I know, Lord, I have not done this in a while. Forgive me for not sharing the good news, but I will do that today.

The Lord our God is so good, and when we finally allow ourselves to submit to him and stop trying to do things in our own power, the things he will do for us are just nothing short of miraculous.

There have been highs and lows over the last eleven months since I started this journal. I have stumbled, fallen, and railed, and the Holy Spirit had to drag me up out of the darkness countless times.

There were days I couldn't see one step forward and couldn't image the path that was meant for me, but the outlines of it were always there.

There were days I threw my toys out of the cot. There were days I sobbed in gratitude, but through it all, even the days when I turned a cold shoulder to the light in me, Jesus did not let go of my hand for a second.

God hears us when we open ourselves up to Him and truly let Him in. He knows what hides in the shadowed recesses, and he shines a light even there to drive out the dark.

If not for God and the way that He chooses to do things for my good and His glory so I cannot boast of it, I have no idea where I would have ended up.

For six months, every month, God somehow ensured that I had the money for rent, sometimes even through the kindness of old friends of my dad. Every day, he provided what I needed and more than I needed through his grace.

I learned to stop fighting him on everything and try to do things in my own power and wisdom.

He provided me with a roof over my head last month when I had nothing left but three hundred rands in my wallet. He provided me with enough to make sure I had what I needed every day, even electricity, water, and internet, so that I could work on my books, and He still does. Praise the Lord.

God made it possible to publish The Ugly Duckling on Amazon and even provided everything I asked for in that regard in a prayer in 2020. Even the last bit I leave in his hands in faith. God also made it possible for me to re-publish Wolfborn as a series of books. Even now, He makes it possible for me to work on them.

Everything from my editing programs to small things I need, he provided and he still provides. It is so amazing to see His hand move in my life and to see how far in the past he provided the people, opportunities, and things I need now to be the Christian, author, and person he intended for me to be.

I still make mistakes and fall short, but now I know he loves me enough to forgive me and cares enough to help me overcome, not by my strength but by His.

Some days are still tough, and I struggle, but when I do, I now start to realize that when things feel like they are going wrong and I am being cornered, I need to reevaluate and measure if I am struggling because something is hard or because I am trying to do things on my own without help from God.

Am I trying to do things according to my will or that of God? Sometimes when things get tough though, when the enemy tries to trip you up in such a targeted way, you may just be doing exactly the right thing. Just pray, ask for God's will and submit your will to his, and keep going.

If you let God do things, He will. His way, and always for your good and His glory.

God told me to share my good news, so I am sharing. I have a home, I am healthy, I am fed, I am looked after, I am a child of the living God, I am doing what he created me to do, and I am learning to listen and also to hear. I was never a good listener, and I talk too much, but I am learning. As Paul said, I am not yet all that I can be, but I am much more than I was, and with God at my side, I am able to do all things.

I am still praying for a way to earn income streams, but I know God has that covered, His way, His timing, and His Glory. Praise the lord.

Today, I have enough and more than enough, and I leave tomorrow in your hands, Father. Thank you, Jesus!