A/N

I'll use this part for Ohm's POV i guess this will be the last exposure for him
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Im so stupid to hurt them especially kong, and also i am very thankful despite of all the things that i have done to him he still found peace in his heart and forgive me.

Earlier i called him to apologize for the things that ive done, i punched his number on the phone but it took me almost an hour to dial it.

I still have a raspy voice from too much crying because my cellmates are physical abusive, i hide it from the officers and to kong everytime thst they asks what happened i always answers them that i fell off from the bed.

"Who's in the line?" Kong suddenly speaked

I cleared my throat for several times brfore speaking.

uhmm, kong, errr.. this is" i said but i havent done with my sentence when he suddenly interupted me

" Ohm?" He asked

" ye..yess.. uhhm i called just to say uhhmm sorry" i whispered the last word.

" what was that?" He said and based in his voice he is smiling

I know that he heard me clearly,and he just want me to repeat it again

" im sorry" i repeated

"I cant hear it correctly, wait ill be going there now to sign the dismissal paper, better to tell it to me infront" he said ang hanged the phone up

An hour passed and kong came smiling, he first went to the officer and talked to them

My body is trembling, i feel weak on my knees and arms i have wound and bruise all over my body

My eyes are fixed on the room where they called kong in, i dont know whst to do right now, i just sat on the chair on my side

I suddenly felt that one the worst feeling is feelig helpless. To realize in certain situations you're completelt and totally powerless. That you gotta try to roll with the hard punches life will throw you.

Eversince that day i was inprisoned i noticed that life is really unfair, its unfair to the extend that i tried killing someone and leaving my mother behind.

The day i was insprisoned i finally noticed that life outside is a wonderful place to live in, you are free to do whatever you want, you enjoy every single seconds that you have. Not just like here that i felt like a slave being beaten up like a dog and being hurt like a servant.

When i saw the officer went out i took a deep breath and entered the door where singto is sitting

He was shocked but he maintained his posture, the smile on his face was never faded.

We talked about the case that he withraw.

That time i felt like i was not alone, i have this person who i hurt badly but still accepted me wholeheartedly, a person who find forgiveness on his heart, a person who opened his eyes and mind widely just to accept me. The person who i will treasure and use my life to protect. And that person is kong/singto.

" he cleared his throat"

We are talking about the case, he just smiled ant told me that ill just stay here couple more days and they'll fetch me up.

He left me with a big smile on his face, the genuine smile.

Time flies very fast and now i'm free, kong did not break his promise his gang went and fetched me. We went to the restaurant and watched movies after.

He handed me a medical result of my mom and explained it to me detailed .

I havent seen my mother for almost a month, i thought that she was busy working but no,she's in the hospital suffering from tunerculosis.

After a day of fun we went to the hospital to visit my mom.

I opened the door slowly and saw my pitiful mother lying on the bed sleeping and breathing heavily.

I sat on her side kong and his friends went outside to buy foods for us.

I held my mothers hands and grip it

Hi mom, you know i miss your cozy lap, Which gives me feel to enjoy every step, every bit of the ticking clock. I would have  never been experienced. How to touch horizon of mind,  to lighten up the dark sky. Without you my life is a prison.

My eyes began to water as i stare at her face, her breath is so heavy as if he was carrying a hars rock inside of her lungs

I'm sorry for all the bullshit i give you. I'm sorry for being annoying, rude or mean to you. I'm sorry that i don't say thank you enough. But thank you for everything. Thank you for putting up with me, thank you for being there  with me through everything. Thank you for always loving me and thank you for never leaving my side. I love you mom.

I felt a soft grip on my hands so i looked up and face my mother who is smiling

" what are you doing here?, i thought you were at the police station baby" she said with a worried face

" Kong withrawed his case mom, he forgived me " i said and wiped the tears on my eyes

" kong is very nice,isnt he ? She added

" yes mom" he definitely is

I gripped my moms hand and saw her chocking

" mom...mom whats happening" i shouted

" whats wrong ohm" kond immediately run to my side

" she...she cant breath call the doctor please" i said

" ba...by.... you... are" mom said

" no mom please dont say it, dont leave me ik not yer ready" i said and cried

"No...wha...t i..mean.. is" she said and released a heavy breath

" i ...cant..breath...be-ca-use you are step—ping the—ox—ygen" she added

"What mom"

"Oxy—gen" she said and pointed the oxygen wire which i am stepping

I immediately moved off to it

"Whats happening?" The doctor entered with a shock face

" i'm sorry i was stepping in the oxygen wire" i said and brushed my hair

Mom immediately took a deep breath and smiled

" Ohm, baby... i waited too long to say this to you always remember that i was and will forever be your biggest fan, i am your protector i will always defend you, i will be angry , i will get frustrated i will be proud of you i will be your confidant  i will love you unconditionally because forever and always i am your mom" she said and held my hands

I cant stop my eyes from crying, its just that the water is continously flowing from it like a broken faucet

" i am very proud of you baby, take good care of yourself, okay" she added

"Mom what are you saying, im confused right now" i said in frustration

" im tired baby, i guess this is my end" she said and smiled

" no mom, you are strong, we are strong" i said and hugged her

" we are, i know " she. Said and tapped my back

She released a heavy breath and tapped my back

We are on that position when i felt that her hands slowly slide down from my back, i immediately stood up

Her blood pressure suddenly dropped and her life line is slowly moving upwards to straight line, the doctor shouted and called for help

" wha—-whats happening doc" i said in frustrstion kong pulled me out from the room

" wa—wait, whats going on inside,kong " i said but he did not answer

I saw the doctor tried to revive my mom, they pumped her, but the life line stopped and straighten, the doctor removed his mask and shook his head a sign that my mom is gone i speedly run towards my mom body

" no no no , this cant be" i said while crying

" MOM , MOM wake up, dont leave me here, i dont know where to go, mom stop teasing me" i said as i shame her body

" ohm" kong said and pulled me in his embrace

" kong kindly pinch me, slap me, wakeme up to this nightmare" i said and pinched myself
But i was hurt so i am really awake right now, mom is really dead now

" kong.. what am i going to do, mom is gone"

" i understand i promised her that ill help you and take good care of you " he said witha assurance voice

For the last time i stared at my lying mother and hugged her

MOM YOUR BAD WHY YOU HAVE TO LEAVE ME THIS EARLY, WE HAVENT DONE   ANYTHING YET

kong handed me a letter

" she gaved me this last night" he said and wiped his eyes

I immediately opened the letter

To my baby,

Baby. You know what? Being a mother is learning about strengths i didnt know i had, and dealing with fears i didnt know existed. I am happy to be your mom and will always be your mother, i am sorry for leaving you behind i dont know when or how your going to read this letter, maybe you'll read it when im already gone or you'll read this later when i visits you, i just want to say how happy i am to have you, i love you in all imperfections you have, im so sorry for raising you alone and for having a difficult life growing up, i know you want to study and im so sad that i cant afford it, we lack financial support but we survived, my love for you will be forever in my heart.

I have a savings under my bed,go use it for everything that you wanted

To my one and only baby take care always and i love you forever

        Love
      Mom

My tears continued to flow after i read the letter. After all this years mom is supporting me and earning money for my own sake. I didnt notice it.

I love you mom

I will always be thankful that you are my mother.

Kong pulled me in a tight hug and rubbed my back, 

" its okay, from now on i and my friends will help you" he said

" thank you kong, thank you"..

A/N

So i had fun unwinding in BATANGAS
Masasa beach

I though that after a vacation i will find inspiration and ideas to write the next chapter. Yes indeed i had but for my other story haha

P.s: i have a new story the title is " the big hit"  the casts are our boys from "our skyy" and i added nannon and lee thanat because i never watch nannon as a BL actor now i will use him in my story...

Love you all
—lee peraya 🐢🦁