rey,

apparently you've been avenged but it doesn't seem that way. as much as i hope that asshat rots in prison i still miss you.

the only thing that could make this better is if you were back.

it's so hard for me to cope. i cant deal with this guilt.

if only we hadn't gone out that night. if only i paid more attention...

maybe i could've seen the car coming. maybe i could've swerved us away, maybe i could've saved you.

i wish i took your place. i wish i didn't wake up, i only wish you did.

i probably would've deserved the death anyways, you didn't, you never did. all i wanted was to make you happy but i couldn't.

i never could.

why couldn't you just walk up? why did your lungs have to be damaged by the accident? why did they have to fail you?

why didn't i get taken by death?

you deserved a long happy life, but instead it's been cut short.

i miss you so much.

and i feel so guilty, why couldn't it have been me?

why?