06.21.16

dear jaehyun,

i guess these letters are a catharsis for me. it's good to spill my feelings in a nontoxic environment.

i wish i'd debuted with a group. maybe i'd have more support but i'm alone and it's terrifying to be in my head sometimes.

on a brighter note, i am underweight! finally, i can be pretty too instead of fat. i can't pinch my stomach anymore and i can see my ribs in the mirror.

it's good to be skinny at last. i don't eat a lot, or really anything, and i know it's not healthy, but at the same time, i'm finally skinny.

i won't get hate anymore.

and besides, makeup can cover the hollow cheeks and dark circles. they have for years upon end, why change now?

i wish someone would see me for who i am.

you did that. you liked me enough to become my friend.

for that, yoonoh, i will always love you.

☾