Alecs hands were all over Magnus body while they were making out and their naked bodies were pressed together. "Nah...Magnus..." Alec moaned out and lifted his body up a little when he felt the new tension in his lower tummy. "Shh...I know...it's okay." Magnus answered softly and placed soft kisses all over Alecs face while Alec moaned in pleasure. "I love you." Magnus whispered in Alecs ear tangling their hands together and Alec closed his eyes. "I love you too." Alec choked out not able to talk properly as he felt Magnus pushing inside of him for a second time. "Ahhh..." Alec whimpered holding onto Magnus tightly and Magnus was so careful at first. Alec felt a little uncomfortable when he felt Magnus thrusting harder and Alec pulled back to look at him. "Magnus...stop." Alec almost screamed out in pain and when his opened his eyes he felt a ice cold shiver running down his spine. "Missed me?" The voice was cold and so emotionless like Alec remembered it. Alecs body tensed and fear shot through his body because the person above him wasn't Magnus but William. "No...no." Alec yelled and tried desperately to shake William off him but he wasn't strong enough. "Alexander...Alexander...wake up!" Alec heard the voice even it was quiet and closed his eyes before he ripped them open. Magnus was pulled out of his peacefull sleep when he heard Alec yelping. Alec sat up in shock and looked scared around recognizing it was his bedroom. "Alexander...are you okay." Magnus asked really worried when he saw how pale Alecs face was and Alec let out a relieved breath when he realized it was just a dream. "Yeah...I'm good...it was just a dream." Alec managed to speak even he was breathing in and out a lot faster than he should. Magnus scooted closer to him and carfully laid a hand down on Alecs shoulder making him flinch. Magnus quickly pulled his hand back not wanting to scare Alec away but it hurt him because that didn't happen in a really long time and Alec pulled his knees to his chest only looking out of the window. Alec tried to take deep breaths while trying to get a rid of the dream and his heart beat slowed down a little. "Alexander..." Magnus said softly and this time really carfully laid his hand down on Alecs right knee. It really hurt to see Alec like that and he just wanted to take him in his arms but he didn't knew if Alec wanted that now. Alec looked with teary eyes at Magnus and took the choice Magnus had as he threw himself in Magnus arms. Magnus didn't need a second to wrapp his arms around Alecs body hugging him gently and Alec started to sob in his shoulder. The dream wasn't the only thing that scared Alec but now it also scared him of the future. He was so scared that if he and Magnus would really try to have sex that he wouldn't be able to do that without having flashbacks. He never actually thought about that really but after the dream it really worried him. "It's okay...it was just a dream...just a bad dream." Magnus whispered softly to him while caressing his back and Alec tightened his hold around Magnus. Magnus let Alec just calm down for a few minutes and held him comfortingly. Alec calmed down in Magnus arms and he was so thankful that Magnus was here right now. Alec had to be honest the first part of his dream was quiet arousing but the second was nothing less than a total nightmare. "That's it...deep breaths." Magnus said really softly and placed light kisses on the side of Alecs head. Alec pulled slightly back after a few more minutes and Magnus cupped his face in his hands. Magnus gently whipped Alecs tears from his cheek and placed a really light kiss on his forehead. "You want to talk about it?" Magnus asked with a warm smile trying to encourage Alec but Alec only shook his head. Alec didn't want to tell it but not because he didn't trust Magnus enough since he didn't trusted anyone with his dreams expect for Magnus but this was different. Alec was so ashamed to have dreams like that because Magnus was always so gentle and only showed love towards him. A part in Alec was also scared that Magnus would lose interest in him if he would tell him that he was so scared. Alec wasn't scared Magnus would hurt him because he knew Magnus would never do that but he was worried about the memories and that they would ruin everything. Magnus was a little upset that Alec didn't want to tell him but he didn't want to push him. "You know that I will always listen to you, okay?" Magnus wanted to make sure Alec knew he could tell him when he was ready and Alec felt new tears burning in his eyes. "We...we had...sex...then William...he was suddenly you...and...and I'm just so sca-red, Magnus." Alec chocked out getting interruped by sobs and Magnus was shocked. "Oh Alexander." Magnus sighed lightly and wrapped his arms around his love again. "You don't have to be scared. I told you already that I don't need sex if I have you and if you want to try it we will but we have all time in the world. There is no rush and if you never feel ready than that's it."  Magnus comforted Alec with his words more than Alec thought and Alec nodded hugging him back. He loved Magnus really much and maybe you could call it selfish but he wanted Magnus to stay with him no matter what. "We will be okay...I promise." Magnus added softly caressing the back of Alecs head and Alec couldn't say how thankful he was to be able to call this man his...//tbc sorry for the drama it has to be tho❤💞❤💞❤😢💕