Hello.. dear.. Diary..

Today morning wasnt the best.

As i got up, i felt Donnie hugging me. I wasnt surprised. Yesterday was odd and.. at least, someone loves me in the way that no one does.

I went back to my room, picked up some stuff, carrying to Donnies and put the sutffs down. He said im gonna stay at his room so i brought everything what i need.

I layed back next to him, he smiled and got on top of me. Sudden fear got into me as he leaned closer. I let it go and sighed.

He saddened and layed down on me, hugging me..
It was.. strange. I felt.. something.. i wasnt sure what.. i still dont know. He said he loves me.. and.. he cant see me suffering like this. Some of his words made me feel worse.

"I love you. Please. Dont give up." I felt that tears from in the corner of my eyes. He was.. so kind.. and caring..

All i did was hurt him even more than he was already..
I didnt know what to do.. he was hugging me, crying.. i cried too..

As we layed there, i felt him getting up. He rubbed his eyes, whiping away his tears. I looked at him.. dont ask why.. i was just.. sad.. desperate.. and.. im still that.

He hugged me again as we sat, then he got up, walking out.

I stared at the wall in front of me.. there was nothong interesting.. just.. emptyness. Like always..

I was in his room all day after the morning hugs.

He brought me food to eat a bit but i rejected everything.

He looked sad.. so.. sad.. i saw some tears again.. dont know what to do.. i layed on my back, feeling numb again.

I know i couldnt make him happy.. im too hars on him, and he doesnt deserve this. After writing this down, im gonna run away. I want to see them happy. And with me here.. theyre just suffering.. exspecilly him..

Bye..