welcome

so, you may be thinking, where is a not at all structured rant or where is you chaotically making random sims

well you see

i do not have any content for you, just a little update

i'm really sorry about not updating for a week

now i know you may be like gabby if you don't stfu and calm down—

i get that, i agree, however imma have to say no

not because not updating in a week is a bad thing, it's not. it's actually difficult for a lot of people

it's just odd for me

allow me to tell you my thought process regarding this

usually, i update two maybe three times a week, only updating once when i'm busy and once every two weeks during testing or mental health crisis

or i was grounded, that happened twice.

no matter the cause, i can usually give you a reason as to why i didn't update

for example, i didn't update for two weeks recently because i was out of state

i felt bad and then updating literally every fic i had within four days

and then i updated soulmates, like, three days later. with a LONG update

and i was burnt out for the next two days

and then i got inspired again but i had school (the magic of your school requiring everyone to take an online course to graduate)

and then my mental health decided to crash more the crypto (will never not be happy about that)

and then my mental health got better

and then the supreme court of fucking clowns decided to say fuck you to women and also fuck you to the privacy law that allowed gay marriage (i'm gay) and interracial marriage (my parents are in an interracial marriage, and i am thus mixed)

so then my mental health crash again!

and then, just yesterday i got a cool ring, and things were looking up the only problem is that my allergies were acting up

and i'm like, you know what? let's write tomorrow morning, when you're feeling better!

hahahaha

guess what guys

no no, guess what happened?

i bet you can't

IM FUCKING SICK AND IM SO FUCKING CONGESTED AND MY THROAT HURTS AND IM COUGHING AND IT S U C K S

anyway, the medication i'm taking makes me drowsy and i found that u feel better after sleeping anyway

so i spent a long time during the day sleeping, and when i'm not i need to get comfort without draining myself.

normally i would write. i love writing. but that does take a lot of energy because i'm a perfectionist

so i'm either watching glee, or reading fanfic

actually i was scrolling through the solangelo tag in AO3, and i saw an arranged marriage fic.

i've actually never read one, but the blurb seemed interesting

and this author made a link to the world building list because they went "overboard"

when i tell you i had to pause and write this note because i knew i would not be able to stop reading this fic—

i will link it in the comments

it's so cool, and they seemed so sorry about it and i'm fucking giddy

because like

THATS SOMETHING I WOULD DO

that's actually the reason i've never written a fantasy fic because i know i would get so into the world building

anyway, i'm gonna leave you now and read that fic and will probably update when i'm feeling a little better or when i start feeling sorry again

love y'all!