omg hi random reader who i've never interacted with before

how are you?

omg love that for you, my life has sucked absolute ass but we ain't here to talk about that

you know what we are here to talk about?

my new greece fic

it has come to my attention that i have not given you any fucking details about what i'm doing with this fic and now you have the pleasure of knowing. and by pleasure of knowing, i mean i need validation instantly or else i will never write this, im a needy bitch.

ok so we already know that we start off with piper and we lay her health on t h i c k

idk how much i've told you but we have
- grief
- depression
- scarring/wounds that never healed fully
- debating on how fast i should add the PSTD aspect because of the timing and also if it qualifies as PTSD or C-PTSD. idk yet. actually i don't think the shelper thing is gonna have this. ignore it
- my tristan mclean propaganda (gotta have the daddy issues)
- obligatory my family is kinda funky
- also guilt. like a lot of it

and for shel we have
- cancer
- staying strong emotionally for everyone she loved whilst actively having cancer
- also wounds that didn't fully heal (she had a sarcoma in her shoulder)
- mom friend. ofc. imagine a world where my shel wasn't a mom friend
- also a five year old brother. he is a mental health problem for her, but she still loves him.

it's all set up and stuff for now—

i'm so sorry my dog just made the fucking weirdest noise, i stopped writing for a whole five minutes trying to figure out what in the sweet name of fuck that was. oh my fucking god ok

idk what i was talking about hang on (i always say that but no time has passed for you)

oh right, it's all set up right now so i'm not going to do a lot with the issues at hand. and even though i have no idea who you are and i've never spoken to you in my life ever, you know the arc i have planned.

so i think from pipers arc i started planning how i wanted the relationship to go, and i had a loooong debate with myself on whether or not i should make this dual POV and i'm so happy i didn't. i feel like it's much better without shel being concerned and mentally unstable all the time. i think the only downsides are less zhade and oreo

anyway, because it's all one POV it does make developing shel a bit harder. with zhade i'm not too worried since her and piper aren't as close and shel and zhade. and because it's one pov getting to know specifics that are important to shel's development is more difficult

for example, i still have yet to introduce the star of this fic, oreo, and idk how to reveal him. i was able to reveal deon (shel's brother) via a post on instagram but i made piper only look at one post from zhade and shel because i don't think she gets scroll paralysis like us. but i also know that i'm really overthinking this.

another thing i hate is how i revealed that shel had cancer but i also think it's so smart. because like shel's big thing is that she hates being defined as something unless she can take advantage of it (it's hard to explain, but think of it as, i will use my cancer for my college essay and to get off the hook from something, but you do not get to categorize me as something) and i had it revealed because someone called her cancer girl

i thought i was a genius and i still think it's cool and shit but the way i wrote it is giving wattpad 12 year old. (i'm 99% sure i showed you this even though idk who you are so i'm not gonna post it again, especially since that would require getting out of my bed to get my computer)

idk once again i overthink everything.

oh and pipers thing is that she wants people to give her space to breathe.

so naturally i wanted their relationship to blossom through a mutual understanding of wanting certain things to not be acknowledged. piper has not mentioned shel's cancer yet, only shel has and at some point i'm gonna give shel a breakdown as she trauma dumps because ofc i will.

and for shel, i plan on them meeting up at shel's house and shel sees pipers scars and it's obvious that she saw them and she just doesn't say anything about it and this is a big shock to piper because shel's kinda pushy when it comes to other people and piper kinda expected some sort of questioning but it was never mentioned

omg hi it's an entirely different day now. i am sick again and i'm tired still but my mom is forcing me to be awake

idk what i was talking about

oh i was walking you through the entire plot of my fic ofc, what else would i be doing? not spoil you? nah never.

anyway piper does something that's kinda gay and she doesn't know how to feel about it and instead of processing her emotions she ignores it

and then a week passes and now piper is slightly aware of the kinda gay thing she did and is starting to realize that she has other kinda gay things that she's done too, most of which in regards to shel

and zhade is the wingwoman of the century and one day shel isn't at school and zhade is like, you know my lesbian best friend shel?? yeah her the most prettiest girl on the planet?? omg if you were gay you'd be sooo cute together, like actually. too bad you're straight. anyway, you want food?

and this sends piper in a frenzy but she tries to play it off (meanwhile zhade is texting shel "LMAO SHE LIKES YOU LETS GOOO" and shel is like "BITCH WHAT DID YOU DO")

actually even though no one would ever see the conversation because it's pipers pov, when i was first planning the fic this was one of the things i wrote to get to know zhade and shel. it's not good because it was never meant to see the light of day, but you can have it

actually before i do, i have to give them fun names. i didn't before because it was just an exercise so allow me to sit here for a solid 45 minutes attempting to figure that one out

okok hi it's been ten minutes
zhade: Ho by Ludacris
shel: had an emo phase
this took me so long to edit omfg—

Ho by Ludacris: LMAO SHE LIKES YOU LETS GOOOO

had an emo phase: BITCH WHAT DID YOU DO

Ho by Ludacris: I WAS THE WINGWOMAN OF THE CENTURY, THATS WHAT I DID

had an emo phase: YOU WERE WHAT

Ho by Ludacris: THE WINGWOMAN OF THE CENTURY

had an emo phase: i finna die because of this

Ho by Ludacris: why tho?? she's so gay for you

had an emo phase: ugh, ew zhade you can't say that, stop the homophobia 🙄

Ho by Ludacris: i will beat yo ass

had an emo phase: LMAO YOU COULD TRY

had an emo phase: and not you tryna be hood "yo ass", bitch shut the fuck up

Ho by Ludacris: actually that was an accident, asshole

Ho by Ludacris: AND WHAT DO YOU MEAN TRY

had an emo phase: I WOULD WIN DUMBASS

Ho by Ludacris: you probably would tbh

Ho by Ludacris: anyway

Ho by Ludacris: piper likes you, you're welcome.

had an emo phase: omfg how do you know

Ho by Ludacris: have i ever been wrong before

had an emo phase: yes

Ho by Ludacris: unfair

had an emo phase: you literally asked??

Ho by Ludacris: i was talking to her and was so smooth and i was telling her that y'all would be so cute together but you're straight lmao your loss and she like thought about it seriously and got all red and said "oh you think so? idk"

had an emo phase: oh

Ho by Ludacris: a thank you would be nice

had an emo phase: no

had an emo phase: that doesn't mean she likes me maybe she was just flustered because who tf says that?? it ain't smooth it's weird

Ho by Ludacris: but she plays with her hair and shit when you're around and she starts blushing a lot and she stares at you and it's painful to watch

had an emo phase: maybe but idk i feel like we might just be projecting. and i don't want to be the one to ask her out and she doesn't like girls or isn't into me

Ho by Ludacris: yeah i know

had an emo phase: it also doesn't help that my brain can't function around her. why is she so pretty

Ho by Ludacris: no because she's actually so hot

had an emo phase: RIGHT?? WHO GAVE HER THE RIGHT TO BE THAT FUCKING BEAUTIFUL

Ho by Ludacris: it's not fair

had an emo phase: it really isn't

Ho by Ludacris: hang on i have two days for you

had an emo phase: ok

Ho by Ludacris: are you free on Diwali

had an emo phase: yeah but that's a whole month away

Ho by Ludacris: yeah it's getting tight and my dad is stressed tryna plan this party

had an emo phase: well i ofc will be going

had an emo phase: i will be stealing your clothes

Ho by Ludacris: ofc ofc i actually have this red set that would look so fucking good on you

Ho by Ludacris: and on saturday can you come to the cookout

had an emo phase: i'll have to ask my dad when he gets home

Ho by Ludacris: tell him i said hi

Ho by Ludacris: hang on i have to actually do school things

had an emo phase: bye pookie 😘

Ho by Ludacris: bye hunny 😘

omg hi i'm back

so now pipers like ok i may be slightly gay, what do i do with that

and then one day piper and shel are chilling and they get attacked so shel is like, and i quote from my planning sheet: OH HELL NAH FUCK THIS SHIT IMMA LIVE PIPER IF YOU DONT SIT YOUR ASS DOWN AND HIDE OR RUN AWAY RIGHT NOW, I KNOW YOU RICH AND FROM LA BUT YOU AINT WHITE SO YOU AINT GONNA SURVIVE BITCH WHERE ARE YOU GOING—

i don't think i've ever seen a better statement in my planning sheets before

then after that they get together and this is all happening alongside pipers arc

and THEN we get to nico and will, idk what pov,
and at this point nico and piper are on speaking terms, so they're chill and everything's kinda going well, since this would be. solid two weeks after the events of tsats

but then drew comes back to camp and is like, man fuck brooklyn. i stayed year round for so long and i leave because i thought this was bad. and then i went to brooklyn, i am so glad to be back

nico what the fuck is that? what are those things? why are they following you? they're cute but also demonic. what is that? (at this point they are, as you can see, best friends)

nico explains everything and the next day a group of kids come in from camp jupiter, one of which cecil, wills best friend

cecil is complaining because they expect hermes kids to fight?? like bitch?? we do espionage! we steal people's shit! we set traps and then laugh at them! and they wouldn't allow them to create their own strategies, which Malcolm said annoyed him.

so everyone is slowly building the community back and after three months almost all the year-rounders had returned and everyone is vibing

leo comes around one day and he brings a nintendo switch complete with a variety of games

the hephaestus cabin has a fuck ton of bunkers that they don't use and leo and nico set up a console and some hermes kids find (read: steal) a PC and a play station and some games and they have this little hole that the older kids control.

we also have set up for alcoholism and stuff with the demeter cabin having secret weed and the hermes cabin getting alcohol and the older kids will meet up and smoke and drink, with two people the designated sobers. i want chb to be the more healthy environment where no one has ever gotten wasted or become super volatile but once people from new rome, who never had a place to unwind (whether the mechanism be healthy or not), come in they start taking extra precautions

and because it can't all be anti cj, we have some middle grade kids from camp jupiter who came to chb via their older greek siblings or some shit and they make fun of the elemtary aged kids because they lack an education and i know that shel, paul, and percy will be big on that aspect

and that's everything i have 100% set in stone and the bad part about my planning being 99% world building is that i don't always plan how to get from point a to point b, which makes actually writing really difficult.

a lot of what i have planned that explains things in detail is setup and based on camp culture and setting up break ups

oh yeah, i'm planning some breakups btw mainly for realism purposes and also as character development.

calypso and leo are breaking up the moment i get hands on a leo pov. you can bet your ass that they will hate each other by the time i'm through

dw it will be mutual, but also calypsos a bitch to leo and also that age gap is so funky but everyone collectively ignores it

and hazel and frank might break up?? idk yet. i want more realistic relationships and the idea that all these kids are high school sweethearts makes sense given the context, but also breaking up makes sense given the context. because hazel especially has a lot of growing up to do and it's difficult to do together. and i think the reason i look at them is because everyone else has shown in some regard that they can make it through that

like percy and annabeth? if they break up love doesn't exist.

shel and piper go through a lot of changes in the fic and both of them come to a lot of realizations about themselves, and i was originally going to have them break up but get back together a few years later, but stopped because after tsats all the grounds changed and after i started to play around more with their characters i deemed the breakup unnecessary.

nico and will... not gonna lie i did genuinely think about breaking them up, unsure if i was planning on getting them back together, but i decided not to because even though they have a lot of growing up to do together, i think they learned a lot in tartarus, which makes me hesitant to break them up, especially since now a lot of the narrative is based on them

if jason were still around, they'd break up too. name one moment of chemistry jason and piper had. exactly, you can't. that shit had no development and it never ceased bothering me

but hazel and frank i feel haven't gotten that same type of development. and i feel weird about it because on one hand, they've shown to have a very healthy relationship despite that weird ass freshman and junior age gap (that would be me dating a freshman... i'm gagging) and i think i need to do more with their characters before i touch them in any way.

they've always been the hardest characters for me to get, mainly because they're well-written characters that aren't snarky or passive aggressive or have dry humor. frank is very chill and sweet until you mention his friends or family, which i can relate to, but i don't relate to his demeanor in any way. hazel has a lot of built up resentment towards her parents and swears a lot, which i relate to, but her demeanor is something i genuinely haven't seen in the people i hang out with

i think that's why i can write piper because she doesn't remind me of myself, she reminds me of my friend with pieces of me. zhade is literally just my best friend. nico is a mix of my friends, aunt, and my emo phase. but at the end of the day, i can see people in them. and i just don't see that with hazel and frank.

literally they remind me of my cousin. he's 5.

and that's the problem because my instinct there is to make sure i don't infantilize these characters because that's all this fan base does. but then i end up making them too wild for who they are.

it's this weird balancing act that i am not used to at all.

like something i've been struggling with is getting them to leave new rome and cj. this is something that needs to happen because it shows how their values have changed and that yes cj is good in its own weird asf way, but at the end of the day chb is better and even though frank and hazel are the praetors, they don't have the power to change the entire system because those who still live there are under the belief that the system is good.

i know that both of these characters are loyal to cj and that new rome is their home. i also know that they want to go to chb and that they would enjoy their lives much more there because hazel has shown time and time again that when she's able to do things on her own she is happier and generally gets more done. LITERALLY LOOK AT EVERYTHING SHE DID ON THE ARGO.

you know how many times people said stupid shit, and hazel ignored it because she thought it was stupid and it ended up being so much better? but because she has so many conflicting emotions regarding whether or not she should or not because unlike annabeth, hazel never had support. she didn't have people telling her that she can do what she wants to. which i think is an important part of her character that is often overlooked.

and it's frustrating that i can understand that but can't write her.

and frank?? man i don't know shit about frank

all i know is that my man is insecure and plays mythomagic. i do not know anything else. which is genuinely my fault, i just can't wrap my head around a lot of his character.

which i guess is the point. he's meant to be the lancer of mars kids. he doesn't fight with brute force and isn't good with so many weapons, he's good with long range combat, away from most of the danger, and using a bow. he's not a cocky asshole that seeks the adrenaline of a fight, he's sweet and considerate on the forefront.

i do think that in toa, he starts to feel more comfortable with himself as a child of mars and begins to be more risky which causes strain in their relationship

oh wait, so then they did go through that phase and they ended up just fine

ok then fuck a break up, high school sweethearts for all. it's fine, it's camp

lmao wow that was a funny pun

it actually wasn't but i'm so tired and instead of sleeping i'm gonna write this 👍

actually never mind this is over 3,000 words and i don't even know what i was originally talking about

ok love yall bye