The nightmare gave Magnus a lot to think about and he was more worried than a few hours ago. He thought that Alec was really doing okay but that was just the reminder that there was  still a long way to go and it would be hard. Magnus meant what he said about the sex part and he wanted Alec to know that. He really didn't care about sex because he didn't need that if he had Alec. It was enough what Alec gave him and he didn't have an issue with it but he hoped one day Alec would be over his fear. Magnus held Alec in his arms while Alec was snuggled with his head in Magnus chest breathing in Magnus scent and Magnus gentely caressed Alecs head. Magnus tried to think about something that could have triggered that dream because Alec didn't have one in a view weeks now and he didn't think that one just came out of the blue. "I'm sorry." The weak apology of Alec pulled Magnus out of his thoughts and he looked down seeing that Alec was peaking up at him with guilt in his eyes. "What are you sorry for?" Magnus asked with a light frown and a little sigh escaped Alecs lips. "I should comfort you...not the other way around. My dream is so stupid and I'm just so stupid. I should be over it." Alec answered shaking his head and Magnus hated how low he talked about himself. "You aren't stupid! Don't say that about yourself because it isn't true. Look..." Magnus said softly and lifted Alecs head with two fingers under his chin so he could look in Alecs beautiful eyes that were drowned with sadness at the moment.  "What William did to you isn't something you just get over with an blink of an eye. I also think that you never really processed it and you just started now but that doesn't mean you are stupid. It just shows me how strong you are and that you still fight but that's it, Alexander. You could have given up so long ago but didn't and a part of you will probably always have this scare but you will learn to accept it. Just know that I don't see a future without you and there won't be a day I won't think about you. I love you and I don't love just the perfect part of you even there are so many perfect things about you. I love you with all the mistakes you make and I love you with all the pain you feel because I fell in love with you...the whole you not just one part." Magnus continued his speech while he looked deep in Alecs eyes that got teary again because of Magnus touching words. "I love you too." Alec cried a little and reached up to place a kiss on Magnus lips not knowing what else to say. Magnus could feel the saltiness from Alecs tears through the kiss and he was so glad that William was already dead otherwise he would hunt him down and end his life by himself. "I never told you that probably...but the night I kissed you for the first time I went home and cried. I cried...but not because I was sad or scared...I cried because I was so happy and in that moment I felt hope for the first time in my life again. I felt hope that I can have a normal life again, hope that I can have a boyfriend who can love me and hope that I can love myself again. Thank you so much, Magnus for being my hope." Alec answered with a breaking voice when they pulled back and Magnus smiled with a soft smile at him. Magnus was almost crying too and he couldn't hold back the tiny tear that slipped out of his eye. "It's my pleasure." Magnus said softly and he had to say Alec maybe didn't know it but he gave him his hope back too. Magnus was so caught in his life as an actor and had to admit that he lost himself a bit in all that. He cared so much about what the world expected from him that he didn't realize how his  private life slowly turned to stone but Alec remembered him. Alec remembered him what it was like to do what you want and he remembered him what it was like to love. "You should sleep now...you didn't get much sleep the last few days." Magnus whispered softly caressing Alecs cheek with the back of his hand and Alec blushed a little. The moon shone really brightly inside the room and was the only light they had but it looked so beautiful. "Yes...you are right. I guess the lack of sleep is messing with me like it used to." Alec replied before a little yawn left his lips and a soft frown tugged on Magnus forehead. "What do you mean?" Magnus asked and Alec shifted to lay down on his back staring at the celling. "I used to have nightmares almost every night. If I didn't had one it was only because I didn't sleep but that was wrong. These deep tiredness I always felt wasn't good for my sleep and I ended up having horrible nightmares. Since I have you...I usually sleep well." Alec confessed not looking at Magnus who felt a little guilty because if he wouldn't have pulled Alec into his mess he would have that nightmare now. "I'm sorry." Magnus apoligized and Alec quickly glared that him. "Don't dare to feel guilty. Just hold me and don't let go." Alec answered snuggling back in Magnus body and Magnus wrapped his arms around Alecs body. "I will never let go, my Sunshine." Magnus promised pressing a soft kiss on the top of Alecs head and a slight smile tugged on Alecs lips. What could Alec say? Magnus arms were home...//tbc I hope you like it and I start to really love writing night talks💞❤🙈🙈🙈