I turned in the suddenly uncomfortable bed, it wasn't the same like the one I usually slept in at home.
I stared at the ceiling trying to imagine it was the night sky full of stars.
I tried to imagine Suga laying beside me that usual annoying smirk on his face.
The annoying smirk that I fell in love with.
Why hadn't I cherished all the moments with Suga? I took his sweetness for granted and now he will never see another sunrise another sunset all he will see is the back of his eyelids.
Sleep has taken his life.
What will happen if my sweetness never wakes up?
What will happen to the big house we dreamed of, we had so much planned after college we would move somewhere else start a family buy one of those California king beds so I could cuddle up on his chest and watch the night sky through the glass windows.
It was all gone.

Everything was gone and this sinking feeling in my chest kept telling me it was all my fault.
If only I had forced Suga to let me stay with him, if I hadn't gone to the cafe..he wouldn't have gone to save me.
He didn't deserve this.

Suga..
My body went into a state of mind that I couldn't control.
As if the world stop.
I could still see the red tinted hair and soft eye smiles.
My nails clawed at my chest wanting to rip my heart out and stop the pain.
My body rolled to the side as I curled into a ball a raw sob escaping my lips.
I felt as the air in me thinned.
My heart still beated with no life, my lungs still heaved with no breathe.

Insomnia took over and sleep refused to enter me.
There was only one person who could help me rest.
I crawled out of the bed making it to the door of my patient room, the hospital was quiet with only a few nurses working late hours.
I walked down the hall searching for what could be Suga's room.
There was a door labeled, MIN YOONGI.
I slowly turned the knob opening the door a creak.
My eyes found him.

Cords were hooked up to his arms and chest checking on his health, there were bandages on were the bullets had hit him.
I gasped lightly never seeing him in this state.
The Yoongi I always knew was fierce, sarcastic and always full of life his had a charm to him that made me feel warm inside but now he was frail, pale and weak.
I walked slowly to him muffling my footsteps as I neared the edge of his bed.
I slowly slipped myself into the hospital bed finding space beside him.
I could feel his chest rising in falling as I heard his raspy breathing.
"Suga I love you" I whispered hoping where ever he was he could hear me.
My hand found his I held it to my chest squeezing it tight as if this was all I had.
"I wish you could wake up, I wish everything was normal. Why can't you just wake up and tell me how stupid I am and how much you hate it when I'm stubborn" I sniffled with a laugh.
I swear I could feel Suga smiling too.
"If you can hear me I want you to know that I love you Min Yoongi and no matter how long it takes for you to wake up I'll be here waiting." I leaned over pecking his lips hoping he would open his eyes any moment.
But he didn't he stood still only his breathing reminding me he was still alive.
I pretended we were back at the hotel in Jeju Island. This was all a dream and I just woke up laying next to a sleeping Suga who would wake up the next morning and tell me how much he loved my smile.
"Goodnight sweetness" I whispered my eyes drooping as I drifted to sleep.

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"Are you listening to me Solbi?" Sohee's voice filled my ears as I stared out the window emptiness the only feeling.
"I was telling you how much I'm going to miss you for the start of the summer" Sohee smiled patting the small dog in her arms, I had asked her to watch over Frost for me while I would be in the hospital.
Summer had started, I wouldn't really call it summer since I just graduated from High School. It is more like intro to adulthood.
"Well me and Jin were looking at colleges and-"
"Let's not talk about the future.." I muttered not feeling good on the subject knowing that Suga was included in my future.
Sohee gave me a weak smile before her phone rang.
She picked It up only for it to be her boss asking her to clock into work.
My best friend waved goodbye taking the small puppy with her.
A few minutes later a nurse came in, "Someone is here to see you Ms.Kim" Shortly an elder man came in wearing a formal tux and a stern look on his face.
"Appa?" Shock was in my voice, I didn't think he would have shown up since I was a stain on the family name.
"I told you to stay away from that boy" He sighed gazing over my weak state.
A sickening laugh left me, "You come here to tell me that?".
"Don't expect others to pity you when your the one who put you in this position you should have stayed away from that garbage" Anger rose in me I grabbed the nearest glass cup and threw it at him.
It shattered against the wall as I missed.
"I hate you! I hate you! You never cared about me or my mom! And even If I was dead you would be happy because all I am is your mistake!" I yelled at him not noticing the tears springing from my eyes.
"When you get out of here don't expect to have a home to come to" He left like nothing.
That was what I was to him nothing.

Later that day the police visited me to ask me a few questions about Daehyun, apparently he was getting locked up for what he did too me and Suga.
It sort of made me feel bad, maybe he was a good person under all of that hate.
Maybe he just had a bad past like the rest of us.

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A|N:

Sorry if this chapter was so out of element.
But it had to happen and yea the first part is coming to a closure one more chapter until part 1 is done.
I'm sort of proud of myself and SAS all at the same time.
Oh and Chanyeol won for second love interest.
Is it just me but does anyone else picture Seulgi as Solbi when they read the story.