Nuri's POV:

~after the concert~

~

While BTS performed on stage, Jungkook smiled at me once in awhile and Senja went crazy thinking he smiled at her.

I thought I was hilarious, but to be honest I loved to see her so happy.

When they said goodbye to their fans they all looked pretty exhausted and sad.
But the boys were amazing and it was the best performance I've ever seen live.

After somehow managing to get out of the stadium, Senja and I drove back home, yet she was still under the rush of adrenaline.
I knew she must be tired after all of this, so I brought her home so she could rest, before driving to a small store nearby.

I wanted to buy some little presents for the fan meeting tomorrow, since it seemed like a nice gesture.
But I didn't really know what to buy.

Cutie💜:
Hey, Kookie!😊
The performance was absolutly amazing!
And I have a little question...

Kookie💓:
Aww, thanks!
And what?

Cutie💜:
So, um...I want
to buy some little presents
for all of you

Cutie💜:
But I have no Idea
what I should buy😅

Kookie💓:
You don't have to
buy us anything!

Cutie💜:
But I want to!

Kookie💓:
But please nothing
expensive
Maybe little bracelets!

Cutie💜:
Okay...I think I found something!
Text you later!

Kookie💓:
Oki!

I ended up buying what he had recommended, even if it wasn't as cheap as Jungkook wanted it to be.

I then headed home and started packing a few things, because I decided to spend a little time in Korea.

My family has a house there, which I kept after they died.
And after my breakdown I planed to go on a little vacation.

For a long time.

Maybe even a year, who knows?
I already talked to Senja about it, leaving my mental health out of the explanation. I just told her I would take some time off.
I just didn't want to worry her.

She and Alexander will take care of the studio while I'll be away.

I came onto the idea of returning to Korea after Jungkook and I exchanged our Snapchat accounts and he sent me a lot of pictures of Seoul, which made me miss my hometown.

After packing everything, I let myself fall into my bed and unlocked my phone.

(1 unread message)

Kookie💓:
I can't wait to talk to
you tomorrow

Cutie💜:
Really?
I thought you were
a little shy?

Kookie💓:
I was just nervous
I'm not shy ;)

Cutie💜:
Don't you dare start
with that wink thing

Kookie💓:
And what if I do cutie ;)

Cutie💜:
That's it-
Get some sleep and text
me when your flirting
phase is over :)

Kookie💓:
Pffff unfair

Cutie💜:
Gotta go to bed now, it's
pretty late!
See you tomorrow 😉

Kookie💓:
NOW YOU USED THE
WINK!! WHY AM I NOT
ALLOWED TO USE IT???

Cutie💜:
Good night!
And get some restiiii

Kookie💓:
YAH WAIT-

I giggled at the text while changing into my pyjamas.

Gosh how much I loved to tease Jungkook. I wish I could do that in person. Lately I've been thinking about him, imagining how things would look like if we were real friends, not just internet friend.

I sighed.

I wish we could be real friends. Singing together, late movie nights...
It didn't take long for me to fall asleep imagining all of that.

"Nuri! Wake up, I want to be early!", Senja shouted, pulling my curtains aside so my whole room lit up with warm sunlight.

I groaned and pulled the blanket over my head.

"Let me guess: It's around 6 am?", I asked with my raspy morning voice.

"Correct! Now stand up!", she whined and left my room.
I sighed before doing what she told me to and got ready, putting on similar clothes as yesterday.

After I got ready, I got into the car and she drove to the fan meeting thing.
And surprise. It was exactly like the concert; tons of fans waiting in front of the building.

And I suddenly wished I ate something before all this.

That could be a long day.....

As soon as we got let into the building and stood in the row and I hid my face with a cap and a mask, so that Kookie wouldn't be able to spot me in the crowd.

He was talking to a fan, touched her hand and signed some things. Honestly this whole idol thing was so impressive, I could never imagine such a life.

Senja explained such fan meeting to me a few days ago and gave me a notebook for them to sign it, since I didn't want an album. A notebook was better anyway, because I used it as some sort of diary and filled it with notes, pictures and some.......thoughts.

Deep thoughts.

I had pages that were really extreme, but writing everything down made me feel so much better. And for it to really help me I wrote a "how to overcome it" page after every extreme page.

Maybe one day I can look at all of these thoughts, feeling proud because I'm happy then and don't think that way anymore...

And also smile at the free pages I left for BTS to sign, remembering the time Jungkook and I were friends.

Only one girl in front of me, until I would start talking to Jimin.
And Senja somehow happened to be three people behind me. I gave her a panicked smile, not quite feeling as confident without her by my side.

(A/n: I don't have a clue how these fan meetings work, but just think it would work like this.
And by the way I know that a lot of fans are sleeping days outside, to be early, but just IMAGINE it works like that, thx)

I pulled out the little box with the name Jimin on it, where the bracelet was in and held it in my hand.

After 5 minutes the girl walked to Jin and I stepped to Jimin, handing him my notebook.....

~☆~