"Why are we meeting here again?" Magnus asked as they entered the little house of the big garden that was only a few minutes away from Magnus place. Magnus didn't really get the whole thing why their meeting had to be at this garden but Mark was really mysterious about the meeting. This all made Magnus only more nervous but he was also glad when he knew the truth...more or less. "Because it is a peaceful place and will help to keep the mood calm." Alec answered and slipped his hand in Magnus giving it a little squeez. Magnus had to say that Alec looked pretty exhausted but what should he expect? He and Alec were awake till 5am and only slept till 8am because the meeting was at 9am. Magnus felt bad that Alec didn't get enough sleep but he was also really glad he wasn't alone in these hours. Magnus tried to metally prepare himself for the worst but he still couldn't decide what the worst would be. "Fuck my life..." Magnus said when they reached the little tea table of the small garden and he saw Mark but he wasn't alone. The zookeeper was right next to Mark and that couldn't mean  anything good. Magnus felt how his whole body froze and he stopped to walk making Alec stop to. "Magnus, okay... you need to stay calm...everything is going to be okay." Alec saw the zookeeper from their visit at the zoo and now they had it. They had the truth or well just a little piece of it but they had the most important piece of it. "He...Alexander...that's...please tell me this is a nightmare." Magnus was begging the angels that this wasn't true and he felt how his eyes started to burn. Magnus wasn't sure what he actually wanted but now he made his mind about it. He didn't want Jadon to be alive. He didn't want to have to deal with this betrayal but he couldn't change reality...now could he? Magnus felt a lump in his throat and the air in his lungs got faster in than it came out. Alec grew really worried and he wasn't sure what to do overwhelmed by the truth too he was shocked so he just did the first thing that came to his mind. He wrapped his arms around Magnus hugging him tightly to his body and light sniffles filled the air. Of course Mark and the zookeeper saw that but both decided that Magnus deserved these minutes to catch himself. Magnus whole body started to slightly shake and every vein in his body told him that this wasn't true but how could he deny the truth when it stood right in front of him. "Mags...hei...you need to calm down...I'm sure there is an explanation for this." Alec was really scard and worried about Magnus because he never saw him like this. "He...I don't want that." Magnus voice was cracking  while tears ran down his eyes and Alec could feel how his shirt became wet. "I know...but let's listen to them, okay?" Alec hoped that if Magnus listened to them the explanation would ease the pain a bit. To be honest this was crazy as fuck and Alec thought he would lose his mind but he couldn't show that. He couldn't show Magnus how shocked he was because Magnus needed him to be strong right now and Alec pulled himself together. Magnus was so strong for him so many times and now it was his job to be strong one. "Yes...but don't go." Magnus answered after a few seconds and he inhaled Alecs scent deeply which calmed him down a little. "Hei...I told you. I won't leave your side. We are in this together." Alec said softly and lifted Magnus head with two fingers under his chin. "Thanks." Magnus voice was still painful to hear but it was more steady and Alec gave him a soft smile. With Alec by his side and while taking deep breaths Magnus walked closer to Mark. "YOU FUCKING BASTARD." Magnus yelled at the zookeeper out of nowhere and the pain was replaced with pure anger. "Wowow...calm down Maggi." The zookeeper said and if they weren't sure a few minutes ago now they were 100% sure. Jadon was more alive than he could be. "Don't call me that name! How could you do that to me? How could you lie to me like that? I THOUGH YOU WERE DEAD. FUCKING DEAD!"  Magnus yelled at Jadon and pushed him back but Alec quickly wrapped his arms around him from behind. This was all getting too much for Magnus the anger the pain and the griefe was too much. He felt like the ground under him was pulled away and someone just stabbed him with a knife. "Magnus, you need to listen to me...I didn't do this on my own will..." Jadon wanted to apologize for causing all this mess but Magnus didn't hear him. It sounded like Jadon was under water for Magnus or was he the one who was drowning. Alec had his arms protectively wrapped around Magnus body when he felt how Magnus legs grew weak. "Magnus...you need to take deep breaths...just breath with me." Alec whispered in Magnus ear trying to calm him down but Magnus was too fare and he knew there was no use actually. "Magnus...Magnus." Magnus could hear them calling his name but they sounded so fare away. It felt like he was under water and sunk deeper and deeper until it was completely quiet...//tbc ohh shit. Did the episode kill you just like it killed me? I cried more in these 43 minutes than in the whole last year😭😭💙💙💙💙💙💙