"I love you." You would say but before he can react to the statement, you would always add "as a friend."

"I thought that was a serious confession, you shithead. Don't scare me like that." Levi will always reply.

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On a normal morning, you would have laughed at yourself because of how horrible you looked but as of the moment, you didn't even bother anymore.

Still wearing your thin pajamas, you rushed through the hospital corridors that you grew quite accustomed to.

You didn't even know the reason why Levi called you here but when you heard his voice on the other side of the line, you knew that it was serious.

You were actually scared to know what the reason is because Levi's voice was shaking and his breaths were obvioulsy quickened.

You finally reached the last corridor and you saw a shadow in the far back.

It was Levi.

But you refused to believe it because he was shaking. Levi was breaking apart.

Your feet had a mind of its own and you uncontrollably started running towards him, your feet making soft thuds with the floor. After a moment, compact was made between both of you and you started hugging his small frame.

" Levi?" You whispered shakily.

" Isabel. She-" He said and took a deep breath. "She has three more days to live."
___

You knew that he wasn't over her death yet, the lost of an important person had so much impact on him, it was slowly eating away at him and it pained you to see him like that.

You watched as Levi sat beside Isabel's gravestone in silence.

It was hard to witness the strongest person you know breaking in front of you.

You reached out and held his hand in yours.

" I'm here." You told him.

He snapped out of his own thoughts and for a moment he almost seemed to forget where he was.

" (Y/n)." He let out a breath and squeezed your hand.

You both stared at each other for a few moments and you suddenly saw something pass in his eyes.

" Please don't leave me too."

" I won't."
__

"Levi, you know that I-" You paused, rethinking your thoughts.

"You what?"

" You know that I love you right?"

" I know. Of course I love you too idiot. You're the most torelable friend that I encountered." He chuckled.

" Oh, as a friend?" You smiled bitterly.

" Dumbass, what else would it be?" He started to laugh at you.

" Yeah, what else would it be besides that anyway." You said and started to laugh besides him, clenching your hand into a fist.

___

" (Y/n)." Levi called out.

" Mhm?" You hummed, your vision still focused on your notebook filled with your messy notes.

" Do you remeber Petra?" He asked.

Your head immediately turned at the sound of that name and all the memories started to come back. Petra. You despised that name. Everytime that name spilled out of your lips, it was filled with vile and poison, but Levi didn't seem to notice.

" Your ex-girlfriend? Yeah. Why are you asking all of a sudden?" You replied to him, trying your best to mask the frown on your face.

" She attended the funeral and we talked." He answered while gazing downward.

" What kind of talk?" You warily asked him, a bad feeling settling in your stomach.

" She told me that she still loves me." He stated.

Your breath hitched and suddenly, there wasn't any air left. You looked at Levi and the pain that you were feeling only worsened. He was smiling. He was happy.

" And asked if she can have a second chance." He continued.

He smile was beautiful. Breathtaking. But it hurt.

" Did you say no?" You said, hoping that maybe, maybe.

" I said yes." Levi said and finally turned his gaze towards you.

You couldn't say anything but you noticed that he was waiting for your reaction. All you could say was " Oh."

" Just oh?"

You just wanted to run away. To tell him that you hated him for doing this to you. But it wasn't his fault. He didn't know. He didn't know that you were suffering.

" I am happy. Im happy for you Levi." The words came out of your lips and you almost applauded yourself for being the best actress in the whole world. For being fake. You weren't happy. You could almost laugh at yourself at how pathetic you were. Happy?

How can you be happy?

It was hard to say those words. It was hard to stop the tears from falling. It was hard to stop yourself from breaking right there.

But you knew that deep inside, everything was already broken.

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" Levi!" You ran and tugged at the end of his sleeve

" What?" He asked, annoyed but his gaze softened when he realized that it was you.

" Levi I-" You tried to say but your nerves stopped you. Your whole being tried to tell you to not continue because it was wrong.

" What is it?" He asked you, urging you to continue quickly." We don't have the time to stand around today."

" Levi, I love you." You managed to choke out.

His face was filled with shock at first but realization seemed to take over him.

" 'As a friend' right?" He said as he qouted your words from before. He scowled at you, his eyebrows forming a crease in the middle.

You wanted to say no, you wanted to tell him that you really loved him, not just a friend. You loved how grumpy he always is (especially in the morning), you loved how his smile looked constipated at times, you loved how he had a different kind of humor that no one but you would understand, you loved his passion about everything he cares about, you loved him.

But you didn't voice it out. Your feelings didn't matter now and it will never matter, ever.

" Yeah." You smiled and let the tears fall from your eyes. You pulled him into a tight hug and started crying on his shoulder. You held onto him, like it was going to be the last hug(without you breaking apart), and indeed it will. " I love you Levi. So so much."

" Fucker. You're getting my suit wet. We will still see each other after this. Stop making this like it's a goodbye."

" I know. Im sorry." You said as you pulled back even if you didn't want to. "Congratulations on your wedding Levi."