To my certain someone,

Today, my dad came to visit me.

The moment he found out I had the flu recently, he started scolding me, saying I should have been more careful with my health. I could tell he was worried, but the way he expressed it felt overwhelming.

I didn’t say much during his visit, choosing to stay quiet instead of engaging too much. 

To be honest, I didn’t feel comforted by his presence. If anything, I felt more uncomfortable than reassured. It’s strange how even when someone cares, their way of showing it can leave you feeling so unsettled.

Maybe I’m just not in the right headspace to appreciate it right now. 

I can’t stop thinking about how different things would feel if you were here, Ge.

You’ve always known how to calm me down and make things better with just a few words... or even just your presence.

I miss you so much.

Sometimes it feels like this distance between us is unbearable.

I wish I could hear your voice or feel your reassuring hug right now. If only you were here to make everything feel less heavy.