Alec was shaking violently and sobs left his mouth making his lips quiver. Magnus was fighting with tears but still a few won and ran down his cheek. He couldn't believe that someone would do that and now Magnus understood why Alec was like that. "Shh...it's over...I promise you." Magnus said after a few seconds and hugged Alec tighter. Magnus mind felt like it would explode and he wanted to kill that William guy for hurting Alec. "I...I just...can't." Alec sobbed and felt like he was there again but he also felt relieved. He felt relieved that someone knew now what eaxctly happened and that Magnus was there. "It's okay...I'm here." Magnus answered and kissed the back of Alecs head trying to calm him down. "Leaving scares that would heal...wasn't enough. He...he cut with a kinfe in my inner thighs leaving scares I would always have." Alec sniffed and was a bit calmer now but he remembered the shame he felt which was still there. Magnus blood was boiling and he wanted to rip the heart out of this guy but he didn't show his anger in front of Alec. Magnus only wanted to comfort Alec even he wasn't sure how but nothing of that changed his mind about Alec. "Alexander...can you look at me?" Magnus asked softly and Alec sat up a little to look in Magnus eyes. Magnus heart ached when he saw Alecs red and puffy eyes but what really hurt was the sadness in the hazel eyes. "I don't know how you feel...or what is like to go through this but I want to be with you. Nothing you said changed my mind because you are still you and that's who I want." Magnus said taking Alecs hand and Alec smiled weakly at him. "But...I'm used...I'm dirty. You should be disgusted by me...hell I'm even disgusted by myself." Alec answered looking down at the sheets feeling new tears filling his eyes and not trusting himself to break down if he looked in Magnus eyes. "I would never think that and I never did. What he did is the only disgusting thing but you...you are fare from it and you aren't used. Alexander, you are so strong and I'm only more happy now that I had the chance to meet you and I want us to try it." Magnus said with a gentel voice and stroked the back of Alecs hand with his palm. "You know if we try it there are things I maybe will never be able to give you. I will maybe never able to go future than a kiss...do you really want that? Do you really want to miss that because of me? Don't be stupid Magnus...there are so many other people who can give you more than I will ever can." Alec sniffed and he hated that he had these self doubts but he couldn't help him. He tried to find excuses for Magnus to ran away but Magnus wouldn't be Magnus if he really used these excuses. "No. I don't want anyone else and I don't care about sex. All that matters is that I have you and that we try it because I really like you. Maybe I could have someone else but they could never be as incredible as you because you are the strongest person I met." Magnus answered with all honesty and his heart was pounding loudly. "I'm weak...can't you see? He still controlls me. He still doesn't allow me to do things that are normal." Alec chuckled sadly and lifted his head so his eyes met Magnus. "That is something you are wrong in. He doesn't control you...look what you did. Just a few minutes ago you kissed me and you thought you would never be able to do that." Magnus answered and Alec smiled weakly at Magnus laying a hand on Magnus cheek. "You are so different, Magnus. It is so weird for me that I'm not afraid of you and you make me do things I thought that were be impossible." Alec confessed and Magnus heart skipped a beat because of Alecs confession. "Isn't that enough for us to try it at least?" Magnus asked with a little smile and Alec was trying to fight against the part who was afraid. "I...I would like to try it." Alec answered after a few seconds because he gave Magnus 100 reason to leave him but Magnus was still there. Magnus gave Alec a feeling he missed and he would be stupid to give up so easily. "So you want to be my boyfriend?" Magnus asked with a goofy grin and Alec blushed ten shades deeper than he usually did. Shyly Alec nodded and bit his lower lip feeling butterflies filling his stomach. "You are adorable." Magnus chuckled softly and Alec let out a little laugh. Alec was happy that even after Magnus knew everything he didn't want to leave. "Can I kiss you?" Magnus asked with a shy smile and Alec only nodded biting his lower lip. Magnus leaned closer and Alecs heart was beating out of his chest. Magnus could scream from happiness but he also knew it wouldn't be easy. Their lips met for a soft and gentle kiss making both smile brightly when they pulled back. "Damn...we were supposed to dance not kiss." Magnus chuckled when they pulled back and Alec chuckled too. He should be breaking down after he told everything but he didn't feel like it. Alec felt more relieved than breaking down and Magnus made him happy. "Can I ask you something?" Magnus asked not wanting to ruin the mood that just got better. Alec nodded and played with Magnus hand again. "Did you went to the police?" Magnus asked and Alec shook his head avoiding Magnus eyes who was actually not surprised but a little bit angry. This guy deserved to burn in prison but he got to know Alec and he could already guess that he didn't go. "Would you feel better if you know where he is?" Magnus asked because maybe this was why Alec felt not save. "I don't know...maybe. Maybe it would help..." Alec answered not really sure what to say because no one asked him that. "I could let my people start investigations...only if you want of course." Magnus said and Alec tried to think about it but actually it would relieve him to know where William was. "Could they really do that?" Alec asked and looked in Magnus beautiful brown eyes. "Yeah...I will talk to them. There is also something else...I want our relationship to be a secret." Magnus answered and the last sentence was like a pang in Alecs heart...//tbc

Magnus, WHAT? 😨😨😨😨💞❤