The drive to Alec place was quiet and Magnus still tried to process what Alec just told him. It was like a hurricane just swept through Magnus brain and he didn't know what to say. Alec looked out of the window still fighting tears but also he felt relieved a little. Magnus really hated to see Alec like that and he placed his one hand on Alecs thigh just above his knee. Alec was flinching but only because he was lost in his thoughts and quickly flashed Magnus a weak smile. They areived at Alecs home and it seemed like everyone was gone because no care was there. The silence turned a bit awkward when they walked in the house but Alec didn't know what to do. "Alexander?" Magnus asked softly and Alec turned around to look in Magnus eyes. "You don't have to tell me anything. We could also watch a movie...whatever you want." Magnus continued with an unsure voice and Alec thought for a few seconds. That Magnus was still there was like a miracle and it gave Alec a sudden feeling of being save. Alec couldn't really describe it but the fear of losing Magnus wasn't as strong as it used to be because Magnus knew now Alecs darkest secret and was still here. Alec never told anyone about what happened exactly but maybe Magnus was the one he could cry his heart out on. Maybe it was time to open up and maybe Magnus was the one because after all Magnus changed Alecs life with just a look. "I...I want to...I want to tell you what happened." Alec managed to talk and was surprised that his voice sounded confident and didn't break right away. Magnus was first a bit confused but when he got it he got a weird feeling in his stomach. He didn't want to say it but a part of him was happy that Alec wanted to tell him what happened. A part of Magnus was happy that Alec trusted him but there was a part that hated it abysmal that they even had to have this conversation. "Are you sure? You don't have to and you don't need to feel forced." Magnus answered and he wanted to give Alec the chance to decided what he wanted. "I want to...unless you don't want me to tell you." Alec said biting his lower lip and looking down to the ground avoiding Magnus eyes. "Alexander, I will always listen to you and no matter what you will tell me I will still be here and I won't leave. You look pretty tired...maybe you should take a little nap before we talk?" Magnus suggested smiling softly at Alec trying to encourage him with his words. Magnus wanted Alec to talk to him but he also saw how tired Alec was and he wanted Alec to rest a bit. "Can...can we try something?" Alec asked with shaky hands and tried not cry again. "Sure...what do you want to try?" Magnus asked with a little smile and Alec looked in Magnus eyes. These eyes gave Alec butterflies in his stomach and his heart warmed up. "We...we can go to my room." Alec answered and Magnus was a bit confused because it sounded like a huge deal for Alec. "Okay." Magnus smiled following Alec up the stairs in a slow speed. "I know you maybe think I'm silly but if you hear it you will understand me." Alec said when they stood in front of his room and his hands were sweaty now. "I would never think you are silly." Magnus answered softly and Alec gave him a weak smile before he opened the door. Magnus first looked at Alec who nodded and Magnus walked inside the room. The room was so beautiful and it looked really tidy which matched Alec. Big windows let light inside the big room and the bed was in the middle of it. "What do you want to try?" Magnus asked turning around and faced Alec who was a meter away. "Ca...Can you lay down?" Alec asked shyly and his heart was beating out of his chest. "Yeah...of course." Magnus answered and laid down on his back looking at the celling a bit confused. He felt weight on the other side of the matress and Alec was laying down next to him but a few inches away so their bodys weren't touching. Alec was so nervous and he breathed pretty fast but he wasn't scared. Magnus let Alec do what he wanted because he knew now how important it was for Alec to take it slow. He understood now how scared Alec was and still he did things he was scared of because of Magnus. He jumped in the cold water because of him and this meant the world to Magnus.
Magnus had his arms along his body so did Alec and Alecs hand moved closer to Magnus hands. It was like the hand was shyly trying to find the other hand it fit in and Magnus heart skipped a beat when finger brushed over his hand. Both were looking at te celling not daring to look at each other and now Alecs hand was laying above Magnus hand. Their palms touched and Alec slowly tangled their hands feeling little sparks because of the touch. The hand of Magnus fit perfectly in Alecs bigger hand and Magnus heart beat faster almsot reaching the same speed as Alecs. Alec thought about what to do next and that Magnus didn't move made it so much easier for Alec. Alec tried to take all courage in his body together and get over the fear of being close to someone. Alec slowly moved closer to Magnus without moving to much and now their sides were touching. Their shoulders touched and their feet brushed together making both smile a little. They were still holding hands and somehow Alec could take strength out of this connection. Alec closed his eyes and took a deep breath before he laid on his side and carfully snuggled in Magnus side. Alecs head was now resting on Magnus chest on the place where Magnus heart was. Alec could hear the fast heart beat and a little smile covered Alecs face because Magnus heart was beating as fast as his. There were no words or fast moves just two person who got closer. Magnus slowly lifted the hand which was holding Alecs earlier but not anymore. He slowly started to ran his hands through Alecs hair and Alec let out a hum as response. Magnus guessed Alec was comfortable with this situation and he slowly took with his other hand Alecs hand again. Alecs one arm was laying over Magnus tummy and holding Magnus hand. "I like that." Alec suddenly mumbled with a calm voice and it were the first words in the room for like 20 minutes. "I like it too." Magnus answered still running his hand through Alecs hair. Alec felt how his body relaxed under the soft touches of Magnus and he felt exhausted from the oustbrust of emotions earlier. Alec didn't realize how his eyelids got heavier and heavier until they fall closed. Sleep took over Alecs mind and for the first time in forever he felt save in his sleep...//tbc

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