Magnus got dressed in like 2 minutes and was already on his way to the dance studio trying to think about what to say but his mind was a mess. The only thing he was sure about was that he would fight for Alec and never give up because he promised it. He needed to hear Maryse words to get a grip on himself and figure out what happened to Alec that made him chose such a decision. False hope could maybe hurt really bad but in the end you have the stratification you tried and didn't lose from the start. Magnus heart was beating violently when he stopped his car in front of Alecs dance studio and he could hear the music echoing in the forest. Taking a deep breath Magnus got out of the car walking with heavy steps to the studio and his heart ached when he saw Alec. Alec was sitting on the ground his back pressed against the wall, his knees were pulled up to his chest and he was desperately trying to breath. Magnus run over to him as fast as he could and when Bear saw who it was he immediately backed away from Alec. "Alexander...hey...look at me." Magnus knelt down in front of Alec who snapped his head up when he heard this angelic voice and his heart started to beat even faster. Magnus heart was screaming when it saw the dark bags under Alecs eyes and the fear in his hazel eyes that used to be so happy. Alecs heart was crying out loud as it looked in Magnus beautiful brown eyes he missed so dearly and he wanted nothing more than being in Magnus arms right now but he had to be strong. "Just breath with me...in...and out." Magnus said softly and gently rubbed Alecs knee while Alec took deep breaths calming down after a few more minutes. "Wh...what are you doing here?" Alec choked out his voice shaking and Magnus cracked a weak smile as tears filled his eyes. "I came here to talk." Magnus answered his heart heavy and Alec got slowly up not bearing to be so close to Magnus. With every second he was so close to this amazing man it became harder to resist the temptation. "There is nothing to talk about...I told you everything and I asked you to respect it." Alec answered trying to be strong but he was on the edge of breaking down and Magnus sighed before he got up too. Seeing Alec like this made him even more sure that Alec loved him and that everything he said was a lie. Magnus was ready to fight but he had to get Alec to fight too because if Magnus was the only one fighting it was too much. "I told you I would respect it and I would have done it if it wasn't a total lie. You know just as much as I do that you love me...you love me and what you said was a lie." Magnus looked straight in Alecs eyes seeing how Alec tensed which weirdly relieved Magnus. Alecs heart was beating faster when he heard Magnus not buying his lie and his mind was in a war with his heart once again. His heart was so happy that Magnus wasn't believing him and still fought but his mind knew Magnus deserved better and tried to find knew lies. "You don't know how I feel." Alec tried to stay by his lie which made Magnus angry because after everything they went through wasn't it worth enough to fight? "I maybe don't know but I know that what we had was true love and we could still have it. You just have to talk to me...tell me what made you so hurt and we can fix this...together." Magnus was begging the angels that Alec would give in and realize that there was so much to fight for and Alec gave up in trying to make Magnus believe his lie. "You are right...I love you...I love you so much it scares me. But I'm tired...I tried to fight for you and it worked...for a moment. You deserve so much better, Magnus..." "Alexander..." "No...you asked me to talk so you need to hear me." Alec wanted to be honest with Magnus now because he realized that this was the least thing he could do. Magnus felt like a few pieces of his heart were put back together but this was fare from being over and he slightly nodded.  “You are right...I have so much to fight for and I did but it keeps hunting me down. Whenever I think I'm finally over it it crashes back onto me. I have panick attacks and sometimes I just feel so sad without having a reason. You say you don't mind but do you still think you won't mind in 10 years? Can you really live with a broken man by your side? Can you really live with never being intimate with someone again? I know we came really fare but I might never be ready for the next step. Can you really look in my eyes and tell me that you don't mind that I'm constantly thinking about giving up?" Alec asked with tears filling his eyes and Magnus stood there speechless and he was quiet for too long because for Alec this was an answer. "It's okay...I wouldn't want it too. You deserve to be happy and find someone who gives you back more than you give. You are an amazing man and I'm so thankful that I get to love you but don't waste your time on me. Don't spend worthless time on trying to heal me. Let me go...let me go and find your happiness." Alec added with tears running down his cheeks and placed a last kiss on Magnus lips before he hurried out of the studio leaving Magnus behind once again. Why Magnus didn't followed him? Because he thought the way he love wasn't enough and it wasn't the love Alec deserved. He was sure there was a better love waiting for Alec even it wasn't his who was worth for Alec to fight...//tbc dang still no happy end? Only one person can save the day now. Who do you think is it gonna be? 🤔💜💜💜😭