After that night I started thinking about those nightmares. The first one was me losing the people I love and being made fun of by the people I hate. Then the second one is me about to kill...
I sighed...
Why...
"Scarlet? You hear??" Daven asked, trying to bring me back to reality. I jump a little and look at him. "Oh uh yeah. What is it?" I ask. He asks me to help him on the Socials so I do.

(FlashBack)

The first time I almost snapped... happened half a year ago. I was in the car with my mother and it was dead silence. She was angry at me and I was angry to. Then I looked at her and said, "Stop threatening to send me to 'him'" I said glaring daggers into her. "Shut up" She said. I growled and fought back, we started yelling in the car for a long time. I let my anger all out on her. I kept yelling, I wanted to hit her but I knew that was wrong.
Getting home, I locked myself in my room. I started cutting my leg up till suddenly she caught me. I sat there looking at her with no life in my eyes. My mind was blank.
Then the blade I had in my hand was gone and in her hand. She started yelling at me, and I just stared at her, saying no words. When she left my room, I smiled. "Haha.. she caught me... Hehe... now I wonder what she'll do~" I hummed then she started calling my grandmother. I sat there, I could hear their conversation a bit. Then I heard, "I might just send her to her dad.."
My smile turned into a frown. 'So she's just gonna give up on me...? How cruel...' I thought. Hate. Hate. Hate. Hate. Hate.
It got stronger.

Awhile later, I manage to convince her to let me stay home with the family, no going to therapy or any of that.

A couple days later...

Emm and I were sitting together and thats when she suddenly took out my headphones, my music was heard in the class and I felt my happiness go to 0. I sat there before putting my headphones back.
I felt this horrible feeling that people were now making fun of me and watching me with judging eyes. I felt the hate again but towards Emm. I glared at her and those voices came back. They said, "Grab your scissors... and STAB HER!!! Kill them all! Rip their judging eyes out! Sew their mouths closed so they won't mock you!"
I ignored them as much as I could and then I tried to laugh it off which helped distract me.
After that I just relaxed.

After school ended, and it became night, I stayed up late since I didn't want to sleep but those voices came back. "Kill... Killl... Killl... Kill" They repeated.
I put my headphones on and got lost into the music. Then I thought, 'Am I going INSANE?'