After San had ran out the room with his plushie, Wooyoung immediately charged into the bathroom, ignoring Yunho who sat confused and half asleep on his top bunk.

He felt sick. Bile rose to his throat and he suddenly had this urge to throw up. He fell on the floor and leaned over the toilet. He gagged but nothing came out.

His eyes prick with tears but he immediately rubs at them to stop it from falling. His chest was hurting and he felt like he was hyperventilating. "Not again..." He chokes out finally giving in to the despair. The tears fell as he sobbed softly.

"It's happening again" He continues to cry. It's been such a long time since he cried, since he felt this pain that the feeling was almost foreign to him.

Years ago he was the complete opposite of what he is today. He wasn't as sarcastic and smug all the time and he was as innocent as they come. He met a guy and instantly fell in love with him. The guy noticed him as well and they started dating.

As a matter of fact he was so blindly in love with him he didn't realize that he was in a toxic relationship. The other didn't care about him at all, he used him and beat him like he was a shoe rag. He would often bring other men or women home and fuck them like Wooyoung wasn't even there.

Wooyoung would spend multiple nights crying himself to sleep but still, he couldn't leave him. More like he didn't want to leave him. He was in love, or so he thought. He was still so naïve and simple minded back then.

After the 'love of his life' was arrested for possession of illegal arms he felt lost. He kept visiting him as often as possible making promises about how he was gonna get him out.

"Go home Wooyoung. I don't need you anymore. I don't want you anymore" He mumbles nonchalantly as he began to stand up to return to his cell. The guards on both sides of him taking his handcuffed arms to guide him back.

"W-what? I'm gonna get you out ok? I love you" Wooyoung replies hastily.

The other rolls his eyes and groans. "You're so annoying and clingy, jesus christ. I don't fucking love you Wooyoung ok? Do you get it now? Don't come back here or I swear they might end up doubling my sentence for the murder I commit" He spits at him and the guard grabs him roughly before dragging him away.

Wooyoung only sat there speechless and heartbroken. He felt his world come crashing down on him. It finally dawned on him then that he didn't love him. What the hell is love anyways? He was confused at the emotion. He was angry at himself.

After that day it was like he became someone new. He shut off his ability to be emotionally attached to anyone or anything. Sex became his drive. He would screw and screw and screw who ever he wanted and he felt good about it too. He never wanted to look back at the naïve person he once was. Never.

But annoyingly enough San had to show up and screw with his head. He didn't want to admit it to himself but he was slowly starting to grow attached the older.

When he put two and two together and figured out that San was starting to have feelings for him as well he panicked. He tried pushing him away before it was too late. Seeing how San looked heartbroken reminded him of himself.

A knock on the door brought Wooyoung back to reality and he looked up at door. His cheeks were wet with tears and his bottom lip still quivered. "Wooyoung? A-are you ok?" Yunho's voice calls through the door. After he heard his loud sobs from his bed he knew he had to check up on the purple haired boy.

Wooyoung quickly wipes his cheeks as well as runny nose. "I-I'm fine. I'll be out in a minute" He croaks out, his voice coming out hoarse and cracked. He pulls himself up from in front of the toilet and goes the sink to wash his face.

When he glances up at the mirror he let's out a sigh as how miserable he looked. I'm not letting myself get attached to anyone again, he thinks to himself. He's built up this emotional wall for years and he wasn't intending on letting it fall now.

After he washed the dried tears and snot from his face he pats his face dry then finally leaves the bathroom.

Yunho was seated on Jongho's bed in the dark while Jongho still slept soundly. When he stepped out Yunho gets up and goes to him with a worried look on. The moonlight from outside illuminating into the room.

"Hey, are you alright? It sounded like you were crying in there"

Wooyoung simply shakes his head reassuringly while faking a smile. "I'm fine, it's nothing. You should go back to sleep it pretty late" He replies while gesturing towards the digital clock on their dresser that read '2:15 am'.

Yunho obviously didn't believe that it was 'nothing' but he decided not to push it. He'd never heard Wooyoung cry that hard before. He'd never heard Wooyoung cry, period. So he wasn't sure how exactly he was supposed to handle the situation.

"Alright, if you say so... Is San coming back?" He questions as he begins to make his way up his bunk.

"Who the hell knows" Wooyoung replies with a shrug and his usual nonchalant attitude. He crawls under his covers as well.

"Hm ok then. Goodnight"

"Night" He replies monotonously.

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San knocks on Hongjoong's room door but when there was no response, he assumed everyone was asleep so he enters.

Hongjoong layed on the bottom bunk with Mingi. The covers exposed their feet and their legs were tangled together. The smaller frame of Hongjoong molded perfectly with Mingi's. They were both sound asleep, as well as Seonghwa and Yeosang on the other side of the room.

San noticed that Hongjoong's bed was empty so he decides to climb up the bunk to sleep there. He held his shiber plushie close to his chest as he tried going to sleep. It was hard and he ended up staying up most of the night. Just when he was starting to give up hope his eyes started to feel heavy and he eventually fell asleep.

A couple hours later, that morning, San kept hearing whispers and talking in the background and he wanted to scream at Yunho and Jongho to shut the hell up. Someone shakes him but he groans in response. Leave me alone, let me sleep.

"San, wake up. You've gotta get back to your dorm and get ready for class" Hongjoong's voice speaks up and San tries prying his eyes open. Why the hell is Hongjoong in my room?

He sits up when he realizes that it's not his room at all. He then remembers last night's events and how he ended up on Hongjoong's bed. He looks around and sees Seonghwa and Yeosang getting ready while Mingi was busy brushing his teeth in the bathroom, the door wide open.

He grunts before he begins to climb down the bunk. "Why did you sleep here?" Hongjoong asks curiously, his hair slightly messy.

"No real reason. Felt like I needed a break from Jongho's snoring" He lies, a small chuckle following.

Hongjoong smiles lightly in response completely believing him and forgetting that he was angry at the younger the day before.

"I have something to tell you" He says excitedly. He'd been itching to tell his best friend about how he lost his virginity and that Wooyoung liked him too.

"What is it?" San asks with a raised brow and a yawn as he stretches.

"I'll tell you at lunch" Hongjoong giggles mischievously and San only smiles and rolls his eyes at him then grabs shiber before he finally leaves to his dorm.

He was seriously dreading going back. He didn't want to run into Wooyoung. It was way too painful, not to talk of embarrassing. The boy practically spat in his face last night and told him to fuck off. He hated himself for having any sort of feelings towards Wooyoung.

As if the gods had heard his prayers, Wooyoung's bed was empty and it didn't look like he was in the bathroom.

"San hyung, hey. Where were you?" Jongho asks quizzically. When he woke up this morning and found San's bed empty he was surprised and confused. San was usually always last to wake up.

"I slept with Hongjoong. So where's Wooyoung?" He asks nervously while stepping towards his bunk.

"Oh he left early. Something about getting some air, who knows" Jongho replies with a shrug as he brushes his hair while looking at the wall mirror. "He seemed kinda different though"

San looks at him with interest. "How different?"

"Like... More asshole-ish than usual? I know, impossible, but he just didn't seem like himself" San took some time to digest the information.

Ok then...

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Lol idk wtf this is, I just saw it on ateez amino and couldn't stop laughing for like 3 minutes straight 😂😂