buried his face in his hands as he cried. "I'm so sorry. I'm so sorry for what I did and I'm so sorry for lying. I'm so sorry for hurting everyone."

Jin felt his face flushing a darker and darker red. He realized this wasn't some joke. He knew Yoongi wouldn't pull a prank with this much emotion, meaning his sadness was real. And it would explain why Jungkook was missing and Yoongi happened to be the one to find him with a concussion. The members got up and surrounded Yoongi. Taehyung and Hobi looked at each other confused.

"Hyung? What do you mean it wasn't an accident? Someone ran a red light and we were hit," Taehyung frowned.

"You were hit on purpose," Yoongi cried.

"I don't understand. How would you know that?" Hobi asked.

"I saw who hit you. I talked to him. I worked with him. It wasn't an accident. You were a target because of me." Yoongi was sobbing even harder. Taehyung and Hobi both started to shake with anxiety as tears flooded their own eyes.

"You mean someone you know was trying to hurt us? On purpose?" Taehyung asked.

Yoongi nodded. "I'm so sorry."

There was a sickening silence. Namjoon looked at Jungkook and then at Taehyung and Hobi. His heart hurt when he realized all this was his hyungs fault. All this could have been avoided. Yoongi had lied to everyone. Anger took over him. He stood in front of Yoongi.

"What the hell is wrong with you?!" Namjoon screamed. "Selling drugs?! First of all, that's one of the most illegal things you could do! What the hell would have happened to you, to all of us, if you had been caught?! And you're the reason these three got hurt, all in one day?! All this time I thought you were my hyung, and it turns out you've been nothing but a damn criminal?!" He had tears of frustration streaming down his hot cheeks. Namjoon knew anger but never like this.

"I know, I fucked up, okay?! I know I did! I don't know what to say. I shouldn't have done it, I shouldn't have! I didn't know anyone would get hurt! That was never supposed to happen!" Yoongi screamed back at his leader.

"How did it start? What made you do it?" Jimin asked angrily. "Were you just in a selfish or stupid mood, or both?"

Yoongi looked up and saw Taehyung hugging Jungkook. His heart broke all over again and he felt like he was going to throw up. "I thought I was helping. I thought the extra money would help. I thought I was doing a good thing. I never meant for all of this."

"You made Kookie lie?" Taehyung asked angrily.

"I told him not to tell on me, but I thought I was protecting him, and all of you, by doing that," Yoongi frowned.

"A lot of fucking good that did." Jimin crossed his arms and glared at his hyung.

"I need you to explain yourself," Jin demanded. "Because frankly I'm not understanding why you would do something illegal like this and put everyone in goddamn danger!"

Yoongi flinched at his hyungs anger. He loved his members so much and seeing everyone so mad at him was destroying him from the inside out.

I'm an idiot. An absolute idiot. How did I ever think this would be a good idea? I knew what I was getting into. I knew it was dangerous and I risked it anyway, because I'm an idiot.

"I'm sorry," Yoongi cried. "I thought I could help. When the extra money came in and I could give it to the company I-"

Hobi cut him off. "That extra money was from you?!" he screamed.

Yoongi nodded. "I wanted to help. That's all this was ever about."

"There are other ways you could have made money, Yoongi!" Jin screamed. "Of all things, why selling drugs?!"

"B-Because, I've done it before," Yoongi admitted. The members were confused all over again.

"What do you mean?" Taehyung asked.

"When I was a kid, I did it then too. It worked for a while until I joined the band. Then I stopped. It was just something I knew, and something I knew I used to be good at." Yoongi saw the disappointment in everyone's eyes. "I'm sorry," he whispered through his tears as he kept his gaze at the floor.

Jimin gave him a small shove on the shoulder. "So you knew the dangers of it too and did it anyway?!"

"I...I thought as long as nobody knew, you'd all be safe," Yoongi informed them. "And then one night Jungkook saw me sneak out and followed me."

The members all looked at the maknae.

"I'm sorry, hyungs, I was worried. He was always so tired and-"

Taehyung hugged Jungkook more tightly. "Don't apologize. This isn't your fault."

"They caught me. They got mad. If I had just minded my own business-" Jungkook trailed off.

"If you had minded your own business Yoongi would end up in jail. Or dead," Namjoon said. Everyone looked at Yoongi who still wouldn't bring his gaze up from the floor.

He wiped some of his tears and whispered. "At this point, that's what I deserve."