I'll be honest. For a long time I held anger and resentment against you. For the lies, for pretending to give a damn about being friends. Maybe the late night thoughts are getting to me. I don't even know if you will ever see this or if the memories ever just cross your mind sometimes. I read the letter you wrote for him in anger for a long time. Partially because you were basically telling him to leave me for you because you loved him still and were in a better place for a relationship. But I think another part of it was because I thought I was a fool for ever thinking you really wanted to be my friend. But then again, we had probably passed the possibility of being friends a long time ago. 

I don't know if you guys still talk, you probably do and you probably know everything already. We broke up the last few months of senior year. As much as I hate to say it, you were right about it being toxic. Not from him. It was my fault really, looking back, I was being dumb and didn't realize until looking back that I was a pretty bad girlfriend and had too many problems that I let them fester. I wasn't mature enough really for a relationship, took me a while. I think I'm in a somewhat better headspace now, but I don't know. Probably better to hold off relationships a bit more. He has a girlfriend now too. They've been dating for a while now. I think they're happy so that's good. 

I guess I kind of decided to write this to just say that, I don't really hate you that much anymore. I mean when the memories come or if you ever cross my mind I still get a sour taste in my mouth. I feel frustration and annoyance creeping in, but when I read your letter for him I don't get the burning anger I once did anymore. So, I guess I kind of started to let it go. It's still there, but not as noticeable or as aggravating. So, goodbye.