Magnus stood there and felt hurt by Alecs reaction but he should have known better. He should have known that he wouldn't be accepted for who he was even he couldn't change it. Magnus looked with an empty gaze to the wall and tried to fight tears burning in his eyes. "Magnus...hey...Magnus." Max suddenly said and tugged on Magnus pants pulling Magnus out of his thoughts about his past. "Sorry...I need to go." Magnus only said even he know it was rude he walked to the front door and left the house. It went so well and now this happened but it hurt more. Magnus accepted a long time ago that not everyone would be okay with his sexuality so why did it hurt then that Alec didn't accept it? Magnus saw blank fear in Alecs eyes when he told him which made Magnus so confused and fustrated. Did Alec really hate him for who he loved...for who he was? Magnus sat down in his seat and leaned back losing the strenght for holding back his tears. It was like someone ripped his heart out and he had no idea why it hurt so much. He only met Alec and they barely talked so why should he care so much if Alec didn't like him? Maybe the past would always chase after him and people would always find something they didn't like on him. Magnus got used, he got thrown around and played with but for once he thought Alec was different. Alec seemed like he didn't care what people did but maybe this was just a mask. "Damn it Magnus." Magnus cried and punched with his fist against the steering wheel letting the tears fall he tried to fight.
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Alec ran up the stairs in his room shutting the door behind him and crashing down to the ground besides the door. Hot tears ran down his pale cheek falling down on the ground and his breath was getting faster. He knew what he did wasn't okay and he knew he probably hurt Magnus with this reaction but he couldn't handle that. This couldn't be happeing now...with all the people here. Alec pulled his legs to his chest hiding his face in between his knees and chest sobbing quietly. It were moments like these he felt like it was all too much and he couldn't escape this pain he felt in his whole body. The mental pain he felt was so strong that it felt like his whole body was aching causing him to feel dizzy. Why couldn't he just be normal? Why couldn't he just walk around having fun and enjoy the life he had? What did he do to deserve a pain like that? Alec felt so miserable that he just wanted to leave all this. Alec got up and walked to his bathroom almsot crashing back to the ground. His view was blurry because of all the tears filling his eyes and running down his cheeks. He felt cold sweat on his forehead and his legs felt like they were made of jelly causing his walk to be shaky. Why on earth did this happen today? Alec hated how he thought it was getting better but then one thing happened and it totally kicked him out of the line into a deep black hole. Alecs head was aching and his eyes were burning from all the tears he cried in this short time. Alecs breath was so fast he thought he wouldn't get enough air in his lungs causing him to panick even more and making everything worse. Alec reached the bathroom after what felt like hours for him. He gripped the sink tightly and supportrd his shaking body so he didn't fall to the ground. Alec was gasping for air and everything was spinning around him wanting him to throw up. He felt how his legs were slowly giving in and he almost fall down when two arms caught him. He looked at the figure in front of him and saw his sister with a worried face trying to keep him up.
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Izzy was walking to the dog room to see where Alec Magnus and Max were but when she reached the room there was only Max with a sad look. She asked him where Alec was and Max told her he saw him running up the stairs. Izzy decided to look after her big brother and made her way to Alecs room not prepared to see him like that. She walked in his room and heard sobs mixed with gasps causing her to run to the bathroom where the sobs were comming from. Izzy was shocked when she saw how terrible her brother looked and how Alec tried to breath. When she saw how Alec almost collapsed on the ground she quickly caught him with her arms supporting him as good as she could. "Alec...hey...It's me Izzy." Izzy said worridly and helped Alec to sit down slowly on the ground before she kneeled down in front of him. She never saw her brother like that and Alec hated that she saw him like that but he couldn't change it. "Alec...breath. It's okay...I'm here." Izzy started to cry and didn't know what to do because Alecs breath didn't calm down and he gasped more. "Issabell, it's...oh my god, Alec." Robert said when he saw the scene in front of him. Robert rushed to Alec pushing Izzy a little away so he could help Alec to calm down. "Alec. Close your eyes and breath...deep breaths. You know how to breath in 3 seconds and breath out 3 seconds." Robert said calmly and Izzy was watching them tears running down her cheeks. Alec closed his eyes and tried to do what his dad told him feeling a bit relieved that his dad was there now. Izzy watched this horror scene and let out a little sob when she saw that Alec calmed down again. "I..I'm sorry." Alec chocked out shutting his eyes tighter and Robert wrapped his arms around his son. "It's okay. You don't have to apologize." Robert answered and Izzy looked at them feeling confused and scared about what just happened. "Al...Alec...how often did this happen already?" Izzy asked with a shaking voice and Alec pulled back feeling ashamed to break down in front of her. "Once...twice a week." Alec answered pulling back from the hug. Even his break downs happend twice a week sometimes they never were as bad as this one. He never wanted Izzy to see him like that but maybe it was time to be honest. "Izzy...I need to tell you something." Alec mumbled and looked down to the ground tears still falling down his cheeks. He felt exhausted after this rough panick attack but he was used to them and after this Izzy needed to know what happened even Alec never wanted her to know...// ohhh poor Alec. Leave me a comment and what will Magnus do now?😔😔😔😢