september 12, 2012

dear adam,

sometimes I wonder what life would have looked like without you.

how I would have survived college with just the few pretentious friends I made, living paycheck to paycheck to spend what little money I had at the end of each month.

college was hard on me—you know this, you were there—but I cherished the moments we shared in between classes,

all those late nights in the library,

holding your hand underneath the table to escape prying eyes.

without you, I wouldn't have finished that midterm paper junior year. we were the last ones in the library at 3 am, but even in an utter state of delirium, you helped me piece together my final page.

i passed the class because of you.

you were always there for me when I needed you—except for now.

now that I need you most.