soni pov:

Levi nii-san was so depressed that he didn't talk to me at all for the whole day.

soni: Levi nii-san...it...couldn't be helped. Its not your fault.

I actually kind of understood how nira felt. Why she avoided levi nii-san. Why she was so confused.

It was my fault that nira had caught this disease. I had dropped the bracelet levi nii-san gave me into the pile of bodies that were to be burnt. Those people died of the same illness.

I wanted to take it back.Nira did tell me to get a new one from levi nii-san but I wouldn't listen.So she went into the pile of bodies to retrieve it for me.

Its...all my fault... I feel so guilty right now. Levi nii-san will surely hate me.

I feel so bad that I can't call her nee-chan anymore.

Amber who so loved levi and made herself disappear.Nira who blamed herself for amber who nira loved. Nira couldn't hate levi so she could only keep her distance while having confused feelings.

Me who so love levi and nira who loved me and made herself disappear. I who so confused with myself not knowing whether I should hate myself  and distance myself or let levi nii-san hate me and let him distance from me.

Or...selfishly just keep quiet.

levi  pov:

I know... I know its soni who made nira die.

Now I feel what nira felt.Why she put a distance between us.

I want to hate soni. But I can't...the thought that she's nira acknowledged sister.I can't. Its also her wish that we be together.

I want to put a distance but...I can't.

I am confused.

I stand under the showers as I think.

But one thing is for sure . I definitely love nira. I'm not confused about that.

I ...know now clearly. I only be with soni because I listened to nira. I wasn't really in love with soni as nira said. I just merely deceived myself that she was telling the truth.

I thought that if leaving her side is what nira wants. If that's what makes her happy...than I'll do it.

But the moment I knew she was sick. The moment I saw her crying....I knew. My heart was broken.I wanted her to stay. I knew. I love her and it never changed.

*click*

the door opened and soni came in taking off her clothes.

levi: what are you doing?

She stepped into the showers.

soni: *blush* take...me...if that allows you to vent your feelings...

levi: don't be an idiot.I don't need that.

She suddenly landed her kiss on me and force her tongue in. I admit I indulged a little. But when I felt the scar on her back, I pushed soni away.

Nira's face flashed past my mind.

soni: its nira...isn't it?

levi: gomenasai.Just leave.

soni: its ok...I don't mind if you treated me as her.

levi: why?

soni: what you mean why.

levi: you don't like that, I know.

soni: nothing much...

levi: to ease your guilt of causing nira's death?

soni: you...you knew?

levi:nira told me how much you love the bracelet. Don't do something as stupid like that again.

soni: hai...

levi: leave.

soni: hai...

The showers hit me again. Nira...

I should have been more aggressive and make you come to my side.