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WANG! WANG! WANG!

"Quick! Inside! Move cautiously!"

The police swarm the front porch of the Granz household that was just situated deep within the subdivision where houses were spread out far from each other. Police lines and sirens made the whole neighborhood alarmed with what was happening.

"Detective, we'll give a go signal if it was okay to enter the crime scene." The police major barge in the house to secure that there won't be an ambush. His nose met a waft of odor in the air. Following the stench, a body that was just starting to decay was found.

"Too late...tsk! Move! Keep securing the perimeter! Find, if there are more victims or at least a surviving member of the family!" The police major kept the search for any other person that could be found in such a big home, the police were petrified to find a beautiful blonde woman's corpse and a child curved into a ball just underneath the sofa.

Unconscious.

Pale.

Delirious with high fever.

Just a little more delay and he'll be dead as well. Seeing a light of life to this child, the Major quickly picked up the child and ran back to the front porch.

"Lieutenant Colonel! I found this unconscious child just beneath the sofa... he... he's still breathing but had a high fever! Call for Medic!!" The child was quickly put on a stretcher and first aid was done immediately. The police were horrified with the state the child was in. The Major quickly reported to the Detective to conduct a police investigation on the case.

"Detective, It seems that the crime was already committed two days ago at most, it was reported due to the pungent odor smelled by a postman that was passing by and because the family was not responsive to delivery calls." The major has this look of grimace in his face.

A face of frustration, fear and pity on the victims.

"Thank you Major, I'll take this from here, be sure to help the child, he will be helpful to this case as we don't have any leads yet." The detective proceeded with his deduction to the case.

****

"Lieutenant, the only motive for killing is burglary, the family's valuables cannot be found, the Granz are quite wealthy given that the father was a high ranking military official. Unfortunately, he died on the battlefield, also recently. According to the data, he's been designated a lot on conflict borders and If there are any motives, the child could tell it as there are no records found that would let Mrs. Granz be killed." The detective enumerated what was on his mind, analyzing why the killing took place.

"Detective, This is too much for the child to bear, he's conscious now but... He's not speaking. Losing parents would really take a toll on him and witnessing it...I can't even fathom his trauma." The Lieutenant pondered sadly with these thoughts.

"You are right Sir, but this might be a case of serial killing. It's been happening for three consecutive months now. Looking at the report, it was the same pattern. The pattern for burglary and killing of a single parent, leaving out the child. Only this child must have a chance to see what the killer looks like. I deduced that this maniac is one and the same. I think we'll find a lead soon Lieutenant, he's getting lax...Good thing we got his hair sample from the victim's palms and his fingerprints are everywhere. His gloves were taken off. I don't know how that happened but Mrs. Granz must have found a way to at least leave proof after her death. She fought and her sacrifice won't be in vain.We won't let him get away this time" The Lieutenant was shocked with the rundown of information to this case.

"Thank you so much Detective, we'll start the operation as soon as possible"

"You should Sir, this is getting out of hand and we don't want a fourth family do we?"

"Yes of course..."

"If that's the case, we need the child, we need him to speak, we need to know what happened and what the killer looks like."

****

"Child, the White Sand Orphanage took the initiative to take you under their wings. You'll be fine under their care." After several weeks at the hospital, the blonde boy was finally cured with his ailment. His eyes ran dry from crying everyday. Waking up to the same nightmare that flashes the worst night of his life.

"Just leave him to us we'll take good care of him" A man clad in white, looks quite old but knowledgeable about everything, shook the Lieutenant's hand and took the boy to his side.

"I trust your word for it Director. There are no known relatives that could take this child, Thank you very much." He bowed as the child went to the Director's side without resistance,"And Director, as you promised, you'll help the child talk about what he witnessed that night, right?"

"We sure will. We have our ways"

****

The White Sand Orphanage was all white.

Rooms are padded white.

Caretakers are all white.

The children wear white.

These children are all odd, peculiar even. They act like nothing a normal child would do or in any case acts what a child would do but something with such extreme behavior...which is a very unusual sight.

Young Viktor Granz grew wary of the Orphanage or rather the facility where the children are out of control and were gathered together. This made him tug his white shirt out of anxiety. It was like a cage that is full of children ages 9-13 who can't even play outside because it was prohibited as per the rules.

"Here. Your room. Make sure to behave okay and the schedule...By 6 in the evening a caretaker would need to tend to you okay?" The boy just nodded to the director,"Good boy, I promise you'll be able to talk again soon. You are our priority after all." A sinister smile flash to the innocent boy that doesn't even know what that means.

As he retired for the night inside his white padded room muffled screams from the outside was heard. This made the boy shake in fear barely unable to sleep as his anxiety and fear took over him, he did what he usually does to counter it. He lulled to himself what his mother usually sang to him and finally, fear washes away like magic and the boy finally went to sleep.

****

The morning came and the institution felt like a normal orphanage. Children eat, do their cleaning routine, play, and afternoon naps. But not until the dreaded night. A knock was heard just outside the boy's room. "Good evening. I'm here to get you." The caretaker was smiling but there was something on that smile that made the boy shiver.

They walk along a narrow passageway inside the building which leads to an underground secluded room. The child's eye was blinded with light as soon as they entered the room that is still white but in the center, a unique looking chair is situated. His eyes wander around the room and notice two or three more people above that were spectating behind the glass walls like he was some kind of an exhibit. The stares make the boy anxious with fear but he can't just process what was before his eyes. The caretaker keeps on calling his name but the sounds just became deaf to his ears.

"This child is really not responsive, his eyes are practically dead. What a good specimen right Doctor Burke?" A woman clad in white was taking a good look at the new child that just came in the orphanage.

"Yes he really is, all of the other kids here are either very hyper or very emotional but this kid is nothing of those. We need first to accomplish what the Lieutenant wants." Doctor Burke is the Director of White Sand Orphanage with a hidden motive behind the just cause of the institution.

The White Sand Orphanage or rather White Sand Asylum. A place for children with severe mental problems was being studied for medical advances by Doctor Burke. This is for him to have a Nobel Peace Prize for medical innovation. He believed that a breakthrough in psychological medicine could be achieved if the test subjects were children with wrecked tender minds. He believed that it would give a more potent outcome.

"Okay, since we're all here. I've taken an all nighter to think of ways on how to cure you my boy, Hmmm~ Ms. Anna kindly put the strap on him and fixed him on the chair nice and tight. Take a deep breath as this liquid is quite viscous. This will hurt a little."

Ahhh....AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!

The doctor carefully injected the unknown fluid on the child's arm that made him feel numb, "Oh~ good boy. This will ease your mind, we'll just make the medicine kick in okay, Ms. Anna kindly removed him from the strap and put him on a straitjacket, we wouldn't want anything to get out of hand, would we?" The doctor has this hideous smile on his face.

This smile made Viktor shiver in fear. All the memories of that night flashes back to his mind. The face of the maniac plastered on his brain, he squirmed and shouted despite being groggy but the lady muffled his voice.

"Ah~ you could let go of that gag Ms. Anna, we'll see what we can extract from this boy." The director then turned to Viktor, "I'm very sorry my dear, Lieutenant needs an urgent response and we need to prove our worth as an Orphanage that could take care of you so you won't be pulled out okay? I need you." There is that sinister smile again before the doctor put something on the boy's head. Electric wave came from his head which made his body shake out of shock.

"AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHH!!!!"

"Stop it now. Hmm? Now talk! What happened that day when your mom died?"

"Ngh...Ahh...mhggh...Ahhhhh! Se..seller..H..house..t-tall.. dark..ark.. S-scary... I...Quiet.. Ke...eep Q-quiet... I mu...st.... keep quiet... It hur...ts... Mom..."

"Oh? He passed out...HAHA~ HAHA~HAHA! I'm such a genius! It's not enough, Not enough!! Ms. Anna call the police and tell them this lead to make them shut up about asking how the boy was! Send the voice record and cut out the shouting. Tell them not to bother anymore. Make up something or whatever."

The test keeps going on each month for 2 years but that moment was the first and the last time Viktor ever spoke or scream ever again.

-VIKTOR-

"Uhm...Viktor?" I flinched as Emma called. I'm reminiscing about the days when we were still at the orphanage.

I'm fine Emma, I just think of our days at the orphanage. I flash a smile. You and Emily really made my stay bearable. Thank you.

"Viktor, I'm thankful to you too and I'm thankful to Lieutenant Beck back then, If not for him, bringing that case to a close then--" Emma flashed a pained smile but cut what she was saying, "Since then, he became mine and Emily's father figure...uh...ah...ehehe...let's not talk about past, shall we!" Emma flashed a pained smile.

I also knew from Lieutenant Beck that Emma and Emily were also the same victim of my mother's killer. They woke up to see their parent's dead.

How horrible that was...

It was all schemed by Doctor Burke to gain children with unstable minds. He hired a person to do this dirty job for him, finding small families who are willing to sell their big house to opt for a small one. This is where he chose his victim.

He really is the worst...

He is the one who is not in his right mind...

I shrugged my head out of this thought that angers me.

It was good that you and Emily stayed together. I'm sorry that I insist on being independent. I showed her my pad and hung my head low

"Well, you're much able by then, you're already 14 whereas me and Emily we're only 12 that time and father still felt bad about you, If he could do anything to help please reach out to him, Please..." I feel the sincerity with Emma's voice in this conversation.

Lieutenant Beck held me tightly back then and kept saying he was sorry. He said that if he did not insist on getting information from me I would not experience those torturous medications but I insisted it's not his fault because I will still go through it like what Emma, Emily and other children in the orphanage will go through, It's just that Dr. Burke became quite obsessed at healing me.

Ahh...I'm getting cold feet with these thoughts. I forced a smile to just get over these.

Viktor you can do this!

Tell Sir Beck it's not his fault, Like really! And Congratulations on being the new Director of White Sand Orphanage! We'll do our best to cater to this charity well. I smiled at her brightly. I feel awkward in this conversation, this topic is something we can't still talk about casually. Ms. Michiko became fidgety with this heavy air around us at least I stirred up from the harsh topic.

Emma giggled,"Thank you Victor! And Emily is a Doctor now at the Sacred Heart Hospital!" I see that Emma is still enamored with Emily with that glistening eyes as she mentions her name. As I look back she calls her her Angel. I giggled with the thought.

That was good to hear! She was already a genius right from the start so it was not shocking to be honest and by the way... Vick... She died... But she had a son Wick! There were these mixed emotions in Emma's face.

"Oh... so she's gone... I'm not shocked because I know she'll be old by now. She is father's parting gift to you after all, I would love to see Wick later!" We giggled with this short conversation and proceed with talking laying out plans for the charity with Ms. Michiko.

-NORTON-

"A charity?"

That's right, It was that time of the year again where Oletus Inc would choose a beneficiary for this annual CSR charity activity.

"Yes! And guess what department will be hosting it this year~?" Eli had this innocent smile again on his face. I huffed a breath before replying.

"Regardless, You know that I can't volunteer with all these works laid down for me and I haven't even got to be involved in one ever since I started working here." I automatically massage my temple because why would Eli open up a topic we both don't get a chance to join in right?

A paper was slammed in front of me.

"hey~hey~hey~ look at the volunteers first my friend." I instantly found Viktor's name on the list. My head shot up to meet Eli's eyes with shock. He has this smug look on his face, his brows twitching up and down. "Now interested? Their department will host it this year."

Ah.

He keeps teasing me now, how the tables have turned.

"Well, Mr. Clark, Aesop Carl is there too." I return that smug look at him.

Wow, So pure, he easily blushed just hearing his name.

"Ahem! Well, Yes! That's why I volunteer too." Damn that was fast. He's being all grown up now, huh? Bet he could still not make advances towards the guy. I snorted.

"And look!" Hm? Eli is pointing at something...

WHAT!?

"Edgar Valden volunteered, what would you do now Mr. Campbell?" Eli is being a pro at teasing now. I'm having a taste of my own medicine here. I quickly moved to the side and started dialing Vera's extension number.

"HAHAHA! dialing his secretary's number to cancel engagements during the charity and listing your name up right?" I just rolled his eyes at him.

Damn spot on!

-VIKTOR-

After a month of preparation, the needed things for the charity activity were settled by each assigned committee of volunteers. Each head explained to the people under them their tasks and what to do in the event proper.

Coincidentally, Edgar and Aesop were in the same committee led by me. Administrative committee was assigned for gathering things needed like props and paraphernalias for the event, food handling and other administrative jobs. We're all-rounders.

"Viktor!" I met the man's turquoise eyes that were just running towards me, "Let's go together shall we?" Such a soft smile. I nodded to accept his offer.

"You both would not go alone. Can I come too?" I was baffled that Aesop asked himself to be invited. I showed him a big smile and nodded.

Ah...!

I hope it won't bother Edgar. I made the decision on a whim. It's not even my car. I hid behind my palms to hide my ashamed face.

"Viktor, stop being cute, It's totally okay and we're also in the same committee so it was easier for us to convene together right?" Edgar is really thoughtful. He can read my actions too easily and I'm kinda baffled but was amazed by it. I nodded and smiled at him.

"Thank you Mr. Valden" Aesop nodded curtly but there is this slight sign of irritation? Why is that?

"No problem! Aesop right? Viktor told me good things about you! Just call me Edgar will you?" They shook their hands. I'm glad Aesop is making more friends now.

"Alright then, Let's go!" With that, our trio made our way to Edgar's car.

I sat in the front passenger seat while Aesop was in the backseat. Edgar stepped on the engine and made its way to the orphanage.

The thought of finally going back to that place makes my anxiety at its peak levels. Even though I knew it was changed and everything is good as it was taken over by Lieutenant Beck back then, I can't help but be uncomfortable. I trust Lieutenant Beck and so is Emma, I knew that this time it was really for just cause but I can't help being uncomfortable in that very place. The horror it brings still haunts me in my sleep.

Huh?

A hand was placed on my balled fist that just rested on my legs. It was Edgar's. His eyes still fixated on the road and his other hand on the wheels. He might feel how anxious I am. I was being fidgety and might be too obvious.

Huh?

Another hand overlaps his. I was shocked as Aesop lean from the backseat just to do the same gesture. I looked at Aesop and he had this plain face and suddenly looked at Edgar. This made the interaction cut short as I relaxed my trembling hand and smiled curtly at both as they took a quick glance at me.

Phew~ I hope I reassured them. They might think I'm nervous but I really am. But not with the same reasons they had in mind, probably.

With all these things running on my head, I noticed that Aesop's actions were really surprising. It puzzled me today.

-White Sand Orphanage-

"Viktor! Welcome!" We were accepted with open arms by the young Director of the orphanage, Emma Woods. The orphanage was not the same ten years ago when I first set foot to this institution. It still gave me the chills as the structure was still the same but much more colorful than before. The children are playing outside the garden with now an additional structure on the side. There was now a church in this institution.

A garden and a church that does not exist back then. This must be Emma's doing, she told me about how she loved to be a gardener in future, I'm happy for her now as she realized her dreams.

Thank you very much Emma. The children here are wonderful. I showed her what I wrote and smiled.

"That's very thoughtful of you Viktor! and who might these gentlemen be?" Emma peeked behind my back to see who's behind me.

Ah! That silver eyed is Aesop and the one with turquoise is Edgar. I quickly turn to both of them and introduce Emma.

"It was nice to meet you Emma!" Edgar reached for her hand to curtly kiss it on the back. Aesop was surprised with what Edgar just did but shook it off. Well, that's just how Edgar used to greet people.

Hmm? but he didn't do it with Aesop. He might have a preference for whom to do that gesture with.

"You're such a gentleman Edgar" Emma giggled."It was nice meeting you too Aesop, Let's do our best today! Let's go inside shall we?" Aesop curtly nodded at Emma, maybe to say likewise? we proceed inside with all the things needed for the activity in our hands.

Hm?

I feel like Aesop is a little fidgety. He keeps looking back and forth. He might be waiting for someone else to come. Well, the administrative committee needs to be early to set up the mini stage and other necessities.

****

Just, WOW!

I know that Edgar is born an artist but his skill set is not limited to graphic arts and free hand drawing and painting. The stage design was beautiful and it made me awe. Different kinds of flower patterns and paper arts were plastered all around the stage. The color was light in the eyes that it made it look magical.

"I search what the garden in the orphanage looks like so the stage could compliment these designs~ pretty right?"

"Hmm!" I briskly nodded my head to agree. I was dazzled! I hope the children would like it. What Aesop and I just did was just to support Edgar while designing the stage. All that is left is for Marga to start the event.

"Thank you Viktor!" Ah! He ruffled my hair. I suddenly felt a pang of pain. I suddenly missed someone ruffling my hair like this. I shook my head to let these thoughts fly out of the window.

"You okay Viktor?" Edgar is really good at catching my expressions. I just gave a big smile to reassure him that I'm fine.

"Okay then! Marga already held the mic to start hosting! Let's go?" Edgar took my hand and ran to where Aesop is. He is quick to move to the next assigned task. Very Aesop.

****

As Marga dances and Ms. Michiko sang, other volunteer performers made the children entertained and with the final act, Naib, who was a popular personality among the children, both boys and girls, danced and sang a special performance just for this event. Sadly, he could not stay too long because of him and Mike's shoot is still ongoing but I'm glad that he still found time to participate in this kind of event. He really does love helping out. I'm just sad I didn't get to say hi.

As these presentations were still ongoing, we in the admin committee helped the food committee to prepare the foods that would be distributed to the orphans. We enjoyed serving food to these children. Their smiles are heartwarming. The two guys on my side have the same smile plastered on their faces too. They might be feeling what I'm feeling too. I'm glad I took part in this kind of activity.

****

The final part of the activity is games for the children and being interactive with them. It seems that the committee is having a problem? I quickly went to their side to ask if there is something I can help them with. It seems that the two assigned for the prizes were still on their way to reach here. Now what to do? I'm starting to panic too.

As I keep my head down to think of ways on how we could have a solution to this problem, the committee head of Children activities exclaimed.

"Finally! The prizes are here!" I quickly lifted my head to where the exclamation came from and flashed a big hearty smile at the person that just came in. As the face was close enough for me to recognize, I was taken aback.

EH??!! NORTON!?

I don't think he would have time to engage in this kind of activity. Bosses are quite busy so a normal employee could just do this kind of thing.

His mouth was agape with that tinge of red hues on his ears and face. He had this disheveled look where his tie is loose and that white long sleeves was pulled up his arms. His hair is kinda wet too, Must be because of sweat from running. His brushed up hair is glistening...

Ah...He's dazzling...No! Viktor, No time to be amazed!

As I came back to reality I saw him literally drop what he was holding and came after me. With reflex, I dashed as fast as I could to get out of his vision and went to where Aesop and Edgar were.

"Mr. Campbell! We'll start right away!" Glad the call halted his movements. "Where is Mr. Clark by the way?"

Eh?

Did Aesop just flinched upon hearing Eli's name? He has this expectant eyes.

"Well, he is the reason why I came running late today, he can't make it today. I'm sorry, he's busy with something at the moment." So, Eli was supposed to be here too. I look at Aesop and he looks somewhat disappointed.

Ah!

What is this what is this? Does he get attached with Eli now? I giggled.

Aesop went to greet Norton and did an okay sign.

What was that supposed to mean? I wonder.

<<SPECIAL>> AESOP

Why am I stuck with these two...again?

I admire Mr. Campbell at work but when it comes asking for help about his personal affairs. I'm questioning his life decisions. Eli must have suggested something bizarre to Mr. Campbell.

As soon as I timed in at the office, Eli came running towards me together with Mr. Campbell. This surprised me.

"Aesop, I need to ask something of you..." Mr. Campbell had this panicked look on his face that he still tried to hide while asking me

"What was it Mr. Campbell?" I tilted my head about his urgent request.

"Uh...I bet we could consider us friends after all this time, Just call me Norton" He was scratching the back of his head, he might find it awkward that I still call him that despite not being directly under his management. I sighed.

"Okay Norton. Was that all you need to ask of me?" Oh. he became flustered.

"Ah! That's not about it at all... It's just that me and Eli need to do something urgent. We might run a little late but we'll be sure to go there if our participation is already needed." So, it's about charity,"Would you keep an eye on Viktor for me please?"

Wow. What a weird request.

"Just so you know Aesop, Edgar Valden is Norton's nemesis and he also volunteered since you're all together in a committee and something urgent came up that needs mine and Norton's presence, We couldn't keep an eye on Edgar's advances towards Viktor, would you help out? Pretty please~"

Ugh

He's doing a puppy eyes attack again and I'm right that this was another of Eli's help. I have no words for these two. How can I even say No? Not when they look so desperately in need.

"All right then, I just need to be in between them right?"

"Right! With that, I will treat you to these sweet stores that just opened recently near here"

Wow! If this was the bribe then I can't say no to that! But wait? Why would he be the one to treat me? I look at Norton with a confused look.

"Oh, you might be thinking why I'm not the one to treat you. Well, this was HIS idea since he dragged me together with HIS job!" Norton has just a plain face while explaining these things with me and Eli seems to be happy with treating me out. Might as well get the best out of it.

"If that's the case, I will get the salary equivalent to this job and Eli, I will bring someone for you to treat too" Eli was astounded. I don't even want to care why but he looks funny like that. That made me giggled a little.

"Norton, Eli, I need to go. If I were to catch up with Viktor, I must go now since the admin committee needs to go ahead first" With that I left the two looking perplexed.

But why would they have information of whom the volunteers were and the committee they belong too? That's weird. Unless you're a CEO or something and have access to all department's documents you'll be able to know of those. Guess, I'll just shrug it off. It's not even worth thinking through. Just focused on the additional task requested of you.

****

The program is going smoothly and I haven't noticed that we are nearing the final part. I heard that there are some problems that arose as the persons incharge was still not here. Well, Viktor was already on it and I just keep doing what I am doing.

Just a few moments later, I saw Viktor come running towards me and Edgar hiding behind us. Upon looking at why he ran away, I saw Norton. He has this pained and panicky look on his face. These two can never get less interesting indeed.

But...where is Eli?

Wait...Huh???

Is this real?

Am I really looking for him?

Maybe, I just got used to him being around Norton and I. It's kinda disappointing that he could not join us today. Norton already confirmed his absence. What could have happened? Could he not ditch his work like he usually does? I knew he's a genius who could do his best job on a whim. What if something much more could have happened?

Huh?

Is this real?

Am I getting worried over that dork?

I shook my head out of this thoughts and went to Norton to report my job has somewhat succeeded with an okay sign.

<<SPECIAL>> EDGAR

Recently, I've been taking a liking to this certain guy who delivers documents to and fro in our office. He's very tamed and very diligent with his work. He is also easily flustered which I think is very cute. What made him more interesting is that he communicated through his pad. He is unique and I like unique people.

I might be quite pushy at first because I'm weighing how he would respond to how I usually am. I coincidently treated him like how I usually treat a lady because of how cute he is. Well I think he deserves such treatment though. He is very sweet and charming in his own way which makes me want to know more about him. I don't know what this feeling is but I'm quite intrigued.

An artist instinct always kicks in. Always intrigued in a curious case.

I even invited him to my grandfather's gallery to know how he would react to seeing art. This is also a chance to get to know more about him. If I compare him with a masterpiece, he is like a Mona Lisa. Aside from being beautiful, his smile could contain different meanings, he could not talk to express but that smile of his explained it all, Perfetto! He's a walking masterpiece.

But upon walking to the constellation patio of the gallery, while looking at the stars, his eyes were filled with sadness. Why was that? I came closer to his face to have a good look on his expression. It was breathtaking, the curiosity he brought is ethereal. I finally found it! The piece that I was going to paint. He is the subject that I was waiting for. The muse that would let me inspire to paint the final portrait for my very own exhibit.

"The postman..." I muttered under my breath as my observation was disturbed by a call from his old cellphone model.

Oh...

I need more references and materials from this muse. It looks like I'll be sticking for awhile with Viktor. I chuckled. Thank you for giving me the inspiration to pick up my brush again.

****

I grab the chance to be a volunteer at this charity to observe more of Viktor's other side. I'm glad that he mentioned their department being tasked to spearhead it this year. I insisted to my manager that my name be listed up despite us having too much workload for this month. I must not miss this chance. With the assurance of overtime, finally he gave up.

Also it was lucky for me that I'm under Viktor's committee. What luck right? I also met another friend of his, Aesop. He is not like Demi and Kurt which was open for communication. He's a mystery too but he's quite a cool guy to be with.

One thing I just noticed, he keeps on interfering when I get to be in contact with Viktor...

Does he have hots for him? I wonder. Well Viktor is such a carino~

What also makes me thankful that I volunteered today is that I saw another side of Viktor when that tall and undeniably manly guy just came rushing in. I can't comprehend his expression.

Was he scared? Longing? Angry? Or Flustered? The dark haired man has this hurt expression on his face as Viktor runs away from him.

Wow.

He must be an ex-lover or just having a lover's quarrel. I snorted with the thought. Who would have expected Viktor's changes in expression to be my source of entertainment.

The raven-haired man proceeded to help with his committee as they called for him. So his name was Campbell. It seems familiar...

Ah! The famous genius of the Market Research Department!

"Viktor, could you go to the farthest room in the building, you'll reach it via the narrow passageway. It's our underground stockroom and we need more supplies from there. I missed around eight cutlery and dishware for the volunteers. My bad! Sorry! Thank you very much! I just need to attend to this child." Emma smiled apologetically at Viktor and dashed fast inside the building with a child on her arms

As I looked back at Viktor there was this horrified look on his face. This made me puzzled as to why he had that expression. Yes. I took a liking to observing him but this expression now made me concerned about him.

"Viktor, would you like it if we go together?" His tensed body relaxed upon hearing my suggestion. At least he's okay if there is someone that accompanies him to that area. Maybe he fears it? Well it's horror movie material and maybe he is not fond of that kind of genre. I pondered.

We reached the entrance of a narrow pathway to reach the secluded room. I wonder why Viktor instantly knows about this area. Maybe he's been here before?

I look back at Viktor and he is shaking in fear with just the view of the passageway. There must be something traumatic to Viktor that made him shiver with fear. I held his icy hand to reassure him that everything would be fine. He took a deep breath and smiled at me. There it is again. A smile of reassurance that he's fine.

With that he first entered the narrow passage.

-VIKTOR-

For the whole month of preparation for this event. I also prepared myself to come back to the place that gives me hellish experience but I never knew that the basement would still be the fear that I can't get over with ever. With Edgar being here. I braved it out to get to that room. Maybe Emma altered how it looks like since it became a stockroom right?

That's right Viktor. No need to panic. Everything is not what it was decades ago.

My eyes are closed tight while traversing the passageway to reach that secluded room for the first time again after so many years. As I know I reached the end, I held that familiar knob to open the steel door that was still unchanged from how it looks like back then but a little rusty now. It got me nervous how everything is the same as it was.

With a final heave, I swung the door open. It's dark and I could not see anything.

"Stay where you are Viktor, I'll try to grasp where the the switches were."

CLICK.

I closed my eyes to try to adjust with the blinding light. I open it slowly and to my horror. The familiar white padded walls. The chair was still sitting at the center. There are cabinets here now and other things but it was the exact same place.

I feel cold sweats trickle down my body.

The scenario before me changes to how it was back then. Men clad in white are surrounding me with that sinister look on their faces. Observing me like I was some kind of a specimen.

I shiver.

I feel my knees buckled and flopped to the ground.

I feel so cold all over.

I feel someone nudging me to bring me back to my senses but.. Their voices..are prominent..

The voices. I'm hearing their voices!

SHUT UP.

It's no use. I'm covering my ears but it's no use.

I feel the tears spilling non-stop on my eyes. My shouts are inaudible. I wanted to scream. I wanted to run out from here. I can't breath. I keep gasping for air but I can't breath!

It hurts! Mom!

"Viktor, keep yourself safe..."

Mom.. I can't.. Please.. Don't leave me...

"Don't make any sound..."

Someone please...

"Nr...to..nn"

"Norton...Help..hic... Help me..."

-NORTON-

"Viktor!"

"Ngh...sniff....hic...."

When I saw that terrified look on Viktor's face, his eyes welling up with tears and he was shaking vehemently while being held by Edgar, my eyes were wide in shock and I was panicking inside. Edgar took notice of me, he narrowed his eyes towards Viktor and sighed

"He's looking for you, Campbell..." Edgar slowly led Viktor to me, looking at Viktor's state right now gave a strong and painful tug in my chest. I didn't expect Egdar would contact me through Viktor's phone and tell this was an urgent matter that he needed me, I didn't think it would be this worse.

I immediately took Viktor's hand in mine, gripping it tight. Viktor didn't even look at me, his whole body is shaking and he was cold too

Edgar didn't explain what to me what have happened.I'm thankful that this guy took great care of Viktor, I was kind of stupid I got jealous over him when in fact I should be grateful, If he wasn't there with Viktor something horrible might happened and I don't want that, I glance at Edgar one last time before leaving with Viktor and smiled at him

"Thank you, Edgar."

Edgar smiled back,"No problem, please take care of him, he needs you, Campbell."

I nodded and held Viktor's trembling shoulder guiding him in one of the rooms in the orphanage..

Viktor what happened to you?

When we reached a room, I let Viktor sit by the corner of the bed and sat beside him, he held my polo tightly and was sobbing uncontrollably. I felt scared, something awful happened to him while I was away. It must have something to do with his past. It kept bugging me so many times now, I recall him crying in his sleep too

What was in your past that you are so afraid of?

"Viktor, I'm here, no one's going to hurt you anymore" I envelop him in my arms, his cries just keep on going. How can I make him stop? It seems like my voice or even my touch isn't reaching at all. I sighed exasperatedly and then I remembered that lullaby...

I brushed my fingers against his hair, nestling my head in his shoulder while he rested in my chest and hummed that lullaby, softly in his ears.

This lullaby must have been very special to you and I'm sure it'll make you feel better.

After hearing that soft melody, Viktor stopped crying. I'm glad that lullaby always works to calm him down. I slowly release him from my grip and smiled, wiping off his tears, brushing his golden hair off of his view and caressing his face, Viktor just keeps staring at me with that blank expression, he looks so much in pain.

"Viktor..."

I lifted him up and placed him in my lap. I noticed Viktor flinched, I chuckled and lean closer to his face. He looked like he wanted to say something but couldn't because he doesn't have his pad with him. I slowly inch closer, cupping his face with both of my hands, he was looking deep in my eyes. He looks Scared? Confused? Needy? I honestly couldn't tell what he's thinking right now

If someone genuinely loves you, they will close their eyes when you kiss them

Those words, I remembered mom used to tell me that when I was young. I wonder...

I gently planted a soft kiss on Viktor's moisted lips and to my surprise he closed his eyes. My heart bubble in joy, my eyes are getting glassy from the revelation that Viktor still loves me. I continued to plant more kisses,

His forehead,

His nose,

His eyes,

His cheeks,

His jaws,

His neck,

Viktor just kept on blinking while being showered by my kisses, his pale cheeks was replaced by these rosy painted hues, I can feel his heart thumping so loud in his chest and mine as well, having Viktor this close to me made me so nervous, I couldn't think straight anymore the only thing in my mind is I want to kiss him more and maybe, this is the right time to tell him how I feel, I'm going to take this chance.

"I love you, Viktor... I love you so much" I confessed.

It's now or never right?

I look deep in that beautiful honey orbs that I love so much, hoping that my words get across, hoping that he'll realize I want him, hoping that he'll love me back. I was praying so hard as we stared in each other's eyes, he can easily read people's emotions right? I have high hopes he will see right through me.

I want to see that gentle expression from Viktor's eyes when I tell him I love him. But..

I was wrong. What I saw in his face was a pained expression

Why?

Viktor averted his gaze and gently pushed me away. No! I immediately grabbed him and pull him into a hug, I have to try again.

"Viktor, believe me...I love you...I love you so much...Please" I begged, holding him tightly. He nudged me away and looked me in the eye once again. I wanted you to see how genuine my feelings are for you and that I will cherish you properly this time. To my dismay his eyes are wavering, he still doesn't believe me... My hug went loose as I felt demoralized...

What will I do? What can I do to make him believe that I truly love him?

I'm so confused and hurt, my tears are trickling down my cheeks, I'm clenching my teeth so hard. I don't know how to let Viktor see how much I want him back, I want to take back that stupid rejection and start all over again. My vision is getting blurry. It's my turn to cry, he'll see my pitiful state once again.

I want you back...

I heard Viktor sighed and he caressed my face, gently wiping my tears away, I took his hand and cried, kissing his palms.. "Please, Don't go Viktor...I love you..."

I don't want to lose you...

How many times do I have to say I love you to get my message across? How many times do I have to try for you to look at me again? I don't even know what to do now except keep repeating that I love you.

This feels so hopeless...

Viktor lifted my chin, leaned over and gave me a quick kiss on my lips. I stared at him with shock, he shifted his gaze afterwards, let me go and left the room immediately. What was that about? Did he kiss me because he pity me?

I covered my face with my hand, contemplating on my failed confession. Maybe I deserve this for everything I've done in the past and now my sins are dawning on me. I took out my phone and called Eli, I don't think I can drive home in this state. I'm too devastated to do so and I need to let this out off my chest

RING

"Yo! Sup bro."

"Eli..."

I let out a breath and started sobbing. I need a confidant right now.

"NORTON!? What happened...! Why are you crying!? Talk to me buddy!" Eli is panicking, I want to tell him my agony but I couldn't explain everything that happened to me because of my damn cries, I couldn't stop

"Viktor...he....rejected me, I don't think...."

"Norton..."

"...ngh....Eli....sniff..."

"Hey, where are you now? Want me to pick you up?"

"...sniff....still at the Orphanage...."

"Okay, Wait for me okay!"

"Mhm..."

With that Eli hung up, I just hope he will hurry to come pick me up. I keep on wiping my tears again and again, I slump my whole body, burying myself in the sheets. I just want to fade, I hope this is just a nightmare, I want to wake up soon.

****

"Who's that, Eli?" Mike asked curiously, tilting his head

Mike visited Eli a couple of hours ago to discuss the contract for his upcoming movie, apparently Mike needs Eli's approval and visited him personally. Eli looked perplexed as he stared at Mike's worried expression, he then let out a breath and spoke up,"It was Norton, he's crying because the person he likes dumped him..."

"Someone he likes?" Mike asked again

Eli stared at Mike,"Yeah, Viktor..."

"Eh!? Why? Viktor loves Norton!" Mike exclaimed. He knew that Viktor had strong feelings for Norton, he confirmed it himself back at the Christmas Party and that Viktor wanted to be with Norton. Why would Viktor reject him now, right? Mike thought

"You know too?" Eli asked, he didn't expect Mike to know about it. Norton told Eli recently about his past and that Mike was his past lover, he didn't think that Mike would know about Victor's feelings for Norton out of all people.

"Yeap, Viktor told me last year at the party, Why would he--"

"Norton rejected Viktor"

"Huwaahhh!? Why--I'm confused! Enlighten me Eli"

Eli explained the whole story to Mike. It made Mike feel bad for the two, he never expected the turn of events to get so complicated, he honestly hoped that those two will be together at some point and that he accepted the situation whole heartedly otherwise he won't be cheering Viktor and Norton on if he didn't, Why is Norton so confusing and messed up. Mike really need to knock some sense out of Norton

"Hey Eli, let me talk to Norton."

"You sure?" Eli blinked at Mike a couple of times and stared at the mounds of work in his desk and sighed,"Then again I can't leave the office right away, Martha will scold me non-stop" Eli scratched his head frustratingly,"If you're sure-go, I'll give you the address where he is"

"Thanks, I promise to bring back good news!" Mike gave Eli a toothy grin and a thumbs up,"Oh, and tell Lucky that I went to the orphanage to see Norton, Okay?"

"Sure, Take care, Please help Norton, I'm very worried."

"Trust me, I got this Eli!"

****

It's almost an hour or two since I last called Eli. I'm glad I fell asleep and it made me feel a little bit better but my eyes are too swollen, It hurts, I tried standing up and leave the room

I went for a stroll around the garden and went to the small church. It might refresh my mind. I feel stupid and numb because of my failed confession, Viktor must have felt this after I rejected him not to mention he even lost his beloved job, It must have hurt him even more, just when he needed me I disappear just like that, everything is so messed up, my head and my life.

I rested near a bench under a tree while staring off the distance. I just want to fade away. While having my negative thoughts preoccupied my mind, my eyes scanned the area and to my surprise I saw a familiar figure from afar, I fixed my gaze to see Mike dashing towards me.

"Norton!" When Mike finally reached me, I stared at him, he looked frantic. Mike immediately grabbed my shoulder and shook me lightly,"You look freaking awful! Come here, come here big guy!" Mike give me tight hug and lets me go afterwards

"What are you doing here, Mike?" I asked confusedly, I thought Eli would come pick me up

"I have a business deal with Eli and he told me the whole story so I volunteered to come in his stead since he's very busy at the moment"

"Ah, I see..." I must've bothered Eli a while ago. I'm sorry Eli, I felt kind of selfish today.

"What happened to you and Viktor?" Mike asked worriedly patting my back, I stare at him dreary, I feel like I will tear up again, I heave a sigh and hold onto my forehead to at least stopped me from crying

"Mike...Viktor won't let me inside anymore...I tried my best...I really do...I confessed how I feel, It didn't work...I--"

"Stop right there, Nort!" Mike leaned back and pinched my cheeks very hard,"I can't believe you're giving up just like that!"

"But..."

"No buts! Listen to me, Nort! Dont make the same stupid mistake ever again, Viktor loves you or at least believe he still do! Viktor admitted that he loves you so much, I've confirmed it myself" Mike lets my face go and continued,"I've heard his confession to you went bad because you rejected him, right?"

It made me remember how reckless my reply to Viktor's confession and how selfish I want to keep him in my life and stay as friends after that, my regrets are swirling inside of me again

"Yeah..."

"Of course! Viktor will feel pain, confusion and will doubt your words and actions, YOU reject him after all mister but doesn't mean you will give up now!" Mike let out a breath,"Nort, please try this time, believe you two belong together because I believe you two are made for each other"

"I tried..."

"Nuh uh! You're not trying hard enough, Nort! If you are, you wont give up you'll keep pursuing Viktor, you confessed once and that's it!? That's what trying is to you?!" Mike retorded," What happened anyways? How did he reject you?

"I kissed him, told him how I felt and he pushed me away and..."

"And?"

"He kissed me when he saw me crying..."

"Isn't that a sign he still loves you???"

"I don't know..."

"Why would he kiss you then?"

"Comfort me? Pity me? I don't know..."

"Norton Campbell! Don't give me that look! We're all cheering you on! We believe that you and Viktor will be together! Please, believe in yourself, believe in Viktor."

"How Mike? How will I make him believe I love him?"

"Lets see here" Mike placed his finger in his chin,"How about we all help you? Sounds good?"

"I don't know about that" I shook my head in response, I'm not sure if helping me will work in this situation then again do I have a choice? I don't want to lose Viktor forever. I asked Mike,"if ever I will allow you to help me, how can you all help me then?"

"Trust me and trust us, we'll get Viktor to confess to you the second time, Okaaaay? Or if not~ then you be the one to continue confessing alright?~"

"That's not very reassuring, Mike"

"Ugh! Stop being Mr. Gloomy! I don't like that about you, Geez! If you promise not to give up then we'll do everything we can to help you, Capchicé?"

"Fine...You're still persistent as ever, you know that?"

"Well, that's just how I am, Nort!"

"I'm glad you found someone who deserves you. Lucky truly deserves someone like you, I still feel bad for hurting you all these years..."

"Meh, that's all in the past now and besides, Aren't we both blessed?"

"Hm?"

"We both found someone who loves us and be loved in return but in your case, lets go get your Viktor!"

I laughed at Mike and nodded, I'm really happy how my relationship with Mike turned out to be the best ones in my life. Little by little, I'm realizing how blessed I am to have met someone like Viktor, he really did make me whole again and mended my broken relationships with others and make me appreciate the small things in life. Thank you, Viktor.

Okay! Don't give up Campbell!

You can do this, they believe in you, believe in yourself too! I encourage myself.

****

<<SPECIAL>> MIKE

I can't believe that it will come to this. I comforted Norton because of his failed love confession. It's quite refreshing indeed! Norton? Being this vulnerable? Hehehe~ It makes me want to question where was that cool Norton I used to love.

Looking back.. It's been so long since we ended our childish relationship. We we're too young back then. Both 19 and already a professional. Well, we're both special and excel at such a very young age. This gives us a free pass to the adult world.

Our love was full of infatuation and fantasies. Still believing in a true love's kiss. This makes me wanna laugh. We're being too occupied to be the best pair for each other not even knowing this makes our relationship grow toxic.

I grew popular in just a short amount of time, gaining too much influence and money. Well I work my ass out to be the best boyfriend Norton could have ever asked but without me knowing...This just makes him more desperate.

He keeps losing so much time with me while drowning in his work, buttering up with the higher ups just to gain a prominent position that would entitle him to be one of the best employees out there. Climbing that ladder of complicated hierarchy of the company. But this always makes him tired and out of the mood. I keep insisting on him not to push himself so hard. And to give more time to me. I was always insisting on dates. We are still young and we should make the most out of it but he still persists to do his job. Why does it feel like he works like he was running out of time? This behavior just started when my popularity skyrocketed... Does he feel inferior towards me? Does he feel he does not deserve someone like me? Still, I don't know.

Well anyways, at least I keep our friendship after our break up. It still makes me sad that it came to that event. Well we are young and dumb back then.

We're 22 now and much more capable of thinking straight. Maybe we really are not meant for each other. Maybe we just met to make the best out of each other I guess? Well looking now.. Maybe that was really the case. If I haven't met Norton... I might not strive so hard and be in this position today.I will not have realized how blind I am not seeing that Lucky is the only one for me.

He is always there when I am in a slump. Hehe ~ What I mean by always is like.. Literally always ever since we were a child. Haah~ I am too blinded with my own guy preference. But now I'm sure that Lucky is my lucky guy, the right one for me. I've not been giving him as much attention now.. Maybe I should try to smother him with much more love than before~. Hehehe These thoughts made me chuckled under my breath. I might wanna surprise him with a special breakfast in bed tomorrow~

"Mike, I'm really so sorry from before, I might not have told this to you directly but I'm thankful for that relationship we had back then, It made me realize so many things. My ego got me and I'm really sorry, I must have hurted you and now you're here, Comforting me... I don't think I ever deserve you... Even as a friend..."

I was shocked at what Norton just spouted, he really became soft upon having Viktor in his life. A smile formed in my face. "Norty~! That was all in the past! I know I hurt you too! I know I made you feel inferior and I haven't supported you enough with your career. I just want you to be with me always, Sorry for being selfish Nort! We're really too young back then! But I dearly loved you. I swear!"

"Yeah yeah~ I loved you too. I still have regrets but it was all washed away now. Thank you for the comfort Mike." We both chuckled as we admitted our foolish childish mistake. I give a smack boost on his arm to uplift his spirit to pursue Viktor more.

"Since we're all cleared, I wish you the best of Luck! I have my 'Lucky Guy' so get your's too Norty~"

With his pumped chest and head held high, I finally saw the light on his eyes.

Love will make your mind go haywire.

This new Norton in front of me is the real Norton in love...

"Shall we unwind at Wu Chang's? I will call Eli. Call whomever you could invite too." I was shocked that Norton finally asked me to hangout as a friend. I immediately contacted Naib to get to the bar. As I was about to press the contact button to call Lucky,I became hesitant.

Nope.

He might take this the wrong way. I just need to explain everything to him tomorrow so we'll all be clear. I know he is still wary of Norton.

<<SPECIAL>> LUCKY

"Where's Mike, Eli?"

"Oh, he left an hour ago" Eli replied but didn't even make any eye contact, he kept his eyes glue on his PC, he seemed quite busy with all those mountains of paper he had on his desk, probably Martha's doing. Eli did have the tendency to leave everything behind when working. I shook my head at this hopeless son of the CEO

I wonder why Mike would leave without telling me. That's quite worrisome, Is it an emergency? Hopefully, nothing bad happened to him

"Eli, Sorry to bother you again but did Mike tell you where'd he go?" I asked

"Hm? Oh, He's off to see Norton" Eli replied still fixated on his work

Wait what!? Did he just say Norton???

"Why would he go to Norton?" I asked again and this time with a hint of worry and irritation. Control yourself, Lucky. Mike must've a reason.

"Uh..." Eli stopped typing and glided his chair to his side and faced me,"Norton was crying an hour ago because Viktor rejected him and..."

"And?"

"Well, he called me and I was about to fetch him and then Mike insisted on going instead of me."

"Mike insisted?"

"Yea--" Eli stopped his tracks, his eyes widened, he must have noticed I was getting a little bit annoyed by what I'm hearing right now,"I mean, Mike's is just comforting Norton!"

I gritted my teeth. Comfort him!? Eli looked perplexed and he's panicking, he tried to defend Mike again

"What I meant to say was...umm...friendly--yeah! A friendly comfort! Nothing special to--"

"Thanks Eli" I cut Eli off and starts leaving the office.

I'm so irritated right now

Mike why would you ever do that? Why would you always disobey me? Not to mention you left without even telling me, will a simple text to inform me ever hurt you? You're probably scared because I will scold you for being this ludicrous with your decisions

I trusted you, I only want your love in return but to continuously do this to me, hurts me so much. Was my love not enough for you, that you will always run to Norton's side? I thought you would make things right? Forget about your past and move on, I will keep holding your hand and help you but everytime I do, you break me, you make me doubt you, Why do you do this Mike when I love you genuinely...

I...

SNAP

I stopped.

My thoughts stopped

My body felt light for some reason

I cup was finally filled up to the brim

My lips curled up to a twisted smile

I hung my head low and closed my eyes

I cant keep doing this anymore, I can't let Mike do these things anymore

I remember those times I've done nothing but to help you and even if it will hurt me, I will sacrifice just to see you smile. I will let you feel that kind of pain that you made me feel this time and maybe when you know how it feels you will stop. I will show you how much I love you...

~~~~

LUCKY'S FLASHBACK

I remembered being alone most of the time and I was surrounded by books to entertain me because my Mother raised me alone, I never knew my father, I never asked about him either, I was taught to be independent from a very young age, I rarely mingle with the kids my age because I'm busy with household chores and preparing for dinner for my mother.

I love my mom and she loves me alot too. I just pity her sometimes that she goes home very tired and exhausted from a long day at work but seeing her taught me a lot about resilience and hard work, I admire how strong my mother is for raising a child on her own. I want to be strong like her someday and help her too, be someone she can rely on

I was 10 years old when I first met Mike, he was this happy go lucky kid in class, everyone admired him, he got a lot of friends and I often see him with his parents, they are quite supportive of him but I never tried to interact with him because I don't think It was necessary to do so. Until One day, Mike took notice of me.

"Hey there!" Mike greeted me with a big toothy grin in his face

"Hi." I replied simply while taking my shoes out of my locker

"You're Lucky Guy, right?" Mike asked, shifting to my side

"Yeah and Mike Morton, right?" I replied simply again

"Oh! You know me" Mike's eyes twinkle for being acknowledged.

I don't know why is he talking to me, he must have other things to do besides mingling with a loner like me, I walk outside the school premises, he kept following and talking to me as I do, so I continued to talk to him, I don't want to be rude to him when he's being this friendly

"Everybody does actually"

"Ah, I see! Are you going home too?"

"Uh huh and you?"

"I am too! Let's go home together then!"

That's strange, he usually has his parents pick him up. I see his parents everyday outside the gates waiting for him, I looked around the gates they weren't there and his friends too, I got curious so I asked him

"It's okay but aren't you going to hang out with your friends or have your parents pick you up?"

"Actually, I was gonna ask you to come along with us but they told me you don't usually hang out, sooooo~"

"So?"

"Lets hang out!"

"Uh..."

"Don't worry, I asked my parents not to pick me up today! Let's go!"

"Okay"

Mike and I walked home together, he's a very talkative fellow and has lots of stories to tell. I get to know him a little, his family owns this bakery shop where there are lots of sweets served and that he often eats the pastry there because he loves sweets so much especially the one his mother baked, he even gave me a bunch to take home, he's very generous. I shared about my life story too especially my hard working mother, Mike always has this WOW on his face, I just laugh at his weird expression, I'm glad he's not offended and just laugh with me, making more of his stupid faces.

I told him I could cook, do laundry, do our grocery, pay bills, so on and so forth which amazed him a lot, I can tell he doesn't experienced anything like these before, I doubt he even do his own chores for that matter, I told him I can teach him a couple of things I know, he was very excited

"So, your mom works in a call center and she has another job too? She also cooks for you guys and does chores too when she's free, Wow! She's amazing, no wonder she has an amazing son like you!"

"Not really, I'm just average"

"What do you want to do when you grow up, Lucky?"

"Well..."

"You can tell me! I promise, I won't laugh even if I always laugh"

"I don't know"

"You...don't know?"

"Yes"

"That's too bad..."

"I never think about it to be honest, I just want to graduate and get a job that will most likely help my mother with her responsibilities, that's all."

I never know what dreams are for or I don't know what to cherish and treasure in my life. I just want to graduate, work and help my mom. Dreams are unnecessary to me, what we need right now is money. If I can land a good job then I can help her, I make her smile by having good grades. She's a very loving person and she often tell me to enjoy my childhood like other kids but I don't want to, I want to help her and she always gave me that sad smile whenever I tell that to her, She must have felt bad I don't try and act my age because I was fixated in helping her but to be honest she shouldn't feel bad about it, It's my choice anyway.

"Wow..."

"Why wow?"

"YOU'RE SO ADULT LIKE!"

"Maybe"

"What maybe? You soooo are and you're only ten! Wanna hear my dream?"

"Okay, What's your dream, Mike"

"I want to be an actor!"

"Actor?"

"Yes! Like a famous kind of one! I want to go chase bad guys or travel to other places acting! I want to be those actors and actresses I watch!"

"I'm sure you'll achieve it someday, Mike"

"I sure will and if I do I want you to be there for me okay?"

"Sure, Why not."

"Who knows, If you stay with me you might find your dreams someday and something you will treasure too, besides won't it be fun if you're helping your mom while achieving your dreams too? You will see something fulfilling in your life"

I felt a sudden thump in my heart when Mike said that, It's like a trigger to switch something inside of me. I looked at Mike, he just looked at me with that big smile on his face, I knew something changed in me, something about what he said made me question myself, my beliefs. My dreams? Something I will treasure?

What is this foreign feeling?

From that day on, Mike and I were inseparable, we became best friends, we did everything together, we traveled together, we also hung out with each other's family, we study in the same schools as well. I knew that being with Mike made me change for the better. I also worked part time jobs to help my mom and manage to spend my time hanging out with my mom and my new friends. It made my life more colorful, I also see how happy my mom is with the new me, I am too.

It was in High school when I first realized I fell in love with my best friend

High School Graduation day, I confessed to Mike about my feelings and to my dismay he rejected me, he told me he sees me only as his friend and nothing romantic. I respected his feelings, we go back to what we used to be, I don't want to throw our friendship away just because of my confession, so I bottle my feelings instead. Unfortunately, we can't be together for long after our graduation

"What course are you gonna take, Lucky?"

"I honestly don't know."

"That sucks!"

"Yeah, It does. I was thinking to be a lawyer or something"

"Why's that?"

"Well, for starters when you do stupid things I get to defend you for free"

"Heeeeyyyyy!!!!"

"Just kidding"

I slowly adapted Mike's sarcastic remarks and behavior, being his best friend for years now, I think we're starting to be alike. My life sure was fulfilling having honors and all but I still don't know what to do with my life, I sighed staring at my application form.

"Jokes are half meant lucky!"

"Maybe. In any case, what are you pursuing anyways?"

"My parents want me to take culinary"

"Culinary? You can't even cook eggs, why would they let you take that!?"

They probably want Mike to take over their bakery someday but seriously knowing Mike, he would just goof off but it'll be a good opportunity to take that course since he will learn to cook for himself, he can't just let his mom cook for him everyday, he'll be in college soon, he should learn to be independent

"I know! I told them that--AH! Tell that to my mom and dad, Lucky! pretty please~ they treat you like their son more than me!"

"Whatever Mike, you're too laid back that's why they choose for you"

"And you're not?"

"Nope, remember how you always copy my assignment cause you're too lazy to study and you let me be your tutor the entire 4th and 5th year back in high school"

"You don't have to rub salt in my wounds, ya know!"

"All I'm saying is work hard okay? Besides, If you have a hard time I'm always here for you."

"How lucky I am~ having a lucky friend"

"Whatever."

"I will still pursue my dream, to be an actor, Lucky."

"I will support you"

"Thank you for staying by my side!"

If Mike's going to pursue his dream, I wanted to be his pillar, I decided to choose a job that will make me land a job as his Talent coordinator. It's a win-win for me since I can help my mom and Mike with a good paying salary.

****

Time flies so fast, Mike and I studied in different schools but we never lose our communication and often support each other. After finishing our bachelor's degree, I continued with my masteral. Mike continued to pursue his dreams. He is a naturally talented actor and easily accelerated to graduate in the art school fast. Upon having various auditions, he land a job he always dreamed of at Oletus Entertainment. I finished my masters after a year too and live with Mike in the city while I look for a job near his place, when I finally got a job at a small company, I moved out and rented a small apartment, a little bit far from Mike's place since I can't afford the apartments near his place

Mike introduced me to his Talent Manager, Jack, his friend Naib and Naib's Talent Manager, Hastur, We all became good friends in a short span of time

I worked so hard to reach Mike until I was worthy enough to work in his company and got promoted to be his Talent Coordinator. It took for us too ush time to be together again, I'm thankful that my mom taught me a lot about hard work and resilience that I've reached to this point and I decided to confess my feelings for Mike again

"I love you, Mike"

"Lucky..."

I know that look, that's the same look he gave me when he rejected me years ago. I thought things would change since we're both adults now but it never did, So, I just accept the fact that we will never be together and will always be friends. It was strange though Mike looked worried and anxious about about my confession this time like he's keeping something, Until one day I found out why

"Lucky, I want to tell you something"

"What is it? Wait! Don't tell me. If you're going out without a disguise or security, I won't let you, remember last time, Sir Jack got in trouble keeping the media to shut their mouths off because of Naib and your shenanigans, It turned into a scandal"

"No, No, No! that was not a scandal, the media was just mean and it's a new samgyup place too! Naib invited me to go and Ah! That's not it at all!"

"What is it then?"

Mike gave me a shy look on his face. Huh? I keep looking at him confusedly. What's with his expression? He's so weird sometimes, I shook my head waiting for whatever he's gonna share, placing my hand on the table, resting my chin on my hand. The next thing I heard from him, shocked me

"I have a boyfriend"

"What!?"

"I have a boyfriend, Lucky!"

My eyes widened by his declaration, I felt like my insides were getting ripped from inside out. I don't know how to react whether I'll be happy for him or bitter about it. Control yourself Lucky. I scolded myself

"W-whos the guy?"

"He works at Oletus Inc as a research analyst"

"I'm confused, how did you two become together?"

"We meet at a company party and well the rest is history!"

"I don't get it. Are you dating recently?"

"Nah, We're together for 8 months now"

"That long!? Why didn't I know of this!?"

I bombarded him one question after another, I'm so bewildered why did he not tell me any of these, I felt left out. I'm so surprised he knows how to keep secrets from me now, I didn't notice these changes or was I too busy to even notice the subtle hints about his secret relationship. I don't know anymore

"Norton doesn't want to tell everyone about us yet..."

"Norton?"

"Oh, His name is Norton Campbell"

"I see"

"I want you to meet him, is that okay for you?"

"Y-yeah sure..."

"GREAT! You'll like him! Trust me!"

"Uh huh."

I have mixed feelings about this, I felt like the whole world turned upside down but I want to see this guy Mike choose and why did he choose him and not me? I'm way to surprised, I need to recollect my thoughts.

Norton Campbell, huh?

****

It was Saturday evening, Mike invited me to meet Norton at this samgyup place for dinner. Glad, there are few guests tonight otherwise it'll be troublesome for Mike's fan to spot him in these places and make a fuss out of it.

"Nort, This is my childhood best friend, Lucky Guy the one I told you about and Lucky this is my boyfriend, Norton Campbell"

"Nice to meet you, Lucky." Norton extended his hand and I shake his

"Likewise" I replied with formality

Wow, this guy is oozing with confidence. He's very standoffish too, looking at Mike clinging to his arm, side by side, they look so perfect with each other, I watched them while we ate. It's slowly crushing my heart to pieces, no wonder Mike likes this guy, He looks too damn flawless

We talked for hours and Norton's accomplishments amazed me, I feel so little, I compare myself a lot with him and the way Mike looked at Norton so lovingly got me sick to my stomach. What was weird is this guy doesn't look so inlove with Mike or is it just me?

When we bid farewell, Norton insisted on taking us all home which Mike and I politely obliged, We escorted Mike home first and of course what's a relationship without a goodbye kiss. It really hurts like a bitch seeing these two go lovey-dovey in front of me. After bidding Mike goodbye, Norton asked me to sit beside him, there was a dead silence between us while we drove off to my place

Norton broke off our silence by asking me while taking small glances

"I'm glad I finally met you. Mike told me a lot of things about you"

"He did, huh..."

"I apologize, I asked Mike to keep our relationship between us"

"Not at all, I think it's the best decision too"

"Is that so"

Norton sounds so cold with his response for some reason. I'm not sure, I can't read this guy much only speculations about his personality but I shouldn't judge I don't know him yet and besides he's kind enough to pay for our dinner, take us home and now having a conversation with me maybe he's a nice guy after all, he's just intimidating

"Yeah, If the media knew of this it'll spur trouble and we don't want that."

"You are very considerate about him."

"Yeah..."

"It doesn't bother you?"

"Bother me?"

"About Mike and I?"

"I don't understand"

"I've heard from Mike you like him and..."

Wow, Mike sure tells Norton a lot about me. It was quite uncomfortable but I shouldn't show it much. Maybe this guy is just considerate since I'm Mike's best friend, I don't want to make him feel that I'm competing for Mike's affection and attention. I don't want to ruin their relationship, It might make Mike sad.

"Ah, that was in the past I don't care about it anymore. I'd rather keep our friendship don't worry" For some reason, It hurts that I'm lying to myself to say that I don't care but I don't want Norton to doubt Mike

"I see, I'm glad then"

"May I ask a favor, Norton."

"Yes?"

"Treasure Mike, make him happy always"

"You have my word, Lucky"

"Thank you"

With that final conversation it was dead silence again, he took me home and left immediately. For some reason, there's this ringing inside my head, a doubt in Norton's words. Why do I feel something was off? I was so puzzled by my own uneasy feeling, I shook my head to rid of these thoughts in my head

"I should be happy, Mike found a good boyfriend" I mumbled to myself and eventually tell this to myself everyday whenever I see Mike and Norton, to sway my negative feelings away

I was wrong.

I didn't listen to that voice inside my head back then

I never knew Mike was keeping a lot of secrets from me, his conflict with Norton...

Today, we are shooting for one of Mike's commercials today and on our way to the venue, Mike was so odd and was staring off the distance and whenever I asked him what's wrong he will smile and changed the topic so I didn't ask about it anymore, I just thought maybe he's tired, sleepy or nervous. When we arrived he tried his best to smile and greet everyone. I can feel how much he fake his smile, no one notices this but I do, it worries me.

When we finished shooting, I was talking with the staff while taking small glances to check up on Mike's peculiar behavior, I noticed he was staggering in the middle of the room and then he suddenly collapsed, I panicked and ran to his side, fortunately a staff catched him before he hit his head first to the ground.

What's going on with you, Mike!?

It must be over fatigue or stress but i made sure he was eating well and he's doing acrobatics weekly so, why did he collapsed all of a sudden, looking at Mike right now, he looks pale and thinner, I knew something was damn wrong. I took him home after his check up and let him rest in his room.

"Mike, are you not eating well? Sleeping hasn't been good to you? I noticed you lost weight for the past few months, are you stressed or something?"

"Sorry...I was..."

"Mike please take care of yourself, you're giving me a headache. I'm sorry, I didn't ask you how you were and ignore the subtle details about you, You lose weight and you look unhappy, I was so busy and--"

DRIP

"I'm sorry....I'm sorry...."

Tears fell from Mike's face, I was so perplexed. Is he depressed? Most celebrities have mental breakdown when they're overworked. Perhaps Mike's popularity and continuous job is making him this exhausted. I hold onto his shoulders, looking in that beautiful glassy azure eyes of his while wiping his tears his away, I narrowed my view to his level

"Mike, why are you crying?"

"I'm sorry..."

"No, don't be and tell what's wrong? Mike, Please tell me."

"Norton and I haven't been on good terms lately..."

Norton and him? I thought they were doing okay? I've seen Norton deliver bouquets of flowers, he even gave Mike expensive chocolates, I also remember that one giant bear on their monthsary, I don't get it, Is this recently? I mean are they fighting at the moment?

"What do you mean? You guys have been dating for a year and 9 months now"

"Wow...I'm stunned you know..."

"Nevermind that, What's wrong with your relationship?"

"We were happy for the first 5 months then he started changing..."

"Changing how?"

"We barely see each other, we're both busy that's a fact but a simple text or reply he can't even do that. During our monthsary he will cancel out at the last minute because he was busy. We often plan our date ahead of time and then he will leave immediately because of work even if he told me he was on his leave, who the hell does that? He also blames me when he fails at work because I was persistent and annoying him a lot...he said...maybe I was...I'm too clingy...I don't know..."

"Wait wait, so, when I meet that guy and you're already together for 8 months these things happened? Why didn't you tell me, Mike, I would've punch that jerk across his f*cking face"

"That's why I don't want to tell you...I don't want any trouble...I'm sorry..."

"Mike! Break up with that guy, He's not worth your tears!"

"No..."

"Mike!"

"We'll work things out...Thank you for listening, Lucky"

"Mike! Dammit, you can't be this stupid!?"

"I love him...Trust me, We'll work things out, I promise..."

Mike is too damn stubborn but I can't pry too much in their relationship, I will trust him if he says he can work it out and if they don't work it out I will break that guy's face. I sighed exasperatedly, I never expected these to happen, not to Mike at least. I thought he was happy but I was wrong.

I could've made you happy...I wanted to tell you that but I choose not to because it was useless after all

"Fine" I groaned,"If he keeps on doing this and destroys your dreams, I will break his face!"

"Lucky..."

"I'm serious."

Months passed Mike and Norton's relationship never changed or improved, I was so angry that I confronted, barging in his office, It even shocked his secretary, I told Norton that he was being a jerk towards Mike, he was so smug about it and tell me that I shouldn't be a pest in other people's relationship, I was about to punch him that time but I was stopped, he should be thankful Mike came right in time. Norton was as cold as ice and I can't believe Mike actually chose this guy over me. I was at my wits end and asked Mike something stupid

"Be mine, Mike"

"Lucky, you know my answer to that"

"Please Mike, Break up with that Jerk"

"Lucky, I love Norton"

"He doesn't love you!"

"He will..."

"Please stop this nonsense Mike! Can you atleast look at me? I've sacrificed alot for you, I only look at you, I will never hurt you like he does! I just want to see you smile and be given the love you deserve...I love you, Mike!"

For some reason, Mike was shocked by my desperate confession, he looks like his contemplating about what I said to him, I can't control myself anymore, I don't want to see him suffering like this anymore, he lost that smile I love about him and that spark in his eyes all because he ends with that f*cking psychotic jerk. Mike let out a breath and told me to give him sometime and he will reconsider his feelings towards me, I respected his decision and this time, I hoped that he will choose me this time

It didn't take long for Mike to reply to my request and we talked about it once again

"Lucky, if I do break up with Norton I don't want you to be my rebound just because I'm mending my broken heart"

"I don't care if you use me, Mike"

"No! I don't want that!"

"I insist and who knows maybe someday you'll love me back"

"Lucky..."

"I love you, Mike. I'll do it for you"

"........"

"........"

Mike looks so confused and in pain, I'm sure he's desperately looking for an answer himself, I watch him clenching his fist so hard, tugging his hair out of frustration and trying to hold back his tears and with one last heave, he faced me with full of determination in his eyes

"Fine, I will break up with Norton!"

"You will?"

"Yes, I don't want to hurt myself any longer and..." Mike look at me with a gentle expression,"I want to start loving you properly this time"

"Mike..."

"I'll be yours, Lucky" a gently smile formed Mike's lips, I smiled back at him and made a vow

"I promise to love only you, Mike"

This is how our relationship started. I thought it'll be a beautiful one but as time went on, some things never changed and once again I proved myself wrong...

<<SPECIAL>> MIKE

It was Sunday morning and as usual I was making breakfast for both Lucky and I. I browsed through the fridge to cook something good to eat. Lucky always buys lots of groceries and most of them are veggies. Yuck but I can't help it. This is Lucky were talking about being so stubborn with nutrition.

Ugh

Sometimes I wish he would just fancy sweets as much as I do. I was preparing the usual sausage, egg, beans and bread for breakfast. Should I put these potatoes and tomatoes? I really don't wanna but I have to, I don't want to get scolded by being too picky, I scratched my head.

"Lucky loves black coffee" I mumbled to myself, smelling that sweet freshly brewed coffee. I was preparing a lot and noticed Lucky was already awake, I turn up to him with a bright smile on my face

"Good morning!" I greeted him happily, he rubs his eyes and stared at me with a blank expression on his face and just continued walking towards the kitchen

That's odd.

Lucky usually smiles at me no matter how sleepy he is. The shoot must have exhausted him a lot this week, he's always working hard for my sake, I pity my lover. I watch as Lucky sat down and took out his phone to read the news

Now that's VERY odd

I usually get a morning kiss from him whenever he enters the kitchen or sees me awake. I placed his breakfast in front of him and sat down across the table, he didn't even try and look at me. He even woke up early. Breakfast in bed surprise is now busted. Hmp!What now? Did I do something wrong? I've never seen this kind of Lucky before, I must have done something bad, he never acts like this towards me, It's like he's giving me a cold treatment. I took his hand that he placed on the table

"Lucky?"

He's not looking at me...

"Hey..."

Ignored again...

"Hey, Lucky, what's the matter? Did I do something wrong?" I frowned, gripping his hand tightly and waited for him to answer while having my eyes fixed on him. Say something please

Lucky sighed irritably,"Nothing. Just busy."

Busy? He never ever says that to me or even if he does he always has time to acknowledge my presence. I felt scared, I might have really done something to disappoint him a lot this time, I took hold both of his hand

"Please, tell me, Did I do something that hurt you? let me explain or let me make it up to you" I begged him, he sighed again and put his phone down to look at me

Empty

His eyes are empty. That's it, I've really done something awful, I would have never ever expected Lucky to have these kind of eyes before, tears are threatening to fall, I bit my lower lip to hold them back

"I'm sorry Lucky If I've done something to hurt you, to make you do this to me. It must have been bad this time, I'm always here for you--"

"For me?"

I was taken aback by his reply. Why did he question that?

"Yes..."

"Ah..."

What's with his reactions? He sounds so apathetic. I tried to remember what I did wrong then I recalled when I left Eli's office, ran to Norton and comforted him maybe that's why Lucky's mad right now, I wanted to confirm so I asked

"Is this about the last time when I left Eli's office..." I swallowed hard, I know how much Lucky hated to hear Norton's name,"...and...g-go to Norton?" I stammered

"Hm?"

"When I left Oletus and meet Norton, I swear! We didn't do anything at all! We just--"

Lucky slapped my hand away, he looked very angry right now. I see, so that's the reason, I didn't give up and continued to explain to him

"Please Lucky, we didn't do anything! I was just encouraging Norton to pursue Viktor cause--"

"Can't he do THAT to himself? Pursue viktor? Why does he need you to go and comfort him?" Lucky cut me off, his tone was so cruel. I still need to try and explain, I don't want us to fight over this

"Yes he can but he was devastated that Viktor rejected him and--"

"So, You go and comfort another man, Mike" He cut me off again

"No..."

"What else did you do, Mike? besides comforting norton? Did you hug him?"

"I..."

"You do, huh?"

"I did...but it was a friendly hug..."

"Yes, Of course. It was a friendly hug."

"Lucky..."

"What else? Did you kiss him too?"

"NO! I would never!"

"And?"

"And...?"

"What else, Mike?"

I was bursting with anger and sadness he's not giving me time to explain and throwing assumptions about what happened, I know what I did was wrong to run off to where Norton was but we didn't do anything wrong, I know Lucky was hurt that's why I'm openly explaining it to him, I can't believe he's doubting me like this not to mention he's being callous about it. UGH! I don't know anymore

"Why won't you believe me!?"

"Is a simple text or call, would kill you Mike?"

"What?"

"That you have to tell Eli that you go lovey-dovey with Norton? I'm not stupid Mike"

"I'm sorry! I'm sorry, okay!"

"You promised Mike! So, many promises were broken and your excuses too--ugh--I'm starting to doubt if you really love me cause I feel so damn stupid for loving you!"

"Believe me, Lucky! I really do love you..."

"I don't know anymore, Mike"

"Please, listen to me..."

Lucky sighed.

"Are you going to break up with me? Please, let's work this out, there must be some way we can"

"Yes there is..."

"There is? If there is! I'll do anything! Just--"

GRAB

Lucky grabbed my wrist tightly

"Come with me"

Lucky dragged me inside our room, he's hurting me. He threw me to the bed, making me drop on my back, with him topping me, I was so scared so I shut my eyes hard, preparing whatever bad will happen to me

"Mi...mike why...."

When I heard Lucky's voice cracking, I slowly opened my eyes, his eyes are moisting, he's gritting his teeth so hard, his fist clenching to the sheets. I saw his pained expression

I really hurt him, broke him, made him mistrust me a lot this time. I know I always ask of him, he must have been bottling all of these doubts inside of him for so long. I was stupid, I hurt the person I love the most, Lucky loved me with all his heart and I constantly break our promise to the point it broke his heart with all these stupid decisions I'm making

I hate myself

Without delay, Lucky strip all of my clothes, I watched him while he do what he wants with me, I am terrified but I deserve this and If it will ease his pain so be it

"I'll show you... you belong to me..."

Lucky kissed me abruptly, It was not the gentle and loving kiss I know, It was rough, full of sadness and pain, he's devouring me, biting my lips and twisting his tongue inside my mouth, I gasped between our kisses, he's not even giving me enough room to breathe between our kisses, I broke off our kiss, I couldn't breathe anymore

"Hah....."

Lucky wasn't still satisfied, he went straight for my neck, biting my flesh as I dug my nails deep in his skin. It was so painful, he keeps on licking and sucking my neck so hard

"Nghh....ah... that hurts....!" I cried and squirming from his grasp, Lucky didn't listen to my plea at all, I was about to push him away when he immediately pinned both of my hands up

"Don't try to struggle, Mike..." Lucky commanded, he grabbed both of my wrist and get the nearest sheet to tie my hands tightly

It gave me shivers to my spine. He really had no intention to listen to me at all

After tying me up, he travelled all the way to my chest with his tongue sucking and bitting my niples, perking it up and leaving crimson marks on my chest, I kept on squirming from the pain, he's acting like a predator slowly devouring his prey, I kept groaning, reacting to every pain I received from him. I tried to endure the mixture of agony and pleasure I'm receiving from him, Lucky's suffering must have been more painful if he's hurting me like this, he's crying himself while torturing me, I can feel his warm tears whenever he contact my skin

"I can't wait anymore..."

Lucky declared, spreading my legs apart. He took the lubricant by the head board and covered three of his fingers. I braced myself for what's going to happen next, biting my lips so hard. This is gonna hurt me.

"Ah....ngh.....mhm.....!"

Three of his digits entered me in one go, It felt like pain and pleasure surging inside of me, I was panting uncontrollably, he's stretching me a lot from the inside, pushing his fingers deeper in my hole, preparing me for what's gonna enter me afterwards, I look down to see Lucky, he didn't dare look at me at all, he must not want to see me crying and begging for him to stop

After the preparation he removed his fingers and licked it, positioning himself in front of my entrance, he generously coated his length, spreading my legs apart and without a warning he thrust inside me, It made my whole body flinched

"Ah....pl....please....ahh...."

A moan escaped my mouth, Lucky inserted his whole length inside of me, going deeper. I bit my lower lip so hard that it bleed from the pressure, he grabbed my hips hard and groaned

"Ngh....you're still so tight....ah..."

His slow thrust increased in pace until he slammed himself abruptly inside me

So rough, it hurts.

He kept on ramming my insides hitting my prostate, letting my moans and breathing hoarse in unison. He was so hard, getting deeper and faster, I can't identify if its pleasure or pain anymore

I tried my best to talk between my gruff breath and tears, I arched my back and looked at Lucky. I saw him writhing in pain while he was putting pressure on me with every thrust, hearing me cry must have been torturing him too, I realized he really didn't want to do this at all, he never intended to hurt me like this, he was hurting himself too and he was so engulfed by his rage and jealousy.

I felt a heavy feeling inside my chest. I should have told him how I feel, I should have shown him the love he deserve, I should have listened to him. I regret it all

"I'm....hah.....I...."

I kept my gaze on him while being thrusted violently like this. I know I deserve this but I have to try and tell him how I feel

"I'm....ahh....I'm sorry.....hah....love you....lucky..."

Let it reach you, Lucky. I love you please don't cry anymore, hurt me all you want, I deserve this pain, I want to suffer with you, I want you to share your loneliness with me, I really do love you, I promised to love you properly this time

Lucky stopped when he heard my confession, he looked at me so much in pain in his eyes and with so much regret, he pulled himself back and released me. I slowly give myself a time to breathe and spoke again

"I...I'm sorry lucky...hah....I'm so sorry I didn't shower you....hah... with my love that made you do this to me... ngh....hah..."

I tried my best to calm my breathing, I have to, I want to tell him these things, my feelings for him for so long,"I've hurt you so many times but you continued to love me genuinely, you never tell me how hurt you were but I know and choose to ignore it because I was selfish. I didnt try to change myself because I was stupid, I was stuck in my past, you kept holding my hand even If I tried to break away from you. I'm so sorry but please Lucky believe me...I love you and I will always love you, I cant live without you..."

I saw the light sparked in Lucky's eyes, he must have been waiting to hear those words for a long time. He immediately untie me and pick me up in his arms hugging me tightly

"I'm sorry Mike! I'm so sorry!! I love you so much yet I hurt you like this... I promised myself I will never do this to you, My anger and jealousy blinded me, I was so scared that I will lose you, I was afraid but that doesn't change the fact that I hurt you...! I'm so sorry..."

Lucky sobbed in my shoulder. I hugged him back tightly, brushing my fingers against his hair, giving him a soft kiss and whispered in his ears

"I love you, Lucky and I forgive you, will you ever forgive me too?"

"Y...yes...Im sorry....Mike, I love you"

"We both forgive each other already, it's okay now..." I leaned back and pinched Lucky's cheeks and give him a quick kiss on his lips

"Okay." he nodded wiping his tears like a kid

"Good boy, Now stop crying geez! It's not like we've never done these things before"

"Huh?"

"Remember last time we tried role playing this BDSM thing!"

Lucky raised a brow on me and shook his head,"That wasn't rough, Mike"

"I know right! I told you not to hold back! You were still soft, It's annoying sometimes"

"Because you were crying, We haven't even started yet, I just tie you up and you started begging to be gentle"

I can't believe he remembered that, my face flushed with those details Lucky is mentioned. It's true though I was a little scared because It might hurt a lot, then again it might be fun and a new experience, So, I thought we should try and in the end I feel like backing out that time

"I was ACTING Lucky!"

"That wasn't acting at all, Mike" Lucky rolled his eyes

"I'm an actor Lucky, you can't tell if I'm for realsies or not!" I stick out my tongue

"Whatever Mike"

"Seeee, You agreeeeee~~"

We both laugh at our usual playful banter, Lucky gave me a playful tap on my nose, I smiled in return

"In any case, want to continue?" Lucky suggested with a teasing smirk plastered on his face, raising his brow up and down

"Seriously!? This early morning!?" I retorted, we haven't eaten breakfast yet and I even place it at the table, it must be cold by this time now

"You dont wanna? I bet you wanna cum already"

"I...."

SERIOUSLY?! Why do he talk so dirty like this, I mean he always do whenever we do it and it's kind of arousing to hear BUT it's still weird to hear, I'm confused, My mind tells me it's weird but my body ain't cooperating

"You're so hard, Mike"

"That's because we're NAKED Lucky, It's cold!"

"Whatever, Come on" Lucky pushed me to the bed,"Let's continue, I'll play rough this time"

"Er...."

"You scared?"

"No!"

"Good, Well let's see how good your acting skills this time~"

"Stop bullying me!"

"I love you Mike"

I giggled, "I love you too, Lucky...so much"

<<SPECIAL>> ELI

Haah~

I don't know where all these jobs are coming from...

Is my father quite busy that he's not able to check these documents beforehand? And this was all urgent businesses that needed quick response.

How is Norton doing? I haven't had any news from Mike about what has happened to him. This is making me a bit anxious. If only I could let Brooke Rose fly from where Norton is to be my eyes to check on how he was, I might already have done it. My mind is thinking something so bizzare! I must be feeling over work right now.

BUZZ

A text from Mike.

Mike: ELI!!!!! We'll be at Wu Chang's. See you there! [Read: 17:14]

Something terrible must have happened...

The twin's premonition.

AAAAAHHH!!!!

So he was rejected by Viktor.

Bro...

I quickly finish other documents that are needed for approval. I already sorted out other documents that could wait for tomorrow. With that I dashed out my father's office to get to my car and drove it at Wu Chang brother's bar.

<<SPECIAL> AESOP

Viktor came running towards me, his eyes were swelling from crying. I don't know what to do with him but my instinct tells me he needed a confidant right now. Edgar came quickly to our side as he saw me patting Viktor's back.

"Huh? I thought I left Viktor to Campbell?" I was shocked by Edgar's revelation. Did he just say he left the person he is interested in on the arms of another? This made me puzzled. Maybe Norton and Eli just assume everything with Edgar. I sighed.

"I think Viktor needs to rest since other volunteers are already wrapping things up, maybe we could get out early?" I suggested to Edgar since he has the car.

"Well, I know where he lives. We can drop him off to his apartment to rest"

With that, We excuse ourselves and apologize to the whole committee for going early. Emma has this worried look on her face. I must be overthinking something but she might probably know why this has happened to Viktor.

We both brought Viktor to his home, we prepped his bed and offered some warm water for him to be hydrated. Edgar tucked him to his bed where upon closing his eyes, he instantly fell asleep. I felt this sadness welling inside me looking at him. What could have happened to Viktor that made him in that sorry state?

Edgar and I slipped quietly out of Victor's apartment and locked the door behind us. I think we're forgetting something.

Hmmm...

Well, if we forgot something it could be brought back tomorrow. I quickly contact Norton to let him know about Viktor and assure him that he is already resting.

Norton: Thank you very much Aesop and please thank Edgar for me too. [Read 18:30]

With that, Edgar and I had this silent trip back to the office to time out.

-NORTON-

Here we go again. Wu Chang brother's bar. Why is everything these two said actually happened.I let out a pained laugh while opening that iconic bar door.

"Welcome Norton! And who might this be? Is this Viktor?" Fan greeted me.

"Hello there~ I'm Mike! Norton's friend!"

Ah~

The twins look at each other puzzled as to why my ex lover was together with me.

"Nice to meet you, Mike." Xie gave a curtly nod at him.

"By the way~ have you seen my other friend? He is a short brunette with olive eyes and.." Mike is jumpy while explaining what Naib looks like.

"Who are you calling short!" Naib interjected.

"Teehee~ don't bother! He's here~" Mike winked at the twins and excitedly ran towards Naib

"Gentlemen, take a seat will you?" Fan offered the usual spot near his bartender's counter and offered some drinks.

"Sorry Fan, I won't drink today but you can offer these two, It's on me." I said to Fan. I really don't feel like drinking today, I'm in too much of a slump to take on something even if it's my favourite, Dovlin

"BROOO!"

F*cking finally, Eli!

He's been busy for quite some time that I'm the one being bothered by it. He quickly took the seat near me and grabbing my face, making me look at him

"I'm sooooo sorry for your loss!" The f*ck Eli! I swatted his arms out of annoyance

"Wait! What? Who died Norton!? Oh sh*t! I'm so sorry...My deepest condolences." Naib had this sad look on his face.

Ugh...

"I think you need a church and not a bar for that thing gentlemen." Fan snorted. "Let me guess, You've been rejected right?"

"My deepest condolences." Xie is already praying over for me.

These. Twins. Really.

"Well, I think it is not the end of the road yet...I thank Mike for knocking some senses to me." Hm? What is with this atmosphere? Are they really that shocked to see me be so positive?

"So, what happened?" Eli quickly inquired, as usual I have the rundown of events on what happened on the orphanage and they have this shocked look on their faces

"That...was puzzling...really..." Xie pondered with his thoughts.

"One thing is for sure, he still loves you though" Fan assured me. Fan and Mike's assurance somewhat gives me a boost.

"But he does not want to get it on with you." Xie connected. Damn. The pattern of these two. Always crushing my hopes up, grinding it to the ground

"Well~ you brave it out! Confessed with kisses and what nots. Maybe you should give him time? He still kissed you! That's a sign of returned affection!" Naib also joined the team of love gurus.

"Norty~ Naib's right, we have experience with these matters and might add some little tips right~?" Mike winked at Naib. He blushed.

Oh

Lucky him to finally get it on with Jack.

"Well, he might have a battle within himself that he really wants to sort out first?" Eli pondered,"As you have said, he has this trauma that he can't get over with. Poor Viktor..."

"But listen here Norton. Don't leave him be." Fan warned.

"Fan is right, this is the time where he needed someone the most and as you have said, your name was the one he called out for help according to that Edgar guy right?" Xie bore stares to my eyes while explaining these things with me. I nodded briskly.

"Good boy!" The twins patted my head.

Eh? The f*ck?!

I swatted their hands and they laughed at me. They really are treating me like a kid now. The other guys just laugh at me too.

"As Mike has offered, we'll do our best to help out okay?" Eli looked at me with that toothy grin on his face. "We won't let your love go down the drain~ we will help you get your baby back" I smiled at Eli's offer but got goosebumps on that 'baby' thing.

How cringy Eli could be?

I'm pitying Aesop as early as now if ever Eli's love would be reciprocated. He'll have this ultra sweet and cringy boyfriend. I'm getting goosebumps.

BUZZ

Eli's phone rang.

After getting that call.

Oh?

He looked...Panicked?

What could have happened?

"Eli, what's the matter? You suddenly look pale" Mike inquired.

"Eh...? Uhm guys I need to go... This is urgent, let's hangout again sometime!" With that, Eli dashed outside the bar. This made me worried about him a little. Well I will get to know about it soon.

BUZZ

My phone now rang. What is happening? Oh. It's Aesop. I immediately took the call. Mike and the others insist I go speaker mode.

Well this is Aesop so nothing really would be a problem right?

Aesop: Uhmm, Norton. We have a problem.

Wow.

I talked too early, his tone gave me anxiety. What could have happened. Is it about Viktor or is this related to why Eli needed to leave immediately? My mind is going overdrive as I await what Aesop's next statement is.

Aesop: Viktor's dog.. Was left behind at the office.

Eh!?

Aesop: Edgar already left and I can't get to Viktor's apartment. Someone is waiting for me at home and pets are not allowed in my unit. We can't let him be in the office right?

"Stay where you are Aesop, I will take the dog in my custody"

I hear a snort come out from Xie and Fan's mouth

"Oh dear~ Their child is currently experiencing household difficulties, now he will stay with Papa." Xie said while holding his laughter. I rolled my eyes at them.

"Ha. Ha. Ha. Funny Xie"

"Poor child, he is too young to experience being trapped with his Mama and Papa's conflict" Fan keeps swinging his head to act dismayed." I shot eye daggers at them. Mike and Naib are just there holding out their laughter.

"AHH! What the heck?! Stop that!" I retorted

"What are you waiting for! Grab your child. He's waiting" Fan shooed me away

Ugh!

I immediately grabbed my valuables and proceeded at Oletus Inc to retrieve Wick.

As soon as this little dog saw me, he wagged his tail happily, I carried him in my arms and took him to my home,"You made everyone worried, you little trouble maker." I ruffled his soft fur,"Viktor will miss you..."

Wick whimpered sadly. This dog sure is smart and can sense sadness in someone, pretty much like Viktor. I sighed, I set him down and prepared a comfy cushion for him to rest. All of a sudden I feel woozy. My head hurts, I took hold of my forehead, I feel a heat rising up. Why haven't I noticed it? I think I caught a cold, my throat is dry and my eyes felt really heavy. I just need some good rest, I got too exhausted today. I just hope this cold will go away tomorrow. I have lots of things to worry about.

Viktor and Eli, hang in there...I really hope nothing bad will happen...

END OF CHAPTER