Dear Diary..

Well.. i found this empty book, sorry.. i found you. Peoples says that you are for writing in it, so i decided to do it.

Its hard for me to tell things to anyone.. exspecially to a book.. but im gonna try it.

Today, i could stole a new blade from the dojo. Splinter is always there to watch after us, so it was pretty hard. Once i got it, i felt the need in me.. i wanted it.. i wanted the blood to roll down on my whole body..

As i headed back, i didnt saw that someone were there. I just felt his presence.. i thought that if he want stg he will show himself, but he never did so i went in my room with the kunai.

I looked at it, and unwrapped my twist. I watched as my old scars got redder by the time i rubbed it. Then i looked at the blade. I grabbed it and put it to my wrist.

"Just do it" .. I frowned.. i heard a true voice. It wasnt just my thoughts, it was exist, and i got completely frozen.. i wasnt alone anymore.

"Do it. You need it. Cut" it was her again. Her voice was so tender.. and kind.. i decided to trust in her.

"I never leave you alone anymore, i will be you angel. I love you, I am the only one who loves you, remember it. Raphael. "
She said, and got quiet again.

This was my first night with her. It was so beautiful. I could feel that she was there. Looking after me as i fall asleep..

Dreaming about her, and i saw the full-moon like her eyes. Beautiful and light.