Hearing sobs leaving Magnus lips was really painful and Alec hated that Magnus was so hurt. He only wanted Magnus to be happy but he knew that wasn't possible and he needed to let his emotions out. Magnus hold onto Alec for dear life afraid he would fall apart if Alec let go of him and he buried his face in Alecs shoulder. "Let it out...I promise you, Mags. It will be alright." Alec said softly rubbing Magnus back comfortingly and even Magnus believed him it made him cry harder. Magnus felt like Jadon just died again and the pain was stining in his heart. Magnus really hated that he cried so bad right now in front of Alec but he was glad he wasn't alone. He was glad that there was someone who held him when he cried and picked up the pieces he broke into. They just stood there for more than 10 minutes and the room was silent expect for the soft cry noises of Magnus. If this had happened before Magnus met Alec and before he fell in love with him Magnus would have run away but now he had someone to stay. Slowly Magnus sobs died and he only sniffled a little but he felt a tiny bit better. Letting his emotions out made him feel better and Alecs presence also helped a lot. Carefully Alec pulled back cupping Magnus face with his hands and looked in Magnus beautiful eyes that still sparkled from the tears. "We will figure this out. You aren't alone...I'm here and we are together in this, okay?" Alec asked gentely whipping Magnus tears with his thumbs and Magnus nodded weakly. Alec moved closer placing a soft kiss on Magnus forehead and Magnus closed his eyes for a second. "Thanks..." Magnus voice was barely a whispered and it sounded quiet raspy. His throat was a little soar from the crying and it had consequences for his voice. "I'll get you a water. Sit down on the couch...I'll be right back." Alec said not wanting that Magnus would worry he wouldn't come back because as soon as he said he would go to the kitchen Magnus hands gripped Alecs shirt tighter. Alec really didn't expect Magnus to act like that and Alec was more than relieved about that. He actually expected Magnus to push him away but Magnus seemed more to want Alec close. "Okay..." Magnus answered after a few seconds slowly letting go of Alecs shirt and Alec hurried to the kitchen. Magnus sat down on the couch and looked at something but his eyes didn't really focus anything. Alec came back with a glass of water and carfully sat down next to Magnus on the couch not wanting to scare him because he looked deep in thoughts. Magnus had to be honest he didn't think that he would really want anyone in the near of him but he wanted to have Alec close to him. He never felt for someone like he felt for Alec and he found the comfort in Alec he craved for right now. "Drink something...it will help your voice." Alec spoke really softly and his voice souned like a beautiful melody in Magnus ears. What really made Magnus feel comfortable with crying in front of Alec was that Alec never showed pitty. Alec never showed any pitty for him and Magnus never wanted anyone to feel pitty for him but Alec showed something. He showed something that Magnus wanted and that was understanding. Alec saw Magnus hands were shaking when he took the glass of water from him and he could also see his lips trembling a little. Magnus almost seemed under shock but what would you expect? Who wouldn't be under shock when their supposed to be dead best friend suddenly stood in front of you telling his whole death was fake. Magnus took a big sip of the water and the water cooled down his throat that was  burned a bit. "Better?" Alec asked with a slight smile and Magnus only nodded trying to return that smile but it didn't reach his eyes. "I'm sorry for pulling you into this mess." Magnus sniffed his voice sounding helpless and Alec didn't hesitate to wrapp his arms around Magnus again. "You don't need to apologize. I love you and your pain is my pain...we share everything. We shouldn't share only happy feelings but also our painfull moments. Don't try to get through it alone when you don't have to." Alec answered placing a kiss on the side of Magnus head and Magnus had to smile weakly. Alec being so caring was really touching and Magnus was so thankful for that. "I'll call Noah and tell him that we won't come tomorrow." Alec said when he rememberd that they were supposed to come to Carters birthday but with Magnus in that state now this was out of the question. "No...we said we will come and I don't want to isolate myself." Magnus answered pulling back from the hug his voice sounding more stable and Alec sighed. "We will see how you feel tomorrow. I don't want you to isolate yourself either but just pushing the pain away won't help." Alec was just worried Magnus would do the same mistake he did. Sure you could push all your pain away but one day this would all break down on you and this wouldn't be pretty. "Thanks, Sunshine." Magnus said with a slight and weak smile that even reached his eyes this time. One thing Magnus didn't forget during the whole day and he was holding on to that. He would never forget Alecs words and he believed him. After a long storm there would always follow peaceful and beautiful times...//tbc I hope you like it even it is sad💙💞💕💞💙💞💕💞