Dear Aden,

Its getting worse. The depression. I can feel myself slipping. And I don't want to..... But I also don't know if I want to stop it. I stopped breathing again today. My lungs are just sucking at doing g their job. I mean I'm fine now, but it was scary. I'm not going to lie....I was terrified. But again, I'm fine now. I just wish you were here, I may be selfish for saying this.... But it would be easier in a way, if you were here. And I keep thinking, what if it was me first.... What if you were still here,what would you be like, what would you do or say. I wish I knew, I wish it had been me.....

As always, to the moon and back,
I love you,
N.G