(inspired by hong jisoo's asmr af narration)
(excuse my english. i just want to try smth new)

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"hello.

how're you lately?

i'm okay. still doing well on my own. still trying to cope with the various problems in my life.

no, i'm stressed out. the pressure is killing me. i pretend that i'm relaxed all the time, but actually i'm not. but who am i to nag about my problems, right?

i love to whisper. the sound of it gives me chills down my spine, and the whispers of my loved ones are the music to my ears. sometimes, i imagine you whispering to me, and sometimes, i can actually hear it in my brain, echoing back and forth. and suddenly it haunts me. suddenly the temptation to pick up my phone to call you is too big. but maybe not big enough.

we've always been good on our own. you and i, honestly i can't think of anyone else as independent as us, but we used to rely on each other because we desire connection. or maybe that's just the way i felt about it.

well, i've been seeing someone. someone, in all means possible, is better than you. but i love the imperfections of you, and i love the misconceptions of us, too. i want our relationship to be ambiguous. i want to step on the line, not crossing it. because we both know that is too dangerous.

but then you did it. and i did it. and we did it, over and over again till it's impossible to fix what we've done.

so, can we see each other again?

hmm, nevermind. bye."