Jungkook's POV:

~confession~

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After Nuri went to bed, Namjoon and I had a little....argument.

"Stop denying your feelings Jungkook!"

"I don't love her! I don't know what love is, so how am I supposed to love her??", I asked angry, tears building up.

"Tell me how you feel when she's around you and describe her", Namjoon commanded now a little calmer.

"How will that tell me if I have feelings for her or not?", I frowned.

"You'll see, just do it!"

"Okay! So....ummm she has a cute height, she is really pretty, funny, nice, caring and so much more...."

"I-I wan't to protect her all the time and be there for her. She has been through a lot and she didn't deserve it."

That's when I just started to talk all of my feelings out without thinking properly.

"When she walks by my stomach feels.......feels like thousands of butterflys are in there and........
and a strange warm wave rolls over me and I get goose bumps everywhere", I smiled.

"When she hugs me I feel like I'm in heaven and-"

"Jungkook?", Namjoon cut me of.

"What?"

"You are in love. Really deep in love."

"....really?"

"Yep, now go talk to her. I don't think that she's sleeping just yet", he chuckled.

"I-"

"Go and win this girls heart!", he command.

"Okay", I gave in, making my way upstairs.

I was in love with someone.

Not only someone, with Kim Nuri.
The girl I accidentally texted a few months ago.

I slowly made my way to her room and stopped as I heard her saying:"I have to go now. I'm really tired. I love you!"

"I'm in love", she then said to herself and my heart shattered into a million pieces.

I stepped in.

"You're what?", I asked her and hoped she would tell me that this was a joke.

Why was I so angry all of a sudden?

"Jungkook?! How much did you hear of that conversation?", she asked panicking.

"Enough", I laughed bitterly while a tear left my right eye. I turned around and walked back to her guest room.

Silly me, what did I expect?

Telling her that I love her and she would kiss me or what?

I'm so stupid.

"Jungkook wait!", she shouted after me.

"What?!", I exclaimed, turninf around.
The sadness suddenly turned back into anger.

"Let me explain it. I know I should've told you earlier-"

"That you have a boyfriend?", I asked pissed.

"Yes- wait what?", she asked now confused.

"Don't play dumb. I heard you saying goodbye to someone and then you said I'm in love to yourself."

I tried so hard not to cry.

"I don't have a boyfriend, Jungkook."

"Don't lie to me, I heard what you said!"

"What is your problem??", she asked raising her voice, "what if I do have a boyfriend, huh?!"

"Then I should stay away from you", I answered, balling my hands into fists.

"Why?! Don't you want me to be happy?!", her voice broke.

"OF COURSE I WANT YOU TO BE HAPPY BUT-", I sighed, "but only with me", I whispered.

"What?", her eyes softened.

"I'm in love with you, Nuri", I confessed looking directly into her eyes, while hot tears streamed down my face.

"There I said it"
Those butterflys were back.

Her eyes widened.

"Y-You are in love with m-me?", she stuttered, tears building up.

"Yes", I lowered my head.

"How can you love that?", she asked while pointing down at her, "I'm a piece of trash. I'm ugly.....I'm not good enough for you."

"Don't you dare say that again", I said while walking closer to her, "you are perfect. I love every single of those scars on your body and every insecurity you think you have."

I cupped her cheeks.

"I love you with all of my heart and soul. I want to make you happy and to cuddle with you. I want to make memories with you and show you the positive sides in your life."

"I want to show you that you are worth living.
I couldn't imagine a life without you, Nuri. You're the reason I woke up yesterday, the reason I woke up today and the reason I will wake up tomorrow", I sighed heavily.

"But you love someone else", I said resting my forehead against hers.
Tears were streaming down her face as she whispered: "You are such an idiot"

"Why", I chuckled.

"Because I was talking about you, Jungkook."

"W-What?", I lifted my head.

"I love you too", she confessed smiling weakly. I saw all of her emotions in her eyes and I understood them.

This was her first time saying this to a boy after her boyfriend died.

"If you need some time to think about everything I will respect that. I will wait for you, untill you're ready", I smiled widely.

"Thank you", she slowly hugged me.

"Good night, Kookie"

"Good night, princess", I said and placed a gentle kiss on her forehead.

Then she walked back into her room and so did I.
And in that night I slept in smiling like an idiot.

But I was happy.

I was truly happy.

~☆~