Alec sat in his car and his heart was beating out of his chest. He kissed Magnus. He couldn't beleive what he just did and he couldn't describe the feeling inside of him. Alec felt like a thousand fireworks just exploded in him and he couldn't get Magnus eyes out of his head. The kiss was so soft and for a lot of people this didn't mean anything but for Alec it was special. He could still taste Magnus lips on his and he reached with his thumb to his lips touching them. Alec could stay in the car the whole night but not wanting to be a creep he put himself together and started the car. While he drove home he couldn't fight the tears that were filling his eyes from the happiness inside his body. After all these years he thought he would never be able to be close to someone or like someone in that way again he was proved wrong. After all the years Alec felt hopeless and broken it seemed like he finally found the light at the end of a dark tunnel he stuck in for so long. Finally Alec was happy that he didn't gave up already years ago and fought because now this war seemed to have a reason. Still there was a part in Alec that was scared as hell from the feelings he felt right now and the feelings he could have in the future. Would Magnus still want him if he knew what happened to Alec? Would Magnus still want him if he saw the real Alec? Would Magnus still want him if he saw how broken Alec was? These question were eating Alec alive but right now he was too happy about this evening to let them ruin it. But it wasn't only the happiness about the kiss it was also the fact that once it felt like HE wasn't controlling him anymore. "You are late...Oh my...Alec are you okay?" Robert asked worried when Alec came home with glassy eyes. "I'm great...I never felt better." Alec chuckled with his voice full of honesty and when he blinked a few tears escaped his eyes. "Why are you crying then? Are you..." "Really, Dad. These are happy tears...I promies." Alec cut Robert off and usually Alec would be embaressed or thought he was pathetic to cry in front of his dad but he was proud of these tears. "What happened?" Robert askes and Alec whipped his tears with his sleeves away. "We went for a walk with the Dogs. Then we went to have dinner and I brought him...I even kissed him." Alec mumbled feeling his cheeks getting warm and Roberts jaw hung open. Robert couldn't believe what his son just said and also he couldn't really believe how happy he seemed. First he was really worried when Alec came in with teary eyes but then he realized that it were happy tears.  "You...you kissed him?" Robert stuttered a bit and Alec nodded slowly bitting his lower lip. Robert didn't know what to do and was really surprised so  he just went to hug his son tightly. "I am so happy for you, Alec." Robert said and Alec smiled even brighter after these words. He could feel that his dad was really happy and for the first time Alec didn't feel like he ruined their life. "Thank you, Dad...can we maybe talk?" Alec asked hesitantly and Robert pulled back frowning at his son. "Sure. Let's go to the liveingroom." Robert answered with a soft smile and they went to the livingroom to talk. "Do you think Magnus will still want me if I tell him what happened?" Alec blurted out making Robert quiet stunned with his question but Robert knew this would happen...well he hoped Alec would give love another chance. "Alec, I don't know Magnus but he seems like a good guy and if he really likes you he won't care...if he does he is an idiot. What happened to you is the past...he can be happy to have someone as strong as you at his side like and I know he won't change his mind about you. What happened to you isn't who you are...it is maybe a part of you but there is so much more about you and Magnus will think the same." Robert answered after he thought for a few seconds of thinking about this question. He wanted that his son found someone who will make him happy and Magnus seemed like he could be that someone.  "I'm just scared. I don't even know what I feel and I'm already scared that I can lose something that I don't even have yet." Alec confessed and Robert was a bit perplexed that his son told him that because usally he didn't really talk about these things. "It's okay, Alec. You like Magnus and I also know it scares you but you need to know that he isn't HIM. Magnus won't even think about doing the same and maybe it's time to jump in the cold water. All I know is that whoever you will be with in a few years can be so proud to have you because you are such a strong person. You need to leave the past behind you even it sounds mean but you are the only one who is holding you back. Don't be scared...I know this is hard for you but at least try...trust Magnus." Robert said with a soft smile and placed a hand on Alecs shoulder to give it a comforting squeez. "Maybe you are right...yeah. You are right...I will try." Alec answered and for the firts time he went to be bed not afraid of another day of pain or war. Not afraid of having another nightmare. He just went to bed with the satisfaction that today he won against himself...//tbc Robert and Alec talk. Are you ready to discover Alecs secret?🙁🙈❤🙈❤🙈❤🙈❤🙈