soni pov:

Some more days passed and levi nii-san was no longer annoyed to me. He was annoyed at me for that one day. I don't know what happened but... I guess it doesn't matter. Only the present matters.

I was getting my lunch from my counter and also had some teapot on my tray. I had made this tea especially for levi nii-san for his tea break like always. I was having a late lunch that day so... just coincidentally it was his teatime.

Suddenly my legs went soft and I fell forward. Luckily levi nii-san caught me in time with his arms. I was in his arms,body close to his. The tray fell over and everything was spilled right beside the both of us.

soni: are...you scalded?

I feel so tired all of a sudden. My eyes black out.

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nira pov:

nira: how's she?

levi: the doctor says she has caught the illness that was spreading in the camp days before.

nira: what?! She will be alright right?

levi: she will. After a few days of sleep the doctor says.

nira: sigh...okay than.

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nira: you have been visiting her everyday.

levi: so have you.

nira: you know I treat her like my sister already. How about you?

levi: what do you mean? She's my subordinate.

nira: you know that's not what I mean. You care about her. You won't come to see her everyday if you don't care about her.

levi: that's because you treat her like your sister.

nira:levi...you should know soni's feelings to you by now. You're just pretending to ignore it, isn't it?

what am I saying.... its like I'm passing soni to levi. Wait... don't I still love levi? Than why am I saying these kind of things?

No, you don't love him. You just...just...treat him as your best friend. You can't let soni get hurt. she's like your sister isn't it?

But... levi says its okay to be selfish.

You don't even dare to tell him you want to be back. The last time you tried remember what happened? You can't hurt soni. She's your sister. You told yourself that. Are you really going to be selfish?

levi: nira!! nira!!!

nira: gomenasai...many things is passing through my head just now.

levi: you worry to much over soni.

nira: levi...I am serious about what I just said. Rather than me... maybe she is a better choice.

He grabs my collar and looks straight into my eye.

levi: what's wrong with you?

nira: nothing...just...saying what I see. You care a lot about her right.That's why you're here everyday.You're just giving yourself an excuse not to love her maybe ...because I am in the way. You think you have to love me but...she is also there levi.

He lets go of my collar shocked by what I said. I left the room.

As I walk down the hallway my tears flow down to my cheeks. Nira...was this what you wanted? Do you not regret?